Where do I go from here?

Lord, I’m seeking an answer from You.  WIMG_6008here do You want me to go from here? What is Your goal weight for me? I don’t know. Show me Your will.

I now have issues I’ve never experienced before. At times it’s overwhelming and I feel confused.

First while getting ready for a funeral, the clothes I planned to wear were too big. It took three skirts, three tops, and two jackets to find an outfit that fit. I was surprised and shocked. I’ve never pulled out clothes that  fit perfect a couple of weeks ago only to discover they are suddenly too large. It’s always been the opposite. The pants I have on now  are too baggy. Size 12, baggy, amazing. Am I shrinking?

Some people have called me skinny. In my past this would have thrilled me, but now I just don’t know what to say. Never in a million years did I ever think this would a issue, but You knew about it all along, didn’t You?

My Dad (80 years) says, “Don’t lose any more weight. You need to gain some back. You look too skinny. ” My friends look concerned as they tell me don’t lose anymore weight.

Lord, do You think I’m too skinny? Can You believe I’m asking this question, one who has been obese almost all her adult life? I thought I’d be beautiful when I lost weight. But now when I look in the mirror, all I see is those flabby arms,  bumpy cellulite legs, and a poochy belly. Still ugly.

They say I’m skinny. I don’t feel skinny. Do I look like a skinny wrinkled old lady to You? Am I sick and just don’t know it yet?

IMG_4500My child, why are you so worried and full of fear?  No, you’re not sick. You’re blessed. You see yourself as ugly, but I see you as My perfect creation, a thing of beauty. You are Mine and I love you.

Know ye not yet that I have everything under control? In spite of what you see and hear around you, I AM in charge. Open your spiritual eyes. See your victory, the victory I gave you. 

Rejoice in this victory. I’ve performed this miracle for you. Now be full of joy, not doubt. I’ll remind you again. I have plans for you, plans for a hope and future, not to harm, but to prosper you. My child, rejoice. Be full of joy at what you see. Sing with delight about the wonders of My love. Know that I am for you. Your name, along with others is written on the palm of My hand.

Thank you Lord. Spending quiet time with You always makes me feel better. You do have all the answers. Show me Your will about this weight goal.

I’ve decided to lay my deserts on Your altar until Hubby’s birthday. You know how I love my desserts, but I love You and Your will more.



See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands; your walls are continually before Me. Isaiah 49:16 NKJV

O Lord, You are my God. I will exalt You, I will praise Your name, for You have done wonderful things; Your counsels of old are faithfulness and truth. Isaiah 25:1 NKJV

And it will be said in that day: “Behold, this is our God; we have waited for Him; we will be glad and rejoice in His salvation.” Isaiah 25:9 NKJV

You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You. Trust in the LORD forever, for YAH, the Lord, is everlasting strength. Isaiah 26:3-4   NKJV


2 thoughts on “Where do I go from here?”

  1. I’m really happy for you! Size 12 is fine, but so is a lesser size. It certainly will take less effor for you to climb the stairs. Today I had to climb 2 flights of stairs to get to a 3rd floor. I was climbing with a lady who is probably a size 8. She wasn’t huffing and puffing, but I was gasping. I told God, ‘see, I really need to lose weight!’

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