What Do You Want In Life?

My Child, what do you want in life?

What do you want in life
What do you want in life?

To begin with, Lord, I want more of You. And, I want to feel good about myself, instead of feeling embarrassed at my weight gain.

Also , I want my debt paid off.  And especially I want to be a good influence for my children and grandchildren so they will know to choose You.

My Child, I can give you all that. 

But Lord, how?

Follow Me.

Already, Child, you know how to diet and lose weight. But you lack steadfastness and endurance. Also you need inner strength. Only I can can increase your inner strength, endurance,  and steadfastness.

Also Child, you need supernatural intervention with your finances. But I can provide you with wisdom, abundant wisdom. Previously, you made unwise choices without seeking My guidance.

But know this, as you look to Me, I’ll provide you with abundant wisdom to make wise financial choices.  I will guide you to financial freedom. 

So what else do you want?

Lord, I need more time. I can’t get it all done. Most of the time, I feel too tired to finsih my “to do” list.

Time, My Child, hmmm. So you need more time. To begin with, know your time is more valuable than money. You can always gain more money. But lost time can never be regained. So choose wisely how you use your time.

Before you begin your day seek My will first. Then listen and follow as I lead you.

Most of all Lord, I need more of Your Presence.

You like to track your steps toward a goal. Now turn all your steps toward Me. 

But Lord, how?

First, pray withour ceasing. Second, feed on My Word. Feed your spirit, not your body. Overall focus on My Presence throughout your day. 

Talk to me all throughout your day. And seek My will over every choice you make. Then yield yourself as I lead you to My will.

Then as you feed your spirit, you will grown stronger in My Presence.

At this time, you focus more on feeeding your body and neglect to feed your spirit. I say, “Feed your spirit and your body will fall in line with My will and your freedom.

Child, I choose you. Now you choose Me. Then at the end of each day, you’ll be pleased and amazed at your success. 

Finally, as you walk in My Presence throughout each day, you will behold a miracle- YOU. 

What Brings Abundant Life?

For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.  Luke 11:10 NLT

The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. James 5:16 NLT

And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 NKJV

Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul propers. 3 John 1:2 NKJV

May the Lord give you increase moe and your children. Psalm 115:14 NKJV

 

 

Created For Freedom

Turnaround victory

Child, you were created for freedom. As you yield yourself to Me, I’ll set you free. Then I’ll fill you with power to say “No” to unnecessary and trigger foods as you yield yourself to Me.

In fact, I’ll grant you the power to say “No” to all temptations. I plan on making you strong. Not defeated, but strong. Moreover I will grant you victory in all areas of your life.

So let go of what you have and come to Me empty-handed. Then I can I will fill your heart, mind, and soul with Myself.

Celebrate National Food Day

Oh Lord, that’s what I want. That’s what I really need, more of You.

Lord, settle my mind, and my spirit. Create in me, a new heart and a steadfast spirit. Holy Spirit, lead me to Your will.

Child, as you seek My will, I’ll lead you. But you must seek, trust, and obey as I lead. When you turn your own way, I stop leading for I will not force anyone to choose My way. It must be your choice, your free will, that chooses to follow Me.

So let go of what is in your hand, your abundant food, your pleasure food, and your night-time eating. Satan wants you in bondage, entrapped in defeat. But you were created you for freedom.

Let go of your plans, your dreams, and your desires. For I have more for you. And I want to give you more beyond your dreams, plans, or desires.

What I have for you is beyond your imagination. I want to give you more, but your hands are already too full of what you are holding on to.

I’ve come to give you an abundant life full of victory.

Lord, my sins are piled so high that I can’t see my way out. I’ve lost my courage, my confidence and my assurance.

But You, Lord God, are Almighty. Could you, would you reach down and pull me out of this mudhole I dug for myself?

Child, I love you. And yes, I will lift you up to victory, the one I have planned for you. Quit looking back and beating yourself up for your battles lost.

Instead, look up to Me, for I am holding your victory.

Thank you Lord. Your mercy endures forever.

VICTORY IN JESUS

Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. . . Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, Psalms 51 :10-11 NKJV

“If you abide in My word [continually obeying My teachings and living in accordance with them, then] you are truly My disciples. And you will know the truth [regarding salvation], and the truth will set you free [from the penalty of sin]. John 8:32-32 AMP

Bless the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name! . . . Who satisfies your mouth with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. Psalms 103: 1, 5

Victory or Circumstances? Now Is The Time of Your Choice.

Victory or your circumstances, what will it be? Now is the time of Your choice. What will you choose?

Lord, sometimes people disappoint me. Then I want to eat everything to help me so I can deal with them and their choices. Continue reading Victory or Circumstances? Now Is The Time of Your Choice.

I’m Afraid

This is what 10 pounds looks like. My friend, Donna said, “Feel how heavy this is. This is what 10 pounds feels like. Imagine this on your body.”

Lord, today is weigh-day and I’m afraid. What if I’ve eaten too much? I know there were times when I got too full. I am afraid of what those scales might say.

My child, as you look to Me, I will lead you. I did not give you this fear. Why do you let this box with numbers rule your life? Trust Me. All of your struggles have been because of lack of trust.

When You were confronted by the problems and struggles of life, you ran to food for comfort.

When you felt hurt, rejected, or disappointed in others, you ran to food for love.

When you worried over your needs, finances, or the needs of others, you ran to food for peace. True peace never comes from food.

Know ye not that I have come to give you abundant life, peace, love, and joy unspeakable?

If only you would run to Me, the One that loves you beyond your comprehension, instead the idol of pleasant pleasure food. Then you would find yourself walking in the freedom of My love. My freedom brings peace, joy, wisdom, and abundant life.

The idol of pleasure food brings entrapment. It brings damage to your body, but the worst is that it brings defeat and shame to your soul. I want My children to walk in victory, not defeat. I have come to set you free. Can you believe that?

Now don’t worry or be afraid of those scales. don’t look for your confirmation of success from numbers on a box. Look to My Presence for your success. I AM your success.

As you yield yourself to Me, I will grant you increase, not increase in body size, but increase in My love and power. I will increase My power within you to give you the ability to say “No” when necessary and “Yes” to My will.

I will increase My love within you so it will spill over to others and they can be filled with My joy as well, for I am the one true joy. Tell them to come to Me, for I AM the One true source of joy, peace, and love.

Yes Sir. Thank you Sir. I give myself to thee, do with me as You will. Help me to obey You in all things.

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For God has not given a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.       II Timothy 1:7 NKJV

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” II Corinthians 12:9 NKJV

For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.  Romans 14:17 NKJV 

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13 NKJV

_________________WOW!_______________

Stood on the scales,

WOW!  91 pounds gone forever!

Thank you Lord.

How I Ate This Weekend. Dieters Beware. Triple XXX Rating.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye. Psalm 32:8 NKJV

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Last week a friend asked how I ate. I tried to answer her questions. She wanted more information. I thought a picture is worth 1,000 words, so I’ll just take pictures of my food.

Disclaimer: I apologize to all who eat clean, carb free, or follow diet rules. These food pictures don’t fit any of those plans. This is how God instructed me to eat. I’ve lost 87 pounds,  gone from a size 18/20 pants to size 10 pants and from size X-L /14-18 tops to size S/6-10 tops. Wow!

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Taken May 2013, weighing 241.

I’ve failed every diet I tried with 41 years of failure. My first paid weight loss group was in 1974. We ate tuna fish 5x a week. Yuck. It’s amazing what we do to lose weight. I never tried surgery, only because I was afraid.

In May 2013, I weighed 241 pounds. In desperation, embarrassment, and total defeat I cried out to God. I’d tried everything only to end up in failure. I was broken in defeat with no hope, no other options and turned to God begging for help. Considering all the people in the world with severe needs, it was pathetic.

IMG_6156God didn’t care how pathetic I was, He reached out to help me. I was a food drunk eating almost 24/7.

God whispered to my heart, “Eat three meals a day with no snacks. Eat anything you want including desserts, but no snacks. Do this for 40 days.”

Seemed simple enough. I thought maybe I can do this. It took  60 days to achieve 40 days of three meals with no snacks. Then I asked Him, “What now?”

Again He spoke to my heart, “Continue eating your three meals with no snacks. Now cut your food in half.”

You won’t believe how I eat now, yet continue losing weight. I feel like a walking, talking miracle. So here goes, food pictures:

Friday: Breakfast- I/2 apple with  peanut butter & a caramel flavored rice cake. (I like the flavor and crunchiness.)

Lunch- Forgot what I ate, don’t keep a food journal. Mostly I just eat half of whatever, so I don’t need to write it down.  It may have been soup & 1/2 sandwich.

Supper- We went out with friends to a new Italian restaurant. I ordered house salad with Thousand Island dressing, Penne Basilica with extra mushrooms, and Tiramisu for dessert. (Shared dessert with husband.)

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New Italian restaurant. ***** five stars- great food. Highly recommended. Large portions, enough to take home for later.
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Our friends ordered an appetizer of fried onion rings. I ate one with the mariner sauce.
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The side salad. I ate the large vegetables and left half the lettuce.
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Penne Basilica- chicken, broccoli, pesto cream sauce with pasta. I ordered extra mushrooms. My plate was the largest serving on the table. Wow!
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Tiramisu- Hubby and I both ate half. Not my favorite.
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I took home half the entrée with a piece of bread. I ate a half piece of bread at my meal.

Now for Saturday’s food :

Breakfast: One large serving cheese grits from a gas station that served breakfast. I left about three large bites and threw it away. Hubby and I were out and about.

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Lunch served on a saucer, half the leftover pasta. The other half was still in the go box. I added three pieces of fried squash. (Southern favorite. The only way Hubby will eat squash.)
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A favorite dessert, ice cream with pear pieces and juice. I usually eat half a coffee cup of ice cream (about 3 large spoonful’s.)

Lunch: Leftover pasta, fried squash, and dessert, ice cream with canned pear pieces.

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Saturday supper: I ate one whole can of soup 200 calories. Don’t count calories, but thought it was okay to eat all the soup due to low calories.
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My dessert with Saturday supper. One, yes I said one Hersey’s kiss. Let it melt in your mouth, lot of chocolate pleasure for only 22 calories

 Now for Sunday’s meals:

Skipped breakfast. Hubby insists on being at church at 8 a.m. for his music practice before church. Hoping someone brings a treat to our Sunday School class.

No treats in Sunday school. After church we ate lunch at a favorite neighborhood restaurant, “Neighbors”. Large servings, plenty to bring home for later.  Great food, whatever you order. Five stars. ****

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Almost forgot to take a picture. Ordered three-piece chicken dinner with sides of turnip greens, mac n cheese, and corn bread. The plate came with four pieces and a roll. I asked for cornbread. You can’t eat turnips without cornbread.
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I ate half the turnips, half the mac n cheese, two small pieces chicken, and one half of the corn muffins. There were four pieces of chicken, so I thought I could eat two of the smaller pieces. That’s half, right?

Sunday night after church there was a reception to honor our pastors. Since I didn’t eat breakfast, I could now eat cake. Yea, my favorite. This would be my second meal today.

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I love, love cake icing. I know, pure sugar and lard.
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Since I eat half the cake, I eat my favorite part, the icing. Throw away the cake part.

When we got home from church it was soup and sandwich again. I overstocked canned soup so we’re trying to eat it.

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For late supper I ate a whole can of soup. In hindsight, I think I should have eaten only half because I felt too full afterwards. Lesson learned, don’t eat past full. Hubby has two slices of bread and two slices cheese, grilled in butter. Mine is one slice bread, one slice cheese, grilled in butter. That’s a half serving, right.
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Another half coffee cup of ice cream with a half cookie for dessert. I like ice cream. Can ice cream count as a milk serving?

Then for dessert, more ice cream. I always eat my ice cream in a coffee cup for portion control.

I haven’t weighed since mid-Sept. I’m seeking God’s will for my goal weight.           Now I can wear size 10 dress pants. Wow! I don’t ever remember wearing that size in my life. I plan to weigh on November 1. I’ll let ya’ll know how it turned out. Then I guess I’ll discover what maintenance is.

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87 pounds forever gone!

So far, 87 pounds of excess weight gone forever. Since I’m not on a diet, I have nothing to go off of. I am eating normal just less. I can live with that. I feel like a walking, talking miracle. God has set me free from a lifetime of obesity, obsessive dieting, (another form of bondage, and a failure complex. I’m walking in the gift of His victory for me. It’s not through my works, but through His grace. He has healed me and set me free.

The Feeding Trough & Turning Green

Lord, thank You for helping me at the Feeding Trough.

I chose to eat there instead of the Chinese Buffet. At the buffet you can’t bring food home, but at Lambert’s you can. I’ve eaten so many half-meals at restaurants that I feel cheated if I can’t bring food home. It feels like you’re getting two meals for one price, twice the enjoyment.

Hubby and I took the day off and went to the Shrimp Festival at Gulf Shores, Alabama. Because of a late start we decided to eat lunch first.

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First the fried okra. I ate half.
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Then the “throwed roll”. Really big.
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I ate my half of roll with honey. Yum.

After much discussion, we decided to eat at Lambert’s, “Home of the Throwed Rolls.” We call this place, The Feeding Trough for obvious reasons. At this restaurant customers are encouraged to eat. Servers walk between the tables offering free pass-arounds, fried okra, smothered potatoes, black eyed peas, macaroni with tomatoes, apple butter, and the best of all, hot fresh rolls. Just one meal in this place is a binge in itself.

Before walking in, I started praying. Lord, I need Your help. What do I eat? Help me not overeat. It would so easy to eat myself sick here. Lord, I need You right now. Help me.

Then this idea came. Take pictures of what you eat. Post on the blog. This will keep you accountable. Since several friends have asked about what do I eat, it seemed like a good idea. Now I can show them how I eat. Thank you Lord.

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Fried chicken gizzards with sides. My meal.
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This is what I took home. Ate off of this four more times. I think we got our money’s worth with this meal.
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Hubby’s leftovers.

I ordered  fried chicken gizzards, a southern delicately. The sides were mushroom gravy, carrots, and sweet potato and one of the free pass- arounds,  smothered potatoes with onions. I quickly got full and didn’t eat the sweet potato or carrots There’s no way to eat half of all this. So I got a go-box to carry home. Hubby carried part of his meal home too.

After lunch, on to the Shrimp Festival to look at all the art and crafts.     

There was live music too!

Live music

This is my favorite of all the artwork. Finally someone painted a plump woman in a very complimentary way. I thought it was beautiful.

Lord, I’m so ashamed. For the first time I gloated over another woman gaining weight. Please forgive me.

There she was in front of the stage clad only in her bikini, dancing and flaunting her semi-nude self in front of the crowd. I looked at hubby, and yes he was watching her intently. I turned green with jealously and filled with anger.

Hubby asked, “Isn’t she the same lady that danced in front of everyone last year?” I peered at her. “Yes, she’s the same one.” Last year he told me , “Oh she’s just having fun.” Now here he is again watching this exhibitionist flaunt her semi-nude self.  I remembered being irritated about it last year too. I turned another shade of green and gritted my teeth.  Self, don’t hit him now.

Then he said those words. “I believe she’s gained weight since last year.” I peered at her again, “Yes, I think she has.” That wonderful man spoke again, “You’re looking good, honey.” I smiled. Love that man.

Lord, forgive me. First for my jealously, then for my gloating over her weight gain. How can I? I can’t believe after all my struggles with excess weight that I’m glad someone else gained weight?  I’m so mean. Yep, guess I’m just a mean girl. God forgive me.

This is the first time I’ve been glad someone else gained weight. As I watched her dance, parts of her body bounced that shouldn’t have. If I were dancing by her there would be more parts of my body bouncing than hers. I knew this.

But she wasn’t bothered or ashamed of her bouncing parts at all. Hmmm? Why am I embarrassed by mine?

 This is a bikini I can wear. Not.

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But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.                    

And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.

  If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.  Galatians 5:22-26 NKJV 

              

80 POUNDS GONE, STRESSFREE EATING

IMG_5110 (Note: After reading a post from http://www.365fitjournal.wordpress.com, I realized this way of eating is stress-free. I haven’t thought about it. Yes, this is stress-free eating. Notice I said eating, not dieting. Thank you 365fitjournal for helping me see this. -She’s eating the same as I am. Check out her blog.)

80 pounds gone! Victory! How can this be? I’m eating regular food. I’m not dieting at all.

— Lord, I’m so amazed at what You’ve done.  I stood on the scales last Sunday and had a total weight loss of 80 pounds. You created this miracle in my life. Four years ago, even two years ago, I never thought this was possible.

For the past 41 years, I’ve struggled with my excess weight and dieting.  I’ve experienced so many diet failures that I developed a failure complex and considered myself a total failure at life. Now I’m free and I know I’m not a failure. Continue reading 80 POUNDS GONE, STRESSFREE EATING

BEEN LYING ALL THESE YEARS

Lord, I’ve been lying all these years. Even though it was just a little white lie, I hoped You would understand. I know a lie is a lie, a sin is a sin, and no sin is greater or lesser than another. But I just couldn’t tell the truth, I just couldn’t. Will You forgive me? Continue reading BEEN LYING ALL THESE YEARS

THE MAN OF MY DREAMS

Lord, You’re the best matchmaker. You blessed me with the man of my dreams.  Wow!

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Wedding Day 1973

He’s been my best friend for 42 years of marriage. I married him in 1973, but we have been “steady” since 1968.  The first ring he gave me,  he made in his metal shop class. He made it from a stainless steel nut. I wore it on a chain around my neck. That let the world know we were “going steady”.  We’ve been going steady ever since. Continue reading THE MAN OF MY DREAMS

VICTORY

—- The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholds him with His hand.     Psalms 37:23-24

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Walking with a granddaughter.

Lord, I just want to thank you for guiding my steps:

  • Steps to grow closer to You
  • Steps to grow stronger in my body
  • Steps in eating less
  • Steps in  friendships with others
  • Steps to my victory

You hold my victory in Your hand and for this I praise You. Continue reading VICTORY