FEAR AND VICTORY

 

  Lord, I’m so afraid of those scales. Tomorrow is “weigh” day and I’m scared. I can’t take it anymore.

My child, know that your worth is  not determined by the number on a machine. I created you and you’re worth so much more. I gave My life for you, therefore you are truly valuable indeed. Trust Me.

But Lord, what if the scales don’t go down. I’ve ridden a stationary bike. I ‘ve tried walking over 5K  steps each day.  Once I even reached over 10K steps. Instead of feeling victorious,  I took two Aleve and went straight to bed.

I’ve walked so much that my back aches and it hurts to turn my head. Now I can’t sit without pain. My neck hurts too. I think I’m too old for this exercise routine, but what can I do to make those numbers go down?

I’ve started  going to a chiropractor for my neck and back pain. It’s costing me a lot of money to let him torture me three times a week. Sometimes I think he’s going to break my neck. You know Lord, it’d be so easy for him. One wrong twist and it’s all over for me. Now that I think about it, I’m getting afraid of him too. I don’t know this man, who is he anyway? My life is in his hands. God help me.

I hear all those popping noises when he twists my neck. Today after he twisted my head  in the opposite direction of my body, it made loud cracking noises, and he exclaimed with excitement, “Now there it is, we got #3 loose.” I just looked at him with dazed eyes trying to remember to breathe. But you know, Lord, it would be worth every bit of the pain if only those scales would just go down.

I’m so glad that on the food program You gave to me  that I’m allowed some desert even if it is in small portions. But now, I’ve chosen to give up all my deserts and breads  just to move those scales to a smaller number. If they don’t go down, I don’t know what I’m going to do. You know how I love my deserts.

Last week when I started this walking program the scales went up two pounds. How can that be? I wanted to scream. I’m doing everything I know to do.  I just can’t handle another weight gain. So I  threw the scales in the garbage only to get them out again. Lord, I don’t know what more I can do. 

I had Hubby to put new batteries in the scales to help my feelings. I knew they had were messed up. Maybe they just needed new batteries.  It didn’t work. When I stood on them a second time, the numbers just went up to a  higher number. So I kicked them in frustration and screamed. Please help me.

My child, I will not have you in a bondage of any kind, especially to a pair of scales. Don’t  you  know that I’ve come to set you free? When I look at you I don’t look at  the size of your body, and I don’t look at the number on some scales. 

I look at  your heart. Your heart being full of My love is  what I consider the most important of all that is.

Lord, I ‘m so afraid of these scales. I would just forget it, but I’ve got to weigh myself tomorrow for my records.

My child, for your records, I did not give you a spirit of fear. Now don’t be afraid for I am with you.

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THE NEXT MORNING

Lord, here I am standing in front of these scales. Please let the numbers go down. I’m holding my breath.

(Standing on scales.) What? Is it true? Oh Lord, help me.

(Get off scales. Get back on scales. Be perfectly still. Lean forward a little. It moves down if you just lean forward a little. Suck in your breath. Look down, don’t move.)

What? Praise God!  Hallelujah! The scales went down three pounds. I have lost the two pounds I gained from starting this exercise and now I’ve lost another pound too. Three pounds gone. This makes a total of 72 pounds gone. Thank you Lord for helping me. Five more pounds to lose and I’ll finally reach that Weight Watchers goal given to me for the first time back in 1974, over 41 years ago. (It’s too bad I didn’t stay with them. I’m a diet dropout.) I haven’t been this small since my first year of marriage. Thank you Jesus. You’re giving me victory.

My child. . .  I told you to not be afraid. Fear does not bring success, but I bring victory. I complete every work that I start, including you.

Lord, since I gained weight when I started this walking program, do You think I should stop walking? The chiropractor, pain expert, said to start walking again. I asked Hubby and he said that I’m a pain in the neck. What do You think?

(Laughter-lots of laughter.)

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 MEASURING VICTORY

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.    2 Timothy 1:7

Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.                    2 Corinthians  3:17

Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His face evermore. Psalms 105:4

In God I have put my trust; I will not be afraid. . . .Psalms 56:11