It’s Just A Tool

Child, it’s not the answer for I AM the answer. It’s just a tool.

Lord, I don’t know what to do. I’m so tired of this struggle. You helped me lose 90 back in 2015-. And it seemed so easy then. At that time I was so full of Your Presence.

Its' Just a Tool
This is how I looked on May 23, 2013, weighing 240 pounds.

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Entangled in Food Addiction

Lord, I’ve become entangled in food addiction again. I’ve been in this trap of defeat for several years now. Really all my life I have struggled with my weight and food addiction.

What’s humiliating is that after You healed me with a weight loss miracle of losing 90 pounds in 2014, I backslid. Yes, in 2017, I backslid and regained 30 0f those pounds.

Although I’ve maintained a weight loss of 60 pounds, I’m ashamed of regaining those 30 pounds. And now I’ve lost & regained the same 10 pounds over & over since 2020.

Lord, I wanted to help others defeat their food addiction, compulsive overeating, binge eating, gluttony, and bloating misery. But how can I help others when I, myself, am entangled in food addiction again?

Yes, here I am now due to my own wrong choices of yesterday. Lord, would You help me again to climb out of this hellhole of my own creation?

Entangled in Food Addiction

I have no strength to resist temptation, but I do want to help others climb out of their hellholes of food addiction. So how can I help them?

Child, I’m full of Almighty power- stronger than any other source. I am ALL power, stronger than your electricity and more powerful than lightening.

Don’t you think I have the power to defeat your food compulsions?

Yes Lord.

Then My Child, why don’t you come to Me first, before you put anything in your mouth- including your gum. As you chew your gum, practice thanking Me for your victories. When you chew your food, talk to Me.

As a matter of fact, even before you look at your food, talk to Me first about it. Talk to Me about all your concerns.

Talking to Me will bring you peace, henceforth destroying your need to stress eat. For then you’ll be stress praying instead of stress overeating.

Entangled in Food Addiction

Talking with Me will calm your spirit and mind, henceforth destroying the need for emotional eating. For then you’ll be emotional praying. And I will heal your emotions and fill you Myself with a calm and peaceful spirit. Wouldn’t that be better for you instead of a stuffed, bloated belly?

Talking with Me would bring you the pleasure of My sweet Presence, henceforth destroying the power of pleasure food temptations. And then you’d be experiencing the greatest sweet pleasure of life, My Presence surrounding you and within you.

When you’re full of My Presence, then you’re also full of My power and strength. Overall, you’d be full of My peace and My love.

Temptations would no longer defeat you for then you’d be walking in My power and My strength.

Now what do you choose, My Child?

Lord, I choose You. I want You. I want to be free, not entangled in food addiction. But Lord, I’m so weak. Would You help me, even though I backslid due to my own bad choices?

Child, the more of your time you spend in My Presence, the stronger you’ll become. You’ll be walking in My power.

Now come to Me for I love you. And I long to give you victory throughout all your life. As a matter of fact I long to grant all of My children victory over sin, shame and defeat.

I intend for all of My children to live victorious forevermore. For I AM victory. So all of Mine will be victorious too, as they seek to follow Me.

Lord, I’ve let myself become entangled again in food addiction by my own wrong choices. Please set me free from this prison, the one I created for myself. Help me make wise choices that will honor you.

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CHEW ON THIS

Set me free from my prison, that I may praise Your Name. Then the righteous will gather about me because of Your goodness to me. Psalms 142: 7 NIV

Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. Don’t turn away from me, or I will die. Let me hear of Your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting You. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to You. . . . Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God. May Your gracious spirit lead me forward on a firm footing. Psalms 143: 7,8,10 NLT

At last we have freedom, for Christ has set us free! We must always cherish this truth and firmly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Galatians 5:1 TPT

You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. Galatians 5:13 NIV

Lord, I Want Your Love

 

Lord, I want your love. Lord, I want Your love

 

Lord, I want Your love. Help me to return to You as My first love, my greatest love. Help me to obey You in all my ways especially in dealing with other people and my food issues.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

What do You want me to write? Do You even want me to write? Lord, I don’t know what it is that You want for me or with me for that matter.

And I’m so concerned about all my grandchildren, and their parents too, living in the society of today. Lord, I don’t know what I can do.

Child, pray My will be done in their lives. 

Lord, help me to only speak words of affirmation, encouragement, and of Your love for them. Keep my mouth shut, clamped shut when, or if, it is full of criticism or discouragement.

Also Lord, help me to love You in a way that it pleases You. I want a real relationship with You, not just the mechanics of routine prayers and Bible reading. In fact, I want a deep relationship with You. Overall, I want Your Presence with me at all times, throughout all my life.

Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

Help me to turn away completely from this unnecessary food that so easily tempts and  entraps me to compulsively overeat.

Lord, I do want to lose weight, and I also want to help Hubby lose his extra weight too. But I don’t want him to be skinnier than me. How embarrassing that would be.

So help me to yield Myself to Thee completely and resist temptation to put my face in the feeding trough.

Child if you seek and follow My will concerning your food, you will lose weight. I will lead you and you will have success.

Also Lord, when I write my prayers, thoughts, or even the words You spoke to my heart, I always consider if this would be good to write in this blog. Lord, I want our talks to be about our relationship, not the blog. But if I am to write for the blog, then lead me and help me to organize my time schedule to write and publish.

Child, it will be so. 

Lord, I want to know You like those people who say they have a “word” from You. I want to love You like they love You. Also, I want others to see You in me and be attracted to You because of it. Help me to please You in all my ways.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love
Lord, I want Your love.
I want a deep relationship with You as I have never had before. I want a new awakening, deep with my spirit.

Make me hungry for You. Yes, I want to be hungry for You. And I want a deeper walk with You too.

Lord, what do You want from me?

Your love, My child, I want your love. 

Lord, these people who say they have a “word” from You spend hours in reading Your Word and in prayer too. I don’t have hours due to my job and my home responsibilities.

Child, it is not your hours I want. It is your heart I want. I want your love.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.

 

Change Your Self-Talk 2

Change your self-talk to “I am a child of the King. I’m strong and delivered. His blood is in my soul. Therefore I am strong and victorious. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

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Thank you Lord for this weight loss, even though last night right before bedtime I binged on No Sugar Fudgesicles and satsumas.

Change your self-talk to “I am strong. These have no power over me.”

 

Change your self-talk to, “I’m stronger than these.”

 

First thing this morning, I woke up with self-talk, “I’m so stupid. Why did I do that? I know better. Why am I so stupid?”

Then when I stood on the scales, there was a weight loss. What? . . . How can it be? But there it was, even after standing on twice, still a lower number.

Again more self-talk, “It would have been more weight loss if I hadn’t ate all that before bed. Why did I do it again? Why? I’m so stupid.”

Then the Lord spoke to my heart: “No, you’re not stupid. Change your self-talk. From now on, say to yourself- ‘I am strong. I am delivered and set free.’ This is what you say from now on for you are Mine.

None of Mine are defeated for I AM victorious in all things. So confess who you really are. 

Change your self-talk to “I am a child of the King. I am strong and delivered. His blood is in my soul. Therefore I am strong and victorious. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

Yes Sir.

Change your self-talk
Change Your Self-talk

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Chew On This

                   But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57 

                        I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.                                  Philippians 4:13 

 . . . And this is the victory that has overcome the world- our faith.                                I John 5:4 

 

 

 

Defeat This Giant

“Child, your weight struggle is a giant before you at this time. So use the rock of My Presence and you’ll defeat this giant in your life.” 

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Yes Lord, I’ve struggled with my weight and these regained pounds, up and down with the same 10 pounds for basically two years now.

All this time I’ve experienced guilt, shame, or rejoicing due to the numbers on a scale. This year I want release and deliverance. Lord, I’m sick of this struggle. And I’m sick of what I consider to be my failures. Would You help me? I’m ready to move on to the victory You have for me.

And yet with all the problems, issues, and major life struggles throughout this world, I feel guilty talking to You about my weight struggle. So many people throughout Earth are struggling just for a piece of bread. Here I am struggling not to eat the bread.

Child, it’s your heart I want, a yielded heart, seeking My will, full of love for Me. That’s what I desire most. So yield yourself totally to Me. Then I’ll fill you with more of My Holy Spirit to overflow. When you’re full of My Presence, you’ll lose desire for other things such as unnecessary food.

When conditions of this world are overwhelming, you want to to overeat due to stress. Come to Me now.

Sing to Me. As you sing to Me, then My calming peaceful Spirit will fill you with My peace. 

Also remember, look away from your earthly news and keep your eyes on Me. 

So Lord, how do I keep My eyes on You. How do I look at You? I can’t see You.

Child, look around. What do you see? 

I see a beautiful peace lily plant growing.

I made it grow. 

There are pictures of my grandchildren.

I gave you their love. 

There are souvenirs from our trip to Israel.

I arranged that trip for you.

There are framed cross-stitched scriptures on the wall and prompted up on the floor.

Those are My words presented in a beautiful form to please you and encourage you. 

There’s a bowl of rocks I picked up from the valley of Elah where David killed Goliath.

Child, I have many David’s throughout this land who are killing their giants of defeat.   

Your weight struggle is a giant before you at this time. So use the rock of My Presence and you’ll defeat this giant.

Just as the Israelites shook in their knees fearful of Goliath, you’re full of  fear too. But know this, just as David was full of faith knowing I’d help him, I’ll help you defeat your giant too. 

Now go forth in your victory singing praise songs for My glory. Because I have already given you the victory. 

Defeat this Giant Defeat this giant

Yes Sir.

God's mercy

Eating With God

Eating with God, why did I stop eating as God instructed me? Back then I lost over 90 pounds (2014) as I ate in submission to how God led. At the beginning of that weight loss I ate only 3 meals a day for 40 days. Then the Lord led me to cut my food portions in half. It seemed so easy back then. At that time I was 62 years old.

Then . . . Don’t we always have a ‘then’.  So. . .  after three years of maintaining weight loss, I went back to my old habits and old ways. . . Then. . . This resulted in significant weight gain.

Romans 8:28 and trust

So I started talking to my weight loss counselor, God, again. And my goal is to eat in submission to His instructions, only three meals a day with half portions and nothing else.

During my previous experience of losing 90 pounds I had felt God’s Presence so strong. But now eating only three meals a day seems like a major struggle.

I do want God’s Presence with me all the time. The problem is I find so much pleasure and comfort in food.  I’m guilty of turning to food versus God just to deal with stresses of life.

So much bad news on television, riots, protests, CV-19, politicians arguing, and my church closed twice due to a CV-19 breakout. (Although now its’ open.) In addition to all this mess, I’m staying home most of the time with minimal social life,  except for my part time job.

Instead of seeking God’s Presence through all of this, I’m guilty of eating treats and zoning out on social media. So in addition to my initial weight gain, I’m now dealing with another 10 pounds gained during the shut-down.

Eating with god

Lord, I need Your help. Could I start over again with a new commitment to eat before You in obedience? Could I have another chance?

Child, I cautioned, rather impressed upon you not to eat that extra serving of no-carb pizza. But you got it anyway. 

Yes Sir. (Hanging my head down.)

It’s the surrender of your heart I desire. You want to lose weight, but I’m more interested in your heart. Now are you willing to start over again if that is what I lead you to do?

Yes Sir.

Then do so, for I intend to do a work in your heart that you’re unable to comprehend for now. 

Yes Sir. Thank you Lord for Your mercy.

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May you always be filled with the fruit of your salvation- the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus Christ. Philippians 1: 11 NLT

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 NKJV 

Eating with God at work
At work, just before lunchbreak. Still eating with God.

Never thought I’d look like this at Christmas, wearing a mask in public. But praise God, He’s helped me lose 14 pounds so far. More to go. And it feels like freedom, eating with God, in submission to His will. Also my clothes are getting loose too. Praise God. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Holy Spirit.

Merry Christmas! God’s Presence brings us peace, freedom, and goodwill to all men!

Here’s Your Sign

— Here’s your sign. —

Here's Your Sign
Here’s Your Sign ————————(photo copied from PicMonkey)

 

—-  Child, here’s your sign:  —-

“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?” Jeremiah 32:27

Child, I’m your peace. Surely, I’ll break this wall that separates you from your victory. In fact, I’m going to re-create you into a new creature, full of My glory and grace.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17 

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Among these we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, following the desires of body and mind, and so we were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. Ephesians 2:3

 But Lord, this describes me, fulfilling the desires of my flesh for more and more food pleasure. So thank you for Your mercy. After so many failures, You still love me. Amazing. And You haven’t given up on me yet.

Child, you can’t do this on your own, in your own power. It’ll be a gift from Me. I’ve already prepared your victory. Now walk in it. Believe it. 

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— Child, here’s your sign. —

Thank God! Once you were slaves of sin, but now you wholeheartedly obey this teaching we have given you. Romans 6:17 NLT

Overall Child, My intent is to set you free. I provided you freedom. Yet you’re like the elephant held entrapped by a small stick tied by a rope.

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It is and has always been my intent to break that rope and small stick so you can go forth in freedom and your victory.

But it’s your faith that’s weak. Believe I’ve come to set you free. After all, today is your day of salvation. Now walk in your freedom from food bondage. 

Yes Sir. Thank you Sir.

Now Child, break free. I’ve already given you all the power you need to break free. So now believe and let go. 

Again Lord, I ask for a a strong word, a “power” word from You. I know you’ve spoke to my heart many times before. But now, I’ve given up and surrendered to my weakness.

Therefore, could I have a new fresh word from You? Could it be one I could hold on to and would cause my faith to be fully convinced so I can believe?

—-  Child, here’s your sign:  —-

“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?” Jeremiah 32:27

I Have Decided

“I have decided to follow Jesus.”

Last night I made the decision to eat all of it. But Lord, I know I would have lost weight if only I had listened to You. So why didn’t I listen to You?I have decided

Yes Child, obedience always has its rewards. Every action has a reaction. Likewise, every decision has a consequence. As a matter of fact, surrendering your food desires to Me will bring you the result you want- weight loss. 

When you decide to let go of the food in your hand before putting it into your mouth, at that exact moment victory comes. At that exact moment, you choose victory or shame. So which will it be? It is all your decision. 

“I have decided to follow Jesus”

Lord, I have decided I want You and the victory You have for Me. But what if I mess it up before the end of the day?

Child, no fear. Why are you afraid? Why do you doubt? Don’t you yet realize that I AM the one true, all powerful, all knowing God? And I am on your side. With My power you can win because I already have your victory planned. 

So now it is up to you. You already have all you need to win. You are a winner. For you only have to decide. So choose your victory. 

Yes Sir. Thank you Sir.  I choose You and the victory You have for me. Today is a day of victory.

I have decided to follow Jesus
The scales went down for me. They will for you too.

“I have decided to follow Jesus.”

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But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.           1 Corinthians 15:57

For every child of god defeats this evil world, and we achieve this victory through our faith. 1 John 5:4

“I have decided to follow Jesus.”

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

So Lord, what do You want to talk about?

You, I love you. I want your heart toward Me. 

Lord, how can I turn my heart more toward You? turn your eyes upon Jesus

Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face.

But Lord, how?

To begin with,  look away from your cell phone. After all, your screen report said 6 hours a day. Do you spend 6 hours a day with Me?

No Lord.

Child, I want you to find your pleasure in My Presence, not your cell phone and not your food. But Me, I want you to find your pleasure in My Presence. 

But Lord, I need Your help. Show me how to turn away from all my bad habits, food, cell phone, and turn to You.

Child, turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace. 

Child, the election doesn’t need you for I have already decided who it will be. But I need you. I need you to turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace. 

Child, I need you.

But Lord, how do You need me? You are God and I am not. How do You need me?

Child, I need your love. I want your love, not your distractions. 

Lord, show me how.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace. 

turn your eyes upon Jesus

Lord, show me how? I’ve got devotionals and Your Bible. Is that how? Do I sing for You? Lord, show me how to turn my eyes upon Jesus.

Seek My Presence. Talk with Me throughout your day. Remember how you used to put an empty coffee cup on your table and sit there to talk with Me? Back then, you invited Me to be with you. But I want to be with you now. Invite Me into your day. 

You focus has been on your “to do” list, your menu plans, your grocery lists, your social media, your election, and your news. Focus on My Presence. Invite Me into your day, not just your morning “quiet” time.

Talk with Me about everything that concerns you. Then praise Me for the answers. Look to Me for your answers for I hold it all in MY HANDS. For I am in charge. Remember.

Turn you eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace. 

Remember those people in your life that caused you so much stress and discomfort. 

Remember how I told you to thank Me for them. So you did, even though it was hard for you to find things to be thankful for. Then I turned things around. 

So now I tell you. When your eyes see things that are not right, evil things within your news, look for something to thank Me for. It may be hard, but there is always something to thank Me for.

If nothing else, thank Me that this evil is now being revealed in the light. Knowledge and truth about it is now coming forth. So thank Me for that. 

As you thank Me, I will turn things around just as I turned around the relationships of those who caused you stress. Now they cause you joy and laughter in friendship.

So now watch and see what I will do. 


Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lead not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5,6 

Trust

That’s My Plan For You

That’s My plan for you, freedom and your personal victory. 

Thank you Lord for the weight loss today. I feel so successful and victorious when I stand on the scales and the numbers go down.

Believe

 

Child, I’ve told you this many times before. My plan is for you to have freedom and victory. It’s not My will for any of My children to go forth in defeat.

Now trust Me and continue in your surrender and obedience. Obedience brings peace. When you trust Me and obey My will, it takes all the burden and responsibility of making the right decisions off of your shoulders. After you surrender your will, then the weight of decisions is all placed on My shoulders.

Overall I can carry the weight of decisions. Therefore seek My will  and I will lead you correctly every time. It will always turn out for your good for that is My will. Know  all things work together for good for those who love Me. (Romans 8:28)

That’s My plan for you. That’s My will for you, “good”. I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you, but plans to give you a hope and a future, even with your weight issues. My plan for you is victory, My child. That’s My plan for all My children.

Thank you Lord for the peace I feel in Your Presence. So direct all my steps and my food choices according to Your plan for today.

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“For I know the plans and thoughts that I have for you,” says the Lord, “plans for peace and well-being and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.   Jeremiah 29:11 AMP

In all those things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Romans 8:37 NIV

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, and whose hope is the Lord.        Jeremiah 17:7

Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed. Save me, and I shall be saved, for You are my praise. Jeremiah 17:14