Lord, I don’t know what to say. I’ve been so guilty of focusing on my plans instead of praying for others. Help me to pray according to Your will.

My child, a lot of your prayers were  you singing to Me when stressed. Praising prayers are My favorite. You didn’t eat your stress, you sang instead. This is another victory of freedom.  IMG_5127

I know your needs and the concerns of your heart. I’m answering the prayers of your heart. You don’t have to speak them for I know and see all things. Rejoice My child, for your answered prayers.

Thank you Lord, for answering my prayer that Hubby not be mad at me when he found out I put the gas/oil mixture for the weed eater in the oil dispenser for the riding lawn mower. It was in a small container so I assumed it was oil. Thank you that my brother-in-law, a neighbor, and my Dad all stopped what they were doing to help me.

I spent the afternoon crying before I had to tell Hubby. I was so proud of myself and allIMG_4415 I’ve done to help him since  he’s working so hard at this extra job. Now I’ve messed up his beloved riding lawn mower and I feel like a complete dummy. Do they have a book, “Lawn Mowers for Dummies”? I guess it’s a case of pride before the fall.

When I told him what I did, he responded with mercy and understanding instead of screaming at me. Wow. He said, “It’s because you don’t know about these things. I’ll fix it when I get home. It’s ok.” Lord, most husbands would have screamed and rightly so. He did tell me that if something is in a red can with the word gasoline on it, it’s usually gas, not oil. Thank you  for the mercy, understanding, and forgiveness I got from Hubby. Also thank you for the mercy, understanding, and forgiveness I get from You Lord.

Your husband looks at you through eyes of love. I see you as complete and beautiful for I look at the heart. When you gave your heart to Me, it became perfect in My eyes for I covered it with My blood. Your heart belongs to Me, so who are you trying to please?

The world looks at the outside and it’s okay being attractive to the world to share My love with them. But after they behold the outside body, what keeps their interest is the your heart and your love. The world is desperate for love. Love them and the physical becomes non-important. Love is the most beautiful attraction. Love them, My child.IMG_4681

Love on them for they are seeking love and acceptance just as you were. Some have given up the struggle just as you did until you cried out to Me for one last time and I pulled you out of your bondage to obesity and food addiction.  See others through My eyes of love.

But Lord, what about those that I feel are looking at me with eyes of judgment?

My child, don’t worry for I’ll take care of them. You worry too much. Don’t you know that I’m in charge of all things? I gave you this freedom, this gift, don’t worry about the rest. Focus on Me and My will for you. Therefore all things will be according to My plans.

Lord, my sister said in jest, “I hate you” when I asked her if I was now too thin and we both laughed. Do my friends still struggling with their weight feel this way?

My child, they don’t hate you. Your transformation amazes them. Do you now look at them in judgment wondering why they don’t do something?

(Hanging my head in shame) Yes Sir, I’m guilty of those thoughts.

Then remember where you were just two years ago. You out-weighed all of them, didn’t you.

Yes Sir. (Hanging my head in shame.)

My child, always remember where you came from. When you look at an overweight person, I want your eyes and heart filled with compassion and love, not judgment. Remember where you were and who set you free from your 81 pounds of bondage.

Lord, where do you want me to stop losing weight? What is Your goal weight for me?

My child I’m teaching you trust. Lean not on your own understanding or the world’s knowledge, but rather lean on Me. Keep following My plan for you. Eat until satisfied, but don’t overeat. Stop when you are full. As you follow My instructions according to the plan I gave you, your body will correct itself and become the body I created.

But Lord, what about all these sags and wrinkles? I need to iron the wrinkles out of my legs and my cheeks have caved in. My arms hang down and flap when I move them.    IMG_4007

My child, some of this is just due to your age. Earthly bodies wear out, but soon you’ll have a heavenly body. Who are you trying to please with your body? 


  Faith Persevering in Trial

I waited patiently for the Lord;
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.
He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
He has put a new song in my mouth—IMG_5138
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the Lord.

Blessed is that man who makes the Lord his trust,
And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.
Many, O Lord my God, are Your wonderful works
Which You have done;
And Your thoughts toward us
Cannot be recounted to You in order;
If I would declare and speak of them,
They are more than can be numbered. Psalm 40:1-5

6 thoughts on “  LOVE”

  1. Can this be shared? Was telling a friend about your interaction with God and how He spoke to you about prayer. She loves to prayer and wants to read it. Thank you. Becky

  2. Great post! Love how real you are and don’t leave anything out. I have gotten the lawnmower at my parents stuck big time on the side of a hill on several occasions. Thankfully God gave me a very loving, understanding father who just laughs and comes and saves the day. When we have a yard large enough for a riding lawnmower someday, I pray my husband will be just as forgiving. 🙂

    I really enjoyed the conversation when you discussed if your friends hated you for losing the weight or if you have ever passed judgement on why they don’t do something. Its so real and personal, I truly admire your honesty and sincerity in this blog.

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