DANCE OR DESPAIR!

20130925-194457.jpg[Written over a year ago:]

Lord, I am the lowest I have ever been. My belief level is so low. I am on the edge of just giving up on all my prayers.

(My child, I see and know. I am in charge. I told you that I would not let the enemy win. Why do you doubt what I say? Why do you look at the circumstances? What do you see instead of looking at Me? Continue reading DANCE OR DESPAIR!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE! (written on May 22, 2013)

IMG_7200Lord Jesus, here I am. I don’t even know what to say?    Uh . . . well . . . I got there. I hit a new mark not seen since 2001. I now weigh 241.2 pounds. Oh why, why did I keep eating until I arrived at that number? Why?  Insanity describes all my actions, or at least those about food. Continue reading YOU ARE NOT ALONE! (written on May 22, 2013)

("I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER PLANNED")-GOD

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Oh Lord, I am so excited! Today is weigh in day! I can’t wait until I get on those scales, I just know it will be a five-pound weight loss! I just know it, I feel smaller! Let’s see. Uh. . .

What? I can’t believe it! This is wrong! I will try again, okay. let’s see. Uh. . . .

Okay, Lord, it was only minus three pounds, but I will praise You anyway.  I am sorry that I seem  so disappointed. I know a  three-pound weight loss should make me happy. Continue reading ("I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER PLANNED")-GOD

IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?

IMG_9563[I wrote this over a year ago. I have struggled with this overeating issue for most of my life, but praise God, I now see victory!]

Good morning, Lord. How? How? How can You stand me?

(My child, I love you!)

Lord, I don’t deserve Your love at all.

(I do love you!)

Lord, why would You love me? Why? Continue reading IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?

HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!

IMG_9874Lord, as I look back on my life and now as I look at my body, I see all the failures of the past!

(My child, I see you as My creation, “the finished product, perfect in every way”!  I am in the process of  shaping you into who I want, a “vessel of My Holy Spirit” walking forth in My Presence, showing forth evidence of My Power, and  showing forth My Victory in your life! My child, I give unto you, “Hope”, renewed, reawakened “Hope”!) Continue reading HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!

THE VICTORY CAKE!!

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Oh man,  . . . I looked at that chocolate cake setting on my kitchen counter! My friend brought it over and my mother in law is eating it, but she eats little small slivers. I have not wanted any of it until now. . .  As I just walked by, it called my name! Continue reading THE VICTORY CAKE!!

DIRECT MY STEPS AND MY EATING TOO!

IMG_9855— For His eyes are on the ways of man, and He sees all his steps.    Job 34:21 NKJV

Thank you Lord, for watching over all my steps. Thank you for ordering them according to Your plans.

— A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.   Proverbs 16:9 NKJV

Thank you Lord so much for directing my steps. It is nice to know that You are in charge! It takes the burden off me so that I don’t have to worry about my day. After all, it is now Your responsibility. Now whatever happens, I can look to You and Your plan for this day. Continue reading DIRECT MY STEPS AND MY EATING TOO!

JUST TRUST ME- GOD

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Lord, . .  a one pound weight GAIN!!! How can this be??? I have followed what I thought was ‘Your’ eating plan for me! I am eating only three meals a day and what I thought was half portions. I have eaten small deserts with each meal, but I thought it was acceptable to this eating plan. I thought I was just to focus on smaller portions and only three meals a day. Lord, . . . I just know my body is weird! Continue reading JUST TRUST ME- GOD