Lord, those credit cards are traps of failure. Help me not use them today and to put You first in everything.
Seek HIs will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:6
I have failed You again Lord, and I’ve gotten caught up in so many distractions especially the “resale” business. I let it enslave me. Resale sites on my cell phone became first in my life above all else and all others. I’ve spent hours just looking and looking at pictures of things people were selling and I bought some unnecessary things too. I also listed stuff on these resale sites I wanted to sell. Never made much money, just enough to spend at the grocery store.
Then I spent the money on resale that I planned to use as a deposit on a missionary trip. Instead of using it for the trip, I bought a dining room table and a serving buffet that caught my eye. A credit card was used to buy all this. It was a compulsive buy and for a while my house was full of furniture. My dining room looked like a warehouse with two dining room tables, two serving buffets, and for a while 18 dining room chairs. Don’t even ask. Compulsive buying is worse than compulsive overeating. A credit card can rob you of many blessings. At least, that’s what I think. 
Now my missionary trip is cancelled. Hubby, who puts up with my bad spending habits asked, “How are you going to get the money for that trip? You can’t put it on a charge card and I don’t agree with you going anyway.” So there you go, trip over. I can’t help but wonder, if I didn’t have this out standing debt would he had agreed for me to go?
Child, your victory is on the way.
Lord, how can I be a witness? Why am I not crying over this lost missionary trip? I have been so wrong about so much and sidetracked with so many things. My attention hasn’t been on seeking Your will. Now I’ve messed up and lost this opportunity. I do want to help others, but I don’t have the funds, especially now that I’ve spent money I don’t have buying what I don’t need. There has been so much confusion here. I’m confused. How can I be so messed up?
This is a hard lesson. I’ve been causing myself stress due to my compulsive purchases and overwhelming debt What is Your purpose in all this? I have missed Your will again.
Child, you are learning to seek Me in all things. That is My will.
Lord, how do I pay for this credit card expense of new furniture I didn’t need? I have grandchildren to buy gifts for and now look at My hand. It’s empty.
Child, look at My hand. What do you see?
Lord, I see nail prints.
Child, I lost it all but I gained everything. Do you trust Me?
Yes Sir. (Hanging my head in shame.)
Then stop trying to figure out how to provide for others and trust Me. Look to Me – for Me – not My hand, but look at Me. Seek My face for I am the supply for all your needs.
Lord, I depend on You for You are my supplier, not those credit cards.
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I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Do not be like the horse or like the mule, which have no understanding, which must be harnessed with bit and bridle, else they will not come near you. Psalm 32: 8-9 NKJV
For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from the world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever. I John 2: 15-17 NLT
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. John 10:10 NKJV
