Lord, I have really made a mess of things, haven’t I? I am overdrawn at the bank, overweight, and I haven’t sought You or even listened. Now I ask for help, now that I am in a hole. Lord, how do You put up with me? Lord, I want You, but I seek pleasure in other things. Here I am, a mess, expecting You to put back the pieces! How dare me? Continue reading THE MESS! (Writings from last year)
Lord, I am the lowest I have ever been. My belief level is so low. I am on the edge of just giving up on all my prayers.
(My child, I see and know. I am in charge. I told you that I would not let the enemy win. Why do you doubt what I say? Why do you look at the circumstances? What do you see instead of looking at Me? Continue reading DANCE OR DESPAIR!
Lord Jesus, here I am. I don’t even know what to say? Uh . . . well . . . I got there. I hit a new mark not seen since 2001. I now weigh 241.2 pounds. Oh why, why did I keep eating until I arrived at that number? Why? Insanity describes all my actions, or at least those about food. Continue reading YOU ARE NOT ALONE! (written on May 22, 2013)
Oh Lord, I am so excited! Today is weigh in day! I can’t wait until I get on those scales, I just know it will be a five-pound weight loss! I just know it, I feel smaller! Let’s see. Uh. . .
What? I can’t believe it! This is wrong! I will try again, okay. let’s see. Uh. . . .
Okay, Lord, it was only minus three pounds, but I will praise You anyway. I am sorry that I seem so disappointed. I know a three-pound weight loss should make me happy. Continue reading ("I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER PLANNED")-GOD
Good morning, Lord. How? How? How can You stand me?
(My child, I love you!)
Lord, I don’t deserve Your love at all.
(I do love you!)
Lord, why would You love me? Why? Continue reading IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?
Lord, I got so frustrated yesterday! I got restless, felt trapped, I just longed to go out to eat somewhere, but due to being a homebound caregiver I had to stay home. Oh Lord, I guess I was just having a “pity party”! Continue reading DO NOT GIVE UP!!!
(My child, I see you as My creation, “the finished product, perfect in every way”! I am in the process of shaping you into who I want, a “vessel of My Holy Spirit” walking forth in My Presence, showing forth evidence of My Power, and showing forth My Victory in your life! My child, I give unto you, “Hope”, renewed, reawakened “Hope”!) Continue reading HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!
Oh man, . . . I looked at that chocolate cake setting on my kitchen counter! My friend brought it over and my mother in law is eating it, but she eats little small slivers. I have not wanted any of it until now. . . As I just walked by, it called my name! Continue reading THE VICTORY CAKE!!
Thank you Lord, for watching over all my steps. Thank you for ordering them according to Your plans.
— A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 16:9 NKJV
Thank you Lord so much for directing my steps. It is nice to know that You are in charge! It takes the burden off me so that I don’t have to worry about my day. After all, it is now Your responsibility. Now whatever happens, I can look to You and Your plan for this day. Continue reading DIRECT MY STEPS AND MY EATING TOO!
— Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears and listens to and heeds My voice and opens the Continue reading EXPECT THE VICTORY!!