THE UGLY CHOICE!

     Oh Lord, I’m so sorry! I now see the truth in my heart and it is so ugly! I can’t believe that I was so selfish to You! Yes, it was all about the scales!  My heart this morning was all about the scales! Oh Lord, I’m so sorry that I hurt Your feelings because I choose the scales over You! I am so ashamed and embarrassed before You now, hanging my head in shame! Lord, I am so sorry, can You possibly forgive me?

[This morning, I woke up around 4:30a.m. but I didn’t want to get up because I thought it would be too early to weigh myself. Monday is my weigh-in  day and that was all I could think about. I knew that if I drank coffee during this early predawn “quiet time” and then waited until later to weigh-in that the coffee  would show a weight gain.  So I justified myself continuing to lay in the bed, and then I overslept, and was unable to spend “quiet time” with the Lord.]]

Lord, I could have had such a sweet time in Your Presence in the predawn hours,  but I didn’t get up because I thought, “It’s too early to weigh myself now!” Lord, I could have spent two hours in Your sweet Presence, but yet I chose not to get up because it was too early to weigh myself. Oh Lord, how ugly and selfish is my heart! I cared more about the scales and what they said instead of the sweetness of Your Presence! Lord, please forgive me! I can’t believe that I turned You away because it was too early to weigh! Oh Lord, I can’t believe what I just did! Lord, I am asking for forgiveness and please don’t take Your Presence from me! I will just throw away those scales since I now know that they rule my heart! I want You to rule my heart now! I want to walk in obedience to You at all times! Please Lord, please forgive me! The scales are not that important, but You are! What You speak to my heart is more important than what those scales say! Oh Lord, my priorities are so messed up! Set me on the right path again so that I may have Your Presence with me! Lord, change me so that I want You more than numbers on a box! Lord, help me to love You with all my heart, all my soul, and all my mind! Lord, I give myself to thee, do with me as You will! Lord, I am so messed up, would You change me and make me into something that You are proud of?

(Yes My child, it does hurt when My children chose something else instead of spending time with Me! At times, I feel so rejected by My own children that I love so much! I gave all that I had and suffered intense extreme pain in death so that they could be set free! Yet, they are so busy running to and fro with their “to do” list or their entertainment while I am just on the sidelines waiting, just waiting for them to remember that I am with them.

My child, you have no idea the hurt and rejection that I feel due to the way My own children treat Me with insignificance!  Sure, they gather in their churches and sing praises to My Name, but how do they spend their time the rest of the week? They spend all their time in busyness and activity, but they don’t know that I am waiting, just waiting for them to acknowledge Me in their busyness.

My child, come here, let Me hold you to Myself. For that is what I long for, just to hold My children in My love! They have no idea how much My love is for them!)

Oh Lord, forgive us and draw us closer and closer to You! Let the focus of our  hearts be to hunger for and seek out Your love and Your Presence! Lord, I don’t want to hurt You and neither do Your other children! Lord, turn our hearts to YOU, bring conviction to our sins so that we may focus our love on You instead of whatever else we have before us! Lord, allow us to return in worship with broken hearts full of love and compassion for the One that loved us more than all else. Let us bow before You in humility over our sins of busy activities, especially the sin of “playing church”. Make our hearts to seek You with all that we are or will be! Lord, I ask that You consume us with a desire and a longing for Your Presence! Thank You for loving us, Your undeserving people! Amen.

—- For I acknowledge my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against You, You only, have I sinned, and done this evil in Your sight. . . . . . . . . . .                                         Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Your Presence, and do not take Your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Your Presence and uphold me by Your generous Spirit. . . . . . . . . .                                         O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth shall show forth Your praise. . . . . . . . . .                         The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, a broken and a contrite heart – these O God, You will not despise.                                              Psalm 51: 3-4, 10-12,15, 17

Lord, grant us all broken and contrite hearts over our own sins and help us all to love You with all our hearts, all our souls, and all our minds! Help us to focus our love on You alone, above all else! Let us all choose You! Amen.