Talking to God!

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I start each day talking to God about many things. But mostly I talk to Him about my weight struggles, my excessive debt, and the stresses of life. Also I pray for the many needs of others and in general the condition of the world.

Throughout the years I’ve written my prayers. This helped me maintain focus. And it also provided me a release from my stresses. After all, God is a great listener.

To begin with, I’d write my concerns, questions, and then I write His answers to my questions just as they came into my heart..

This blog will contain some of those conversations I’ve had with God about my constant struggle with my weight, my compulsive overeating, and seeking His wisdom concerning my excessive debt.

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I’ve gained, lost, and regained over 60 lbs. several times throughout my lifetime. A few years ago, I lost over 90 lbs. just eating the way God instructed me to. Then I gained some of it back. Sigh.

And my debt is embarrassing, I won’t tell you how many times I have paid off debt only to run it back up again.

So now I’m in the process of again surrendering these addictions, both of excess food and accessive use of credit cards to God’s control. Also, I have arranged two accountability partners that I text daily.

Over all, I’m asking God to grant me wisdom and I know He’ll give me the victory. After all, He promises in His Word that if you ask, He will give you more wisdom.

And I certainly need more wisdom. What about you? Could you use more wisdom too?

I believe that God speaks to all of His children in different ways. With me, He speaks both in my heart and in my prayer writings.

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If you’ve never experienced God’s Presence, you should just start talking to God for yourself. And if you listen for His voice, He will speak to you too. I highly recommend it for your peace of mind. In fact, God’s Presence brings peace and assurance.

It’s my hope and prayer that my conversations with God will encourage and bless you throughout your own journey. I hope that you’ll start talking to God about your concerns too. He’ll speak to your heart as you seek HIm..

By the way, if You have a prayer need, send me an email. (debbiejean2010@att.net) I might not send you a reply, but this I do promise: I will pray.

Try Talking To God For Yourself

Therefore I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of My salvation; my God will hear me. Micah 7:7 NKJV

. . . He will be very gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it, He will answer you. Isaiah 30:19 NKJV

If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and He will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. James 1:5 NLT

My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me. John 10:27 NJKV
Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer; you shall cry and He will say, “Here I am” . . . Isaiah 58:9 NKJV

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Break Free

 

Break free
Lord, is it possible to break free? (Picture by Deborah Crocker)

Lord, is it possible to break free from this stronghold that has me defeated?

Child, do you believe I can deliver you?

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Freedom And Deliverance

Freedom and deliverance
Freedom and deliverance comes from God

Freedom and deliverance, salvation and righteousness. Child, I have already planned it all.  So come to Me for your freedom and deliverance, salvation and righteousness. I will set you free. 

Yes My child, I’ve already planned for your victory. So come to Me, Your freedom and deliverance is found in My Presence. And I will not let you go. So come to Me.

In fact, I created you for My plans and My glory. Therefore it’s My plan for you to have victory. And you will indeed. 

I’m going to put your food addiction, compulsion under your feet. For I have already won the victory. So come to Me and walk in your victory. 

Okay Lord, do I need to join a group for support me? If so, which one?

Do I need to go to a weight loss counselor? Again, I ask You, which one?

Child, I’ve told you before,  I’m your counselor. Come to Me.

So Lord, what do I do now? Help me. Because I can’t do this.

But Child, I can. Because of Me, you can do all things. As a matter of fact, I am the supply for all your needs, even strength to overcome. 

So trust Me and use these tools I freely give you.

  1. Command the addiction/compulsion to leave in the name of Jesus.                   
  2. Clear your mind by offering the sacrifice of praise, singing songs of “Victory in Jesus”.

FEED ON THIS

Look to the Lord, and His strength; seek His face always. Psalms 105:4 NIV

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalms37:4 ESV

No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man, but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it. 1Corinthains 10:13 NKJV

Victory Over Binges

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Seeking victory over binges.
Expect victory over binges.

Lord, I need victory over binges. I need Your help. I’m caught in a trap, a trap of my own making. Now it seems I can’t get out. Oh why do I go insane at night, especially when I’m tired?

Child, that’s when Satan knows it’s the best time to harass you, when you are tired. Tonight, when you get tired, just go to bed and rest. 

Habits need changing. And Child of Mine, this stronghold on you is so strong that you need My power to resist the temptation. Child, I can help you. 

But Lord, how? We’ve talked about this many times before. And I’m still trapped, unable to set myself free.

But Child, I can set you free. 

But Lord, how? You’ve suggested many things to me before. Then I get so encouraged and start out in victory. Then later, I fall right back into this trap of defeat.

Child, I will lift you out of this despair, this trap, this self-inflicted bondage. I will lift you out and set you free.

But Lord, how?

Child, just call My name.

Lord, when the thought comes to overeat, I don’t think. My mind is blank. All I focus on is what to eat. What do I want to eat?

Child, only I can fill this void you have. It is I who you need to fill you up. 

Lord, how?

Call on My name, Jesus. 

God will give you victory over binges.

Lord, could You give me a scripture from Your Word besides those I already know? I have head knowledge, but I just can’t seem to get myself out of this self-inflicted trap. I’ve dug this hole and jumped in for the pleasures within. Now I’m trapped and I can’t get myself out.

Child, I can get you out. 

But Lord, how?

Call on My Name. Ask for your deliverance in My name, the name of Jesus.  

— I will return her vineyards to her and transform the Valley of Trouble into a gateway of hope. She will give herself to Me there, as she did long ago when she was young, when I freed her from her captivity in Egypt. Hosea 2:15 NLT  

Child, you are now trapped in the Valley of Trouble and defeat. But I am your hope and you will sing of “Victory in Jesus”. And you will gain your victory just as you did many years ago.

Feed on My Word for there is where you will find your strength. You search My word each morning, but then zone out on your social media at night to relax. That’s why your mind goes blank. You have zoned out to relax. 

Now I command you – no more zoning out on social media at night for you must be alert and focused. You want success and victory. Therefore feed on My Word each night and it will renew your mind. 

Why did you think I told Joshua to mediate on it day and night? Weakness results from physical exhaustion.  And I want to build you up in your faith and your power to resist temptation. I want to make you strong.

So, to renew your mind and make you strong, feed on My Word day and night. Take it as medicine for your soul and your mind.

—- Study this Book of Instruction continually. Meditate on it day and night so you will be sure to obey everything written in it. Only then will you prosper and succeed in all you do. Joshua 1:8 NLT

Through My Word, I will increase your self-control, self- discipline, and renew your mind. Then you’ll be feeding your mind wisdom and strength, faith and power. As you feed on My Word to build your spiritual muscles, it will make you strong indeed. You will emerge undefeated and victorious. 

Now here’s your challenge: Feed on My word for 40 days and nights. See how that works for you. 

The Gluttony Monster

The Gluttony Monster

Lord, I think this gluttony monster comes to my house every evening. And when the compulsion from this monster hits, I don’t even stop to think. It consumes me.

I need more discipline, consistency, strength, and the power to say ‘No’ to this food obsession, this gluttony monster. I can’t change myself because I am powerless over myself.

But My Child, I have all the power you need.

Lord, My day starts out so good. I eat appropriate and sufficient. But then after supper, here comes this gluttony monster to consume my health.

Yes Child,  I see it all. My heart hurts for you. And I long to set you free. It is My will to set you free. 

So Lord, what can I do? I know You said to semi-fast for 40 days. But ever since that day, I’ve been invaded by this overwhelming compulsive to overeat. In fact, I’ve been eating like crazy.

I know You said, ‘Come to You’. But I haven’t stopped eating long enough to ‘come’ to You. Lord, I don’t know what to do.

I want to please You. I want to love You as I should. But here I am, all messed up.

I can pray words, “Create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit”. But they are only words, just words, unless I change.

Child, I have watched you and I’ve been waiting for you even as you fell. But I’m always waiting to catch you. I will help you, for I have the power.

You will win over this addiction, over this gluttony monster. You will defeat this compulsion for I created you to be a victor. I created you for victory.

So Lord, what do I do?

Pray without ceasing. Every hour of every day come to Me. Check it off your time schedule if you must. But you must come to Me.  

Lord, I do want You to create in me a clean heart. And I long for a steadfast spirit before You. Fill me with Your sweet Presence daily and forevermore.

Child, I intend to. You will win over this compulsive gluttony monster. For I am THE WINNER and I created you to be a winner too. Therefore expect victory.

Be strong in the Lord
There are no perfect people, but God has already planned for your victory.

Expect victory. You will have your victory for I have already designed it. I am holding it in My hand. And you are a winner. You will win.

It may look like defeat to you. But when I look at you, I see a winner. You are Mine. You are a winner for I have already declared it so. 

Now get up and wash your face. Go forth today marching in your victory

Thank you Lord for not giving up on me.

Child, I never give up on any of My children. 

FEED OH THIS

You have already won a victory . . . because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world. 1John 4:4 NLT

For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. 2 Corinthians 10: 3-4 ESV

Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. . . . James 4:7-8

Don’t Be Double-Minded

Lord, I don’t want to be double-minded. So help me focus on You, and Your will. Lead to those people You want me to help.

Not double-minded, but victory minded.

Not doubled-minded, but victory minded instead.

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Entangled in Food Addiction

Lord, I’ve become entangled in food addiction again. I’ve been in this trap of defeat for several years now. Really all my life I have struggled with my weight and food addiction.

What’s humiliating is that after You healed me with a weight loss miracle of losing 90 pounds in 2014, I backslid. Yes, in 2017, I backslid and regained 30 0f those pounds.

Although I’ve maintained a weight loss of 60 pounds, I’m ashamed of regaining those 30 pounds. And now I’ve lost & regained the same 10 pounds over & over since 2020.

Lord, I wanted to help others defeat their food addiction, compulsive overeating, binge eating, gluttony, and bloating misery. But how can I help others when I, myself, am entangled in food addiction again?

Yes, here I am now due to my own wrong choices of yesterday. Lord, would You help me again to climb out of this hellhole of my own creation?

Entangled in Food Addiction

I have no strength to resist temptation, but I do want to help others climb out of their hellholes of food addiction. So how can I help them?

Child, I’m full of Almighty power- stronger than any other source. I am ALL power, stronger than your electricity and more powerful than lightening.

Don’t you think I have the power to defeat your food compulsions?

Yes Lord.

Then My Child, why don’t you come to Me first, before you put anything in your mouth- including your gum. As you chew your gum, practice thanking Me for your victories. When you chew your food, talk to Me.

As a matter of fact, even before you look at your food, talk to Me first about it. Talk to Me about all your concerns.

Talking to Me will bring you peace, henceforth destroying your need to stress eat. For then you’ll be stress praying instead of stress overeating.

Entangled in Food Addiction

Talking with Me will calm your spirit and mind, henceforth destroying the need for emotional eating. For then you’ll be emotional praying. And I will heal your emotions and fill you Myself with a calm and peaceful spirit. Wouldn’t that be better for you instead of a stuffed, bloated belly?

Talking with Me would bring you the pleasure of My sweet Presence, henceforth destroying the power of pleasure food temptations. And then you’d be experiencing the greatest sweet pleasure of life, My Presence surrounding you and within you.

When you’re full of My Presence, then you’re also full of My power and strength. Overall, you’d be full of My peace and My love.

Temptations would no longer defeat you for then you’d be walking in My power and My strength.

Now what do you choose, My Child?

Lord, I choose You. I want You. I want to be free, not entangled in food addiction. But Lord, I’m so weak. Would You help me, even though I backslid due to my own bad choices?

Child, the more of your time you spend in My Presence, the stronger you’ll become. You’ll be walking in My power.

Now come to Me for I love you. And I long to give you victory throughout all your life. As a matter of fact I long to grant all of My children victory over sin, shame and defeat.

I intend for all of My children to live victorious forevermore. For I AM victory. So all of Mine will be victorious too, as they seek to follow Me.

Lord, I’ve let myself become entangled again in food addiction by my own wrong choices. Please set me free from this prison, the one I created for myself. Help me make wise choices that will honor you.

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CHEW ON THIS

Set me free from my prison, that I may praise Your Name. Then the righteous will gather about me because of Your goodness to me. Psalms 142: 7 NIV

Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. Don’t turn away from me, or I will die. Let me hear of Your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting You. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to You. . . . Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God. May Your gracious spirit lead me forward on a firm footing. Psalms 143: 7,8,10 NLT

At last we have freedom, for Christ has set us free! We must always cherish this truth and firmly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Galatians 5:1 TPT

You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. Galatians 5:13 NIV

Lord, I Want Your Love

 

Lord, I want your love. Lord, I want Your love

 

Lord, I want Your love. Help me to return to You as My first love, my greatest love. Help me to obey You in all my ways especially in dealing with other people and my food issues.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

What do You want me to write? Do You even want me to write? Lord, I don’t know what it is that You want for me or with me for that matter.

And I’m so concerned about all my grandchildren, and their parents too, living in the society of today. Lord, I don’t know what I can do.

Child, pray My will be done in their lives. 

Lord, help me to only speak words of affirmation, encouragement, and of Your love for them. Keep my mouth shut, clamped shut when, or if, it is full of criticism or discouragement.

Also Lord, help me to love You in a way that it pleases You. I want a real relationship with You, not just the mechanics of routine prayers and Bible reading. In fact, I want a deep relationship with You. Overall, I want Your Presence with me at all times, throughout all my life.

Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

Help me to turn away completely from this unnecessary food that so easily tempts and  entraps me to compulsively overeat.

Lord, I do want to lose weight, and I also want to help Hubby lose his extra weight too. But I don’t want him to be skinnier than me. How embarrassing that would be.

So help me to yield Myself to Thee completely and resist temptation to put my face in the feeding trough.

Child if you seek and follow My will concerning your food, you will lose weight. I will lead you and you will have success.

Also Lord, when I write my prayers, thoughts, or even the words You spoke to my heart, I always consider if this would be good to write in this blog. Lord, I want our talks to be about our relationship, not the blog. But if I am to write for the blog, then lead me and help me to organize my time schedule to write and publish.

Child, it will be so. 

Lord, I want to know You like those people who say they have a “word” from You. I want to love You like they love You. Also, I want others to see You in me and be attracted to You because of it. Help me to please You in all my ways.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love
Lord, I want Your love.
I want a deep relationship with You as I have never had before. I want a new awakening, deep with my spirit.

Make me hungry for You. Yes, I want to be hungry for You. And I want a deeper walk with You too.

Lord, what do You want from me?

Your love, My child, I want your love. 

Lord, these people who say they have a “word” from You spend hours in reading Your Word and in prayer too. I don’t have hours due to my job and my home responsibilities.

Child, it is not your hours I want. It is your heart I want. I want your love.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.

 

I Can Do All Things.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

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Lord, I’m sorry about my overeating.

Child, I love you. 

But Lord, what about him, her, or all of them?

I love them too.

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I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

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Child, yesterday you asked for a scripture to hold on to – to claim as a promise- to believe in. Here it is:

– I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

I AM on your side and I will help you because I love you. Now repeat after Me-

– I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

 But Lord, what do You want me to do?

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40 Days of Victory
Day 2

To repeat what I’ve told  you many times already. 1. Seek My will in all you do, even to what you eat. 2. Listen as I speak to your heart. 3. Follow My guidance. 4. Obey My words. 5. Trust Me for I work out all things for your good. 

But Lord, even this weight gain?

Yes Child. for this weight that so easily attaches itself to you causes you to seek Me. Therefore I am working it out for your good. 

Although I intend for you to have victory over this food addiction. Also know that it’s not My desire that this freedom process take you 40 years. Of course, you make that choice by your actions. 

Oh Lord, the worst part is I feel that I have sinned and embarrassed You by my weight gain. I can do all things

Child, I will never give up on you. I never give up on any of My children. Rather I’m always drawing on their hearts, calling them unto Myself. 

As a matter of fact, I’m calling on many hearts now to turn to Me for their victory.

My peace is their victory. I offer unto all peace of heart and peace of mind.

After all, My Love is their victory. And I offer unto all a love that cannot be erased. Therefore I will never reject or abandon them no matter what they do or say. In spite of their failures, I’ll always love them. In fact I’ll forever call on their hearts with words of My love. 

Strength I offer them, not physical strength to move boulders. Instead I offer strong inner strength to withstand the pressures of life, especially when it feels overwhelming. Indeed, I am always by their side holding them up in My strength.

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I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

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Finally Child, know this means ALL THINGS. After all, if I brought you to it, I will bring you through it. 

Yes Sir. Thank you sir.

I can do all things
He will never give up on you.

I can do all things

 

Fat People With Jesus?

Lord, were there fat people when You walked the Earth?

(Note: I can ask this because I have been obese most of my adult life. And I’m 30 pounds overweight now. So isn’t it nice that we can talk to our Lord Jesus about anything and He doesn’t condemn us for asking silly questions.)

Soon I wont be one of the fat people.
Soon I won’t be one of the fat people- only 30 pounds to go.
I'm one of the fat people
What I used to look like at 241 pounds

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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