Lord, HELP! HELP! HELP! I feel so guilty for whining about this, I wish I were stronger!
(You will be, My child! This is why you are in training now! Most new recruits cry in boot camp! You are in boot camp now, My child! This is your boot camp!) Continue reading YOU'RE IN BOOT CAMP NOW!
[ Written from the past. Praise God, He has delivered me from 27 pounds since May 23, 2013.]
Lord, did you see all those cookies I ate last night?
(Yes, I did.)
Lord, everyday I start eating correctly, then by bedtime I have eaten everything I can get my hands on! Sometimes I even get in the bed eating!
(I see.) Continue reading COOKIES, OH MY!
Lord, I have really made a mess of things, haven’t I? I am overdrawn at the bank, overweight, and I haven’t sought You or even listened. Now I ask for help, now that I am in a hole. Lord, how do You put up with me? Lord, I want You, but I seek pleasure in other things. Here I am, a mess, expecting You to put back the pieces! How dare me? Continue reading THE MESS! (Writings from last year)
[Written over a year ago:]
Lord, I am the lowest I have ever been. My belief level is so low. I am on the edge of just giving up on all my prayers.
(My child, I see and know. I am in charge. I told you that I would not let the enemy win. Why do you doubt what I say? Why do you look at the circumstances? What do you see instead of looking at Me? Continue reading DANCE OR DESPAIR!
Lord Jesus, here I am. I don’t even know what to say? Uh . . . well . . . I got there. I hit a new mark not seen since 2001. I now weigh 241.2 pounds. Oh why, why did I keep eating until I arrived at that number? Why? Insanity describes all my actions, or at least those about food. Continue reading YOU ARE NOT ALONE! (written on May 22, 2013)
Oh Lord, I am so excited! Today is weigh in day! I can’t wait until I get on those scales, I just know it will be a five-pound weight loss! I just know it, I feel smaller! Let’s see. Uh. . .
What? I can’t believe it! This is wrong! I will try again, okay. let’s see. Uh. . . .
Okay, Lord, it was only minus three pounds, but I will praise You anyway. I am sorry that I seem so disappointed. I know a three-pound weight loss should make me happy. Continue reading ("I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER PLANNED")-GOD
[I wrote this over a year ago. I have struggled with this overeating issue for most of my life, but praise God, I now see victory!]
Good morning, Lord. How? How? How can You stand me?
(My child, I love you!)
Lord, I don’t deserve Your love at all.
(I do love you!)
Lord, why would You love me? Why? Continue reading IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?
Lord, I got so frustrated yesterday! I got restless, felt trapped, I just longed to go out to eat somewhere, but due to being a homebound caregiver I had to stay home. Oh Lord, I guess I was just having a “pity party”! Continue reading DO NOT GIVE UP!!!
Lord, as I look back on my life and now as I look at my body, I see all the failures of the past!
(My child, I see you as My creation, “the finished product, perfect in every way”! I am in the process of shaping you into who I want, a “vessel of My Holy Spirit” walking forth in My Presence, showing forth evidence of My Power, and showing forth My Victory in your life! My child, I give unto you, “Hope”, renewed, reawakened “Hope”!) Continue reading HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!
Oh man, . . . I looked at that chocolate cake setting on my kitchen counter! My friend brought it over and my mother in law is eating it, but she eats little small slivers. I have not wanted any of it until now. . . As I just walked by, it called my name! Continue reading THE VICTORY CAKE!!
