Tag: food addiction

The Gluttony Monster

The Gluttony Monster

Lord, I think this gluttony monster comes to my house every evening. And when the compulsion from this monster hits, I don’t even stop to think. It consumes me.

I need more discipline, consistency, strength, and the power to say ‘No’ to this food obsession, this gluttony monster. I can’t change myself because I am powerless over myself.

But My Child, I have all the power you need.

Lord, My day starts out so good. I eat appropriate and sufficient. But then after supper, here comes this gluttony monster to consume my health.

Yes Child,  I see it all. My heart hurts for you. And I long to set you free. It is My will to set you free. 

So Lord, what can I do? I know You said to semi-fast for 40 days. But ever since that day, I’ve been invaded by this overwhelming compulsive to overeat. In fact, I’ve been eating like crazy.

I know You said, ‘Come to You’. But I haven’t stopped eating long enough to ‘come’ to You. Lord, I don’t know what to do.

I want to please You. I want to love You as I should. But here I am, all messed up.

I can pray words, “Create in me a clean heart and renew a steadfast spirit”. But they are only words, just words, unless I change.

Child, I have watched you and I’ve been waiting for you even as you fell. But I’m always waiting to catch you. I will help you, for I have the power.

You will win over this addiction, over this gluttony monster. You will defeat this compulsion for I created you to be a victor. I created you for victory.

So Lord, what do I do?

Pray without ceasing. Every hour of every day come to Me. Check it off your time schedule if you must. But you must come to Me.  

Lord, I do want You to create in me a clean heart. And I long for a steadfast spirit before You. Fill me with Your sweet Presence daily and forevermore.

Child, I intend to. You will win over this compulsive gluttony monster. For I am THE WINNER and I created you to be a winner too. Therefore expect victory.

Be strong in the Lord
There are no perfect people, but God has already planned for your victory.

Expect victory. You will have your victory for I have already designed it. I am holding it in My hand. And you are a winner. You will win.

It may look like defeat to you. But when I look at you, I see a winner. You are Mine. You are a winner for I have already declared it so. 

Now get up and wash your face. Go forth today marching in your victory

Thank you Lord for not giving up on me.

Child, I never give up on any of My children. 

FEED OH THIS

You have already won a victory . . . because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world. 1John 4:4 NLT

For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. 2 Corinthians 10: 3-4 ESV

Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. . . . James 4:7-8

Don’t Be Double-Minded

Lord, I don’t want to be double-minded. So help me focus on You, and Your will. Lead to those people You want me to help.

Not double-minded, but victory minded.

Not doubled-minded, but victory minded instead.

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Entangled in Food Addiction

Lord, I’ve become entangled in food addiction again. I’ve been in this trap of defeat for several years now. Really all my life I have struggled with my weight and food addiction.

What’s humiliating is that after You healed me with a weight loss miracle of losing 90 pounds in 2014, I backslid. Yes, in 2017, I backslid and regained 30 0f those pounds.

Although I’ve maintained a weight loss of 60 pounds, I’m ashamed of regaining those 30 pounds. And now I’ve lost & regained the same 10 pounds over & over since 2020.

Lord, I wanted to help others defeat their food addiction, compulsive overeating, binge eating, gluttony, and bloating misery. But how can I help others when I, myself, am entangled in food addiction again?

Yes, here I am now due to my own wrong choices of yesterday. Lord, would You help me again to climb out of this hellhole of my own creation?

Entangled in Food Addiction

I have no strength to resist temptation, but I do want to help others climb out of their hellholes of food addiction. So how can I help them?

Child, I’m full of Almighty power- stronger than any other source. I am ALL power, stronger than your electricity and more powerful than lightening.

Don’t you think I have the power to defeat your food compulsions?

Yes Lord.

Then My Child, why don’t you come to Me first, before you put anything in your mouth- including your gum. As you chew your gum, practice thanking Me for your victories. When you chew your food, talk to Me.

As a matter of fact, even before you look at your food, talk to Me first about it. Talk to Me about all your concerns.

Talking to Me will bring you peace, henceforth destroying your need to stress eat. For then you’ll be stress praying instead of stress overeating.

Entangled in Food Addiction

Talking with Me will calm your spirit and mind, henceforth destroying the need for emotional eating. For then you’ll be emotional praying. And I will heal your emotions and fill you Myself with a calm and peaceful spirit. Wouldn’t that be better for you instead of a stuffed, bloated belly?

Talking with Me would bring you the pleasure of My sweet Presence, henceforth destroying the power of pleasure food temptations. And then you’d be experiencing the greatest sweet pleasure of life, My Presence surrounding you and within you.

When you’re full of My Presence, then you’re also full of My power and strength. Overall, you’d be full of My peace and My love.

Temptations would no longer defeat you for then you’d be walking in My power and My strength.

Now what do you choose, My Child?

Lord, I choose You. I want You. I want to be free, not entangled in food addiction. But Lord, I’m so weak. Would You help me, even though I backslid due to my own bad choices?

Child, the more of your time you spend in My Presence, the stronger you’ll become. You’ll be walking in My power.

Now come to Me for I love you. And I long to give you victory throughout all your life. As a matter of fact I long to grant all of My children victory over sin, shame and defeat.

I intend for all of My children to live victorious forevermore. For I AM victory. So all of Mine will be victorious too, as they seek to follow Me.

Lord, I’ve let myself become entangled again in food addiction by my own wrong choices. Please set me free from this prison, the one I created for myself. Help me make wise choices that will honor you.

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CHEW ON THIS

Set me free from my prison, that I may praise Your Name. Then the righteous will gather about me because of Your goodness to me. Psalms 142: 7 NIV

Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. Don’t turn away from me, or I will die. Let me hear of Your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting You. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to You. . . . Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God. May Your gracious spirit lead me forward on a firm footing. Psalms 143: 7,8,10 NLT

At last we have freedom, for Christ has set us free! We must always cherish this truth and firmly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Galatians 5:1 TPT

You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. Galatians 5:13 NIV

Lord, I Want Your Love

 

Lord, I want your love. Lord, I want Your love

 

Lord, I want Your love. Help me to return to You as My first love, my greatest love. Help me to obey You in all my ways especially in dealing with other people and my food issues.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

What do You want me to write? Do You even want me to write? Lord, I don’t know what it is that You want for me or with me for that matter.

And I’m so concerned about all my grandchildren, and their parents too, living in the society of today. Lord, I don’t know what I can do.

Child, pray My will be done in their lives. 

Lord, help me to only speak words of affirmation, encouragement, and of Your love for them. Keep my mouth shut, clamped shut when, or if, it is full of criticism or discouragement.

Also Lord, help me to love You in a way that it pleases You. I want a real relationship with You, not just the mechanics of routine prayers and Bible reading. In fact, I want a deep relationship with You. Overall, I want Your Presence with me at all times, throughout all my life.

Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

Help me to turn away completely from this unnecessary food that so easily tempts and  entraps me to compulsively overeat.

Lord, I do want to lose weight, and I also want to help Hubby lose his extra weight too. But I don’t want him to be skinnier than me. How embarrassing that would be.

So help me to yield Myself to Thee completely and resist temptation to put my face in the feeding trough.

Child if you seek and follow My will concerning your food, you will lose weight. I will lead you and you will have success.

Also Lord, when I write my prayers, thoughts, or even the words You spoke to my heart, I always consider if this would be good to write in this blog. Lord, I want our talks to be about our relationship, not the blog. But if I am to write for the blog, then lead me and help me to organize my time schedule to write and publish.

Child, it will be so. 

Lord, I want to know You like those people who say they have a “word” from You. I want to love You like they love You. Also, I want others to see You in me and be attracted to You because of it. Help me to please You in all my ways.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love
Lord, I want Your love.
I want a deep relationship with You as I have never had before. I want a new awakening, deep with my spirit.

Make me hungry for You. Yes, I want to be hungry for You. And I want a deeper walk with You too.

Lord, what do You want from me?

Your love, My child, I want your love. 

Lord, these people who say they have a “word” from You spend hours in reading Your Word and in prayer too. I don’t have hours due to my job and my home responsibilities.

Child, it is not your hours I want. It is your heart I want. I want your love.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.

 

I Can Do All Things.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

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Lord, I’m sorry about my overeating.

Child, I love you. 

But Lord, what about him, her, or all of them?

I love them too.

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I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

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Child, yesterday you asked for a scripture to hold on to – to claim as a promise- to believe in. Here it is:

– I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

I AM on your side and I will help you because I love you. Now repeat after Me-

– I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

 But Lord, what do You want me to do?

i can do all things
40 Days of Victory
Day 2

To repeat what I’ve told  you many times already. 1. Seek My will in all you do, even to what you eat. 2. Listen as I speak to your heart. 3. Follow My guidance. 4. Obey My words. 5. Trust Me for I work out all things for your good. 

But Lord, even this weight gain?

Yes Child. for this weight that so easily attaches itself to you causes you to seek Me. Therefore I am working it out for your good. 

Although I intend for you to have victory over this food addiction. Also know that it’s not My desire that this freedom process take you 40 years. Of course, you make that choice by your actions. 

Oh Lord, the worst part is I feel that I have sinned and embarrassed You by my weight gain. I can do all things

Child, I will never give up on you. I never give up on any of My children. Rather I’m always drawing on their hearts, calling them unto Myself. 

As a matter of fact, I’m calling on many hearts now to turn to Me for their victory.

My peace is their victory. I offer unto all peace of heart and peace of mind.

After all, My Love is their victory. And I offer unto all a love that cannot be erased. Therefore I will never reject or abandon them no matter what they do or say. In spite of their failures, I’ll always love them. In fact I’ll forever call on their hearts with words of My love. 

Strength I offer them, not physical strength to move boulders. Instead I offer strong inner strength to withstand the pressures of life, especially when it feels overwhelming. Indeed, I am always by their side holding them up in My strength.

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I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

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Finally Child, know this means ALL THINGS. After all, if I brought you to it, I will bring you through it. 

Yes Sir. Thank you sir.

I can do all things
He will never give up on you.

I can do all things

 

Fat People With Jesus?

Lord, were there fat people when You walked the Earth?

(Note: I can ask this because I have been obese most of my adult life. And I’m 30 pounds overweight now. So isn’t it nice that we can talk to our Lord Jesus about anything and He doesn’t condemn us for asking silly questions.)

Soon I wont be one of the fat people.
Soon I won’t be one of the fat people- only 30 pounds to go.
I'm one of the fat people
What I used to look like at 241 pounds

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Our Present Troubles

“For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!” 2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:17‬ ‭NLT

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Lord, even though I ate only two meals today, (three, if You count the apple at breakfast), I gained 2 lbs. in one day. Now how could this be? I don’t understand. I’m so disappointed.

Our Present Troubles
40 Days of Victory
Day 23

Here I am eating correctly, and then gain weight. I haven’t had any desserts for 23 days, even through Thanksgiving and Christmas parties. None, not even one bite. Lord, what gives?

Child, even though you followed My instructions,  some of your portions were rather large. I suggest you cut them down in size. You could also choose to cut out starches. Definitely increase your water intake. Exercise too.

Lord, how do I know this is You and not me from all these years of struggling with my weight and dieting experiences? If I succeed at losing this regained weight, how can I say it was because of You and not in my own power?

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“For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!” 2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:17‬ ‭NLT

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Because Child, we both know you have no power to resist food temptations. You have already proven that by your past record. But now, even though it will require a fight, these food temptations will end. 

You will win because of My power within you. I will fill you  with My power to say ‘No’ to foods not good for your body. Also I will provide you the power to say ‘Yes’ to foods that are good for your body.

Therefore you will know it is only through My power that you can win this war, this life-time struggle with food compulsion/addiction. But know this, My Child, you will win because I AM on your side. You will win. Expect your victory. Don’t look at what you see. Instead look at Me and I will see to it you win this victory. For I am Victory indeed! Even in our present troubles

Yes Sir. Thank you Sir.

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“For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!” 2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:17‬ ‭NLT

Note: After writing this post yesterday, this morning those two pounds were gone. Praise God!

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Never Give Up

Never give up. It’s been the pattern of my whole adult life, weight gain, weight loss, weight gain, weight loss, on and on. Finally after 39 years of struggling with obesity weighing 241, I sought God for help and direction.

I went to God everyday for weight loss counseling until I achieved my weight loss goal. This took approximately 9-10 months. Beginning at 241 pounds, I lost 90 pounds with God’s help and maintained this weight loss for over two years following the way God told me to eat. 

Then after this success, I thought I had arrived at my dream and could eat just as I did before my weight loss. So I began eating snacks now and again. Over time, this led to much more overeating.

So the number on the scales started creeping up. But I thought “No problem, I can just go back to my weight loss any time I want to.” Wrong.

Today I wish I had never done that. I wish I had stayed in my place of eating in obedience to the way God led me to. Sigh. It’s taken two more years but I’ve gained over +30 lbs. How easily the sins of gluttony have piled up. Lord forgive me. Forgive myself..This is actually a complimentary picture. In the mirror, it looks worse. Sigh.

My grandfather’s legacy is that he said, “Never give up!” His feet got frostbitten during WW1. After getting treatment, he walked all the way back to the front lines and continued fighting for our country. If you can hear me in Heaven, Grandpa, thank you for leaving the legacy of “Never give up.”

I don’t know about you, but now that I’m back on the straight and “narrow” path of eating, it seems harder. My weight goes up a few, goes down a few, back up again, then down again, even though I’m following my correct eating plan. It’s so frustrating. Do you get frustrated too?

Sometimes I feel like just giving up. After all, I’m 67 years old. I took God and His delivering power for granted. Thought I could use it anytime I wanted. Do I give up now at my old age? Have I backslidden too much?

Child, I’m not giving up on you no matter what you eat or do. You are Mine and I have plans for you. Therefore, I will never give up on you.

With God on our side we can’t help but win- uh, lose.

Remember, “Never give up.”

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1 NKJV

But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:6 NKJV

“Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Mark‬ ‭9:23‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

NEVER GIVE UP

Anticipated New Beginning With Expectation

 

Lord, is it possible to have a new beginning with You again? Could You forgive me about last nights ice cream? Oh, and the cookies, chips, nuts, and granola bar too. Please forgive me for last night’s binge. And, thank you the scales didn’t go up this morning. That’s a sure miracle. Your mercy amazes me, especially with all my mess-ups. and backsliding.

My friend has been fasting in prayer for her brother who’s sick. She’s lost noticeable weight and looks good too. Yes, I do want to lose more weight, but I also want to maintain the fullness of Your Presence. I want to feel victorious so I can pray without feeling ashamed due to my own sins of gluttony. It’s my desire to make You proud as I eat in submission to Your will. You know what’s best for my body and I trust You. I just have a weakness resisting pleasure food. Help me, allow me to start over again with You.

Child, I’m the God of many second chances. I died so that you (and others too) could be cleansed and delivered from ALL sins. I died so that you could enter into the Almighty Presence of God. None is worthy. No, not one. It’s only because of the price I paid, the shedding of My blood as a sacrifice – the price I gave freely so that you and others could enter in My Presence. 

Lord, how can I make You proud?

Love Me, seek Me, and trust Me. Listen and obey, for there is no other way. There’s much truth in that child’s song. Let the little children lead you. Behold, how easily they trust and love. You should do the same. Follow their example. There’s much truth in the saying, “The little children shall lead them.”

Okay Lord, I’ll try. But I need Your guidance. How do You want me to eat so I can be a testimony of Your forgiveness and Your delivering power?  Others who are struggling need to know You can deliver them, especially when what they need is deliverance from their own selves? That’s what causes most of all my problems- self, myself.

Lord, do You want me to eat only two meals a day or just three meals a day, give up all desserts, or just give all my favorite pleasure foods? Do I wait until I am physically hungry to eat? Do I only eat half portions? Should I get hungry and stay hungry?

Yesterday I started out with intentions to eating only two meals. Then I got real hungry and ate past full. Later last night, I rationalized that ice cream could be my third meal. Well, we both know where that led to – another binge. I should have drank something instead.

Now I’m at another bottom with my weight. This is the biggest I’ve since 2014. I want my size 10 pants back. Where do You want me with my eating and my weight? Help me obey You and eat what is good for this body You gave me. I want to become stronger, both physically and spiritually, mentally too.

Child, as You seek My will for your eating, some days you’ll be led to eat only two meals, and some days three meals. Occasionally, I may lead you to eat no meals. Each day will be a new beginning. These new beginnings won’t be the same as a new beginning after a binge, but a new day of learning to trust Me and walking in My will.

I want you to learn how to trust, listen, and then obey as I lead you. With each new day as you practice these skills, You will grow stronger. Again, your focus is not to follow rules, but instead your focus will be to deny yourself and follow Me. I want you to learn how to deny yourself and become stronger in My Presence. When your self is completely defeated, then your victory is achieved. Self is your enemy. You must learn and become efficient in defeating self.

This watermelon weighs 190 pounds. Thank you Lord, that’s more than me!

Thank you Lord for talking with me and giving me Your instructions yet another time in my struggles with this food addiction. I’m amazed over Your mercy and Your love toward me. You have shown me yet another time of mercy.  This I know, I don’t deserve Your love. I can’t earn it, but I want it. Thank you for loving me. Help me to please You in every way that I am or ever will be.

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                        . . . do not worry about your life, what you will eat nor about the body, what you will put on. Life is more than food and the body is more than clothing. Luke 12:22-23. 

. . . choose life, . . . that you may love the Lord your God, that you may obey His voice, and that you may cling to Him, for He is your life . . . Deuteronomy 30: 19-20

Grace, mercy, and peace will be with you from God the Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love. 2 John 1:3 

Glory to God, Chains are Falling

Lord, I want to bring You glory, not for me, but for You. Not only show me how, but also could You help me so that I could bring You honor and praise. , I want to ask You Also Lord, I want to ask if You would forgive me for returning back to my old ways of overeating consequently damaging the testimony of Your delivering power in my life.

And He said to her, “Daughter, be of good cheer. Your faith has made you well. Go in peace.” Luke 8:48

Child, this verse applies to you as well. Not only am I watching over you, but also I know of your weaknesses. So now move forth toward your victory. No longer hold your head down, but look up instead for your victory is coming. In fact I’m giving you victory. Look up and be excited about life for it’s a wonderful gift I’ve given to you. Instead of extra food, I want you filled with excitement, be filled with optimism, and be filled with My Spirit. Rejoice My Child for victory is yours.

 Thank you Lord for Your mercy. I can hear those chains of food bondage falling off now.

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Oh, what joy for those whose disobedience is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight! Yes, what joy for those whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt, whose lives are lived in complete honestly!  . . .                                                                                                . . .  I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And You forgave me! All my guilt is gone. . .                                                                                                                                          . . . The Lord says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.   Psalms 32: 1,2, 5, 8. NLT

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I’ve blotted out your sins; they are gone like morning mist at noon! Oh, return to me, for I h ave paid the price to set you free. Isaiah 44:22 TLB

Lord, thank you for setting me free. I hear the chains falling off.

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 PERSONAL DISCLOSURE CONCERNING ADVERTISEMENTS:

Not My Car- But I like it. Don’t You?

I’ve decided to add advertisements to this blog. To begin with, if I published through a free site others would place their own advertisements here. Then we’d be subject to their choices even if we didn’t agree with their choices. So why should I allow others to advertise on this blog?

If I choose to monetize, then I get to choose the advertisements. Therefore I can choose advertisements I approve of and willing to purchase myself. If it doesn’t meet my standards, then you won’t see the advertisement.

A while back I use a free site for this blog and they advertised how Twinkies could help you through your rough times. See how letting others choose their advertisements won’t work for me. I’ll never advertise products to feed your or my food addiction.

I struggled with using advertisements. But after reading “The  Parable of the Talents” in Matthew 25:14-30, I concluded that advertisements could help to support blog expenses. Please don’t feel obligated in any way to order from any of these advertisements unless you want to.

The first advertisement:

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Yes, this  is the book I wrote with God’s help. To order, just click on the book button and you’ll be redirected to Amazon.com. Then I’ll receive a small commission from them for my own book. Why not?

If you decide to order from any other advertisements posted on this blog, I’ll receive a small commission from that company. But rest assured,  I’ll never use advertisements I don’t approve, or be willing to order myself. As a matter of fact, I plan on ordering this Amazon Prime after publishing this post so I can make commission from my own order. How’s that for a plan.

Check out these links.

Try Amazon Prime 30-Day Free Trial (This will save me postage when I order from Amazon. Sounds good to me. Maybe this one will pay for itself in postage alone.

Amazon FreeTime Unlimited Free Trial   (This is for children. I cancelled my Netflix, so this may be a good option for the grandkids.)

http://Try Audible and Get Two Free Audiobooks  (My oldest son loves audio-books, so I included this for him. )