Author: Deborah

NEW WALK OF SECOND CHANCES

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Today, I am beginning a new walk with You, Lord. fill me Your Spirit, instead of the abundance in my belly now and make me strong in Your Presence.

You are the God of second chances, in my case, the God of a million chances. How I long to walk in the steps You have ordered, not my own but according to Your will.

Lord, I have learned through experience that when I follow  my way and my plan that I get overwhelmed and overstressed. Then I overeat to compensate. But when I honestly, sincerely, and completely surrender myself to You,  a feeling of peace I can’t explain fills me.  You grant me a calm, quiet, serene spirit in the midst of all these storms of life. Continue reading NEW WALK OF SECOND CHANCES

DOGS AS MY DIETING PARTNERS

IMG_1836IMG_1812Praise God- Total weight lost- 51 pounds. This bag of potatoes weighs 50 lbs. and I can hardly pick it up. No wonder I can walk better.

 

He just started on my food plan.

 

He lost 5lbs. on my food plan.
He lost 5lbs. on my food plan.

And now I have dogs as dieting partners. What?

 

 

 

 

     Lord, I want to praise You for the 51 pounds weight loss and the smaller size jeans I got into yesterday.  Continue reading DOGS AS MY DIETING PARTNERS

GARBAGE IN, GARBAGE OUT!

IMG_1206 Lord, last night I had a choice; go out to eat or stay home, order pizza, and watch a movie. I was so tired, so I ordered the pizza and settled down to watch the movie.  I ended up eating  too much and the movie was full of profanity and disappointing. If I had gone out to eat, at least we would have had good conversation with a good meal. Lord, I followed Your instructions about eating only a half of my meal. I ate only one slice of pizza, but I lost it over the apple desert. I fixed a large serving with ice cream on top, but as I ate this I began to feel guilty.  I left about a third of it because I was  so overwhelmed with guilt. It was such a struggle to let it go. Now I realize what a hold deserts have on me. I do love them so! Lord, help me to let go! Lord, help me to love You more than deserts. Do You want me to start over, back to Day one? Do You want me to give up my deserts as well since it was such a struggle last night?

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COMPLAINING SPREADS LIKE WILDFIRE! (*Note)

20131026-071706.jpg     Lord, everything about my job is changing! It seems as though management has lost their minds! Their new expectations seem so unachievable, unrealistic, impossible, and just plain crazy!  I am so overwhelmed by all this! Lord, I must admit to You that I have complained very loudly and constantly to my co-workers. I have also noticed that when I complain, another co-worker complains, then another, and the complaining spreads like wildfire until everyone is complaining! All of us end up overwhelmed and full of despair!

Lord, was this how the Israelites sounded in the desert? I know we are a murmuring, complaining bunch, but aren’t we entitled due to all the unrealistic demands from management? Lord, I don’t want to stay stuck in this job for 40 years!  It seems that the more we complain, the more confusion and anger there is! All of us have expressed feeling trapped! Continue reading COMPLAINING SPREADS LIKE WILDFIRE! (*Note)

NO LONGER BROKEN, VICTORIOUS INSTEAD! (Past writings)

 

 

IMG_2007Lord, I confess to You that I love ice cream! I love how it tastes! I love how it feels in my mouth! I also confess to You that I ate two pork chops last night at supper, then I ate chocolate cup cakes and cookies for desert. Lord, I ate all that due to stress and frustration! I am so frustrated, depressed, and disappointed! I feel entrapped in a job that is no longer satisfying.  I am full of doubt, especially self-doubt. If the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, and a broken contrite heart, then I guess I qualify for I certainly feel broken! I feel broken in my spirit for sure and I have no willpower! I am just a broken vessel that cannot hold water!

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THE TUMMYACHE! (Past writing ** see note at end.)

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Lord, forgive my gluttony last night at supper.  I was so tired from helping my parents prepare their house for their out-of-town company. After I got home I just wanted to go to bed, but then I had company of my own coming! I had to prepare our supper and then clean up. I just wanted to lay my head on the kitchen table and go to sleep! My supper consisted of bought fried chicken, mashed potatoes with gravy, corn on the cob, and for dessert “hot apple pie”. Then because I  was so very tired and stressed out, I searched the kitchen for more food! I found a Snicker Bar,  peanut butter cookies, and a nice piece of Boston Crème pie.

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I CALL YOU, "VICTORY", MY CHILD!

IMG_1790     Lord, last night I ate everything, everything I could find! You know this, You saw it all!  I hate my failures! It seems like they are always there staring at me! “Not good enough, don’t measure up, no self-control! Failure, failure!” I hear all the taunts of self-accusation! Lord, I am just a “major failure” defeated by a wimpy sin! Where do I go from here? Is there any hope for me?  Will I ever get victory?  Oh Lord, why do You reach out to me in love and hope at all? I just know I am a disappointment to You! Continue reading I CALL YOU, "VICTORY", MY CHILD!