Author: Deborah

Cookies Of Shame

Cookies of shame, I’ve eaten them again. Not only were these cookies left over from Christmas, but they were bought at a 90% off sale after Christmas too. I thought I could just eat a few at a time. But Lord, here I am with cookie crumbs on my face. Ate too many. How do You stand me? I’m just like Esau. Only with me, it’s cookies instead of stew.

Child, I love you. And I’m not giving up on you for you are mine. I never give up on those who are Mine. You are marked with My Blood. No, you are not like Esau His heart was greedy. He wanted it all now. Jacob was cunning, but the heart of Esau was evil. He wanted power and was full of pride.

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I Want Your Heart

I want your heart, Child

But Lord, what do You mean? I gave You my heart long ago.

Furthermore, I want your love, your heart, your soul, and your mind. 

Lord, I know You love me just as I am. So help me love You as You desire. I’m here ready to listen. I don’t have to follow my usual morning routine. As a matter of fact, I have time to listen right now. So what would You like to talk about? Is it that person? How about that event on the news? So what do You want to talk about?

Child, I want to talk about you.

Lord, what? What about me?

I want your heart. 

Lord, You know, within myself I’m not capable of loving You like You want me to. But would You help me? I am willing. Help me love You as You deserve. I give myself to thee. Do with me as You wish.

Child, don’t be afraid for it is I. And I don’t wish you harm for I have a hope and a future for you, plans to prosper you, not to harm you. 

Okay Lord, just help me please You in all I do and say. Help me to love You as You wish.

Child, I am here. 

Lord, what do You want from me?

I want to be your closest friend, your best friend, the one you confide in, the one you consult, the one you ask opinions of, the one you share your joys with, and the one you share your secrets with. I want more than just your prayer list. I’m not Santa Claus. I’m the One who loves you more than any other. And I desire to be your everything. 

Okay Lord, I want You as my best and closest friend too. Forgive me for only going to You with my prayer list, my “to do” list for You. Help me to make You my everything, my all, my closest ally. Let me find more pleasure in Your Presence versus my food pleasures, entertainment pleasures,  more than all my stuff, and even more than my family and friends.  Lord, You be my greatest pleasure and my everything. Help me to love You as You desire. You be the “head” of all my life. Help me to make You first in all and everything in my life.

Child, I want to be more than a way to reach your goals and your dreams. I want your heart and all your love. 

Of course Lord, I love You. Help me to love You as You long for me to. Overall. I want to please You with all that I am or will ever be. Thank you for loving me.

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CHEW ON THIS

And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength. Deuteronomy 6:5 NLT 

I am overwhelmed with joy in the Lord my God! For He has dressed me with the clothing of salvation and draped me with in a robe of righteousness. I am like a bridegroom dressed for his wedding or a bride with her jewels. Isaiah 61:10!NLT 

We love Him because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19NKJV

“My own sheep will hear my voice and I know each one, and they will follow me. I give to them the gift of eternal life and they will never be lost and no one has the power to snatch them out of my hands.” John‬ ‭10:27-28‬ ‭TPT‬‬

“The LORD has appeared of old to me, saying: “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.” ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭31:3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

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Lord, What’s Your Will?

Lord, You know all and see all. So help me become  what You want me to be. I realized I’ve wasted too much time watching Hallmark movies and ate too many Christmas treats during the holidays. I know You do have a purpose and a plan for me. Help me find that purpose, Your plan.

Cooked these in December – Glad they’re gone Now- No, I didn’t eat them all. Took some to family gatherings and gave some away too.

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Christmas, Birthday Gifts, & Seeds

Christmas holidays, my birthday gifts, and planting seeds for the future. All this happened during the busiest month of the year, December. And yes, seeds for the future were planted. 

 For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. Isaiah 9:6 NKJV

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Semi-Fasting – Help Me Understand.

Semi-fasting – Lord, help me understand. For one thing, why am I not losing weight? Given that I’ve only been eating one main meal a day for several days now, I should be losing weight. But I’m at a standstill. In fact I haven’t lost any weight? Why? I did drink milk for breakfast and have soup for the remaining meal. Those scales are staying the same.  Lord, I do want to lose weight and it’s just not happening. Help me understand what is going on with my body. Continue reading Semi-Fasting – Help Me Understand.