Paths of Destruction

Lord, today so many are in paths of destruction. So we ask for a covering of Your Holy Spirit over this land. In fact, the whole world needs You.

Paths of destruction
In the path of destruction

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Help Me Listen More

Help me listen more to You, Lord. Help me listen more to what You say about me versus what others say. But especially, help me listen more to You versus what I say about myself, words of self-criticism, self- condemnation, and words of “should’ve done this” or “should’ve not done that.”

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Seek My Presence

Seek My Presence
Seek My Presence

My Child, seek My Presence, rest in My love. Know I’m not a performance-based God. No, instead it’s My desire for you to seek and enjoy My Presence. So cease from your striving for perfection and enjoy My company, My Presence. 

You can never achieve even your own performance standards. So let go and just enjoy My Presence. For My Presence is sweetness for your soul. My Presence will fill you with peace and joy unspeakable. 

My love for you is not based off what you do. Instead My love for you is based off what I’ve done. You can’t earn My love by your so-called good performance. My love is freely given to you for no reason except I want to give it. I want to give you My love- not a “to do” list. I just want to love My people  and help them to know my love deep within their hearts.Seek My Presence

This is My focus- to exchange love with My people. I love them and I long for them to love Me. They’re not to strive to earn My love. After all it can’t be earned for the price is too high and no one can pay it, no matter how rich they are. But I freely give My love to each and everyone, no matter their walk in life. I am concerned over each individual. And I reach out in My love to all, to each and every single one.

People have been so beat up with all their man-created religious rules. They beat up on each other, full of judgements and accusations. Then they compare themselves to each other to measure their own performance standards. And all I want to do is love them. 

But Lord, what about all those rules You gave to Moses and all those rules in Leviticus?

Child, each one of those rules were to make their lives better and easier. Living by those rules will bring you a better life versus the concept of “do whatever you want to”. If you look at those who follow the philosophy of “do whatever makes you happy”, they are miserable.

Your victory is assured
Because of Me, your victory is assured.

Selfishness causes much heartache. The rules I gave help bring order and peace. When people do whatever makes them happy by living for their own selfish desires, it causes much pain and heartache. I knew selfishness caused misery, so I gave My rules as a gift of wisdom. 

People think if they only please themselves then they would be free to enjoy their lives in their own pleasure. But it doesn’t work that way. 

It’s only living a life in My Presence that brings true peace, joy, love, and deliverance. It’s only My love that sets people free to truly enjoy their lives.

These rules are to guide them until they come to know My love. When My Presence and My love rule over their hearts, then they won’t need to be concerned with rules, for I will lead them and guide them to an abundant free life, full of joy and peace. My love is the answer for all their questions.

I do not expect perfection from My children, for I know they are weak and frail humans. But I do long for their love.

Seek His Presence

But seek first the kingdom God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33

Seek the Lord while He may be found , call upon Him while He is near. Isaiah 55:6

But it is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all Your works. Psalm 73:28

We love Him because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19

For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of god, not of works, lest anyone should boast. Ephesians 2:8,9

All Is Well, Trust Me

Trust Me.

Child, all is well. Trust Me for I have it all in My hands.

But Lord, what about those being persecuted in other countries? Do You see those children who are abused or killed throughout the world? Starvation, murder, so many suffering from disease, or wars, what about all that?

Trust Me, Child
Trust Me, Child

Child, all of that will end soon, and very soon. I know about it all, and yes I cry. My tears are the only tears in heaven. “Jesus wept.” (John 11:35) I do weep, I do cry. My Spirit is grieved at much of what I see.

Trust Me

But then I see – -revival, people’s hearts seeking My love. I see kindness and people giving to one another. People are showing forth My love to each other and that makes Me smile. I see the love in a mother’s or father’s eye as they look at their newborn child and I smile. I see the aged and weary couple holding hands. As they smile at on another, I smile on them.

Yes, there’s much suffering in this world, but there’s just as much love in the world, even more so. It’s because I spread My love from one to another. 

When you look and behold My creation in nature, you’ll see how I create beauty out of rocks. Yes, I can take all the rocks and hard places of life, both yours and those of others, and turn them into great reflections of My beauty.Trust Me

Thank you Lord for hope. If I didn’t have You, I’d have no hope.

Child, I am your hope, I am your love, and I am your future. Remember, keep your eyes on Me, not what you see. 

Lord, help me to have the right attitude within my heart.

Child, seek Me, seek My Presence. Then you will have true peace. You can say, “It is well with my soul.” Seeking the peace of MY Presence should be your priority. As you yield your heart, your mind, and your soul to Me, I’ll fill you with a calm, peaceful spirit versus your frustrations now. 

Rejoice in the little things, for it’s the little things you’re allowing to frustrate you. Let go and trust Me. Trust Me

Yes, rejoice even when your aches and the pains of age are catching up with you. Rejoice in your frustrations for they cause you to cry out to Me. Even though it seems to you things are bad, I will turn all things around and create good out of it. 

That is My specialty, taking the bad and turning it into good. Satan is the one who want to kill, steal, and destroy. I come to bring life, bless, and build up My children into new life. 

My specialty is turning  bad into good. Therefore Satan never wins for I take the bad he caused and I turn it around to make good out of it. So trust Me to work all things out.

Trust Me, My Child

And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose. Romans 8:28 AMP

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5,6 

It’s Just A Tool

Child, it’s not the answer for I AM the answer. It’s just a tool.

Lord, I don’t know what to do. I’m so tired of this struggle. You helped me lose 90 back in 2015-. And it seemed so easy then. At that time I was so full of Your Presence.

Its' Just a Tool
This is how I looked on May 23, 2013, weighing 240 pounds.

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An Ongoing Relationship

I can do all things

It’s all about an ongoing relationship. That’s what Jesus wants with you.

In our life group at church, we were discussing whether Christians should ask forgiveness every time they sin or not. Once you ask forgiveness, that sin is erased. But what about the sin you commit tomorrow, whether by accident or wrong choice?

It’s the old “once saved, always saved” argument.  Do you think a person can just pray a sinner’s prayer, live a sinful life, and then expect to go to heaven because they once said a sinner prayer? What do you think?

This is my opinion- It’s all about an ongoing relationship.

In comparison we have to wash dishes and clothes most every day. We  also have to wash our bodies every day or we will stink to high heaven.

As a Christian, you may be forgiven and saved, but sometimes you mess up in sin. You do this either by mistake or by choice. But just because you prayed the “Sinner’s Prayer” for salvation doesn’t mean you don’t need to ask forgiveness for your daily sin.

And we all daily mess up, backslid,  or make wrong choices in life. But the whole point of it all  is to maintain a relationship with Christ. Communicate, talk with Him about it all and do ask forgiveness.

He doesn’t want to condemn you.

Instead He wants to love you and help you live in victory.

So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. And because you belong to Him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the poser of sin that leads to death. Romans 8:1,2 NLT

Ongoing Relationship

My husband and I have a good relationship. But if I chose to go against his wishes, it would hurt his feelings. So I apologize when I mess up.

Confessing a sin is apologizing to God for our mess ups. He knows when we are weak and that we sometimes make stupid choices. But He’s always there just waiting for us to come to our senses, realize who He is, apologize, ask forgiveness, and renew our relationship with Him. He loves you just as you are, exactly as you are. But He intends to make your life victorious, no longer defeated by sinful choices.

If I never apologized to my husband for my errors, mistakes, or mess ups, it would hurt our relationship. But if I immediately apologize when I  know I’ve mess up, then our relationship stays strong. And it’s the same for him too.  He’s also apologizes to me when he realizes he messed up. After all, it’s all about our relationship, not who’s right or wrong.

This is what Christ desires from you, an ongoing relationship with Him. He doesn’t expect perfection for He knows you are human. And He understands your weaknesses.

He only longs for a strong, ongoing relationship with you. It’s not something you just do on Sunday. He wants to be involved in your daily life, every detail of your life.

He always sees what you can be with His help. And He wants to help you succeed with a life of victory. Success is not being rich or famous. It’s a life with peace of mind and peace of heart. Success is freedom from all that keeps you in defeat.

True peace can only be found in an ongoing relationship with Christ. He already knows everything about you, even with all your failures. And He loves you just as you are. His intent is to turn your life around from one of failure to a life of victory in Jesus.

You may think you have it all together, but I know I don’t. And I have no shame in asking Jesus for help. Only God can remove the inner garbage within our souls. Only God can renew our minds and cleanse our hearts.

What a wonderful thing it is to know that in spite of my many failures He still loves me. He really loves me. He really loves you too. And he wants an ongoing, deep, honest relationship with me and you.

That’s all He asks, to be our closest best friend forever. And He wants you to talk to Him about every detail of your life. Your friends may tire of hearing every detail of your day. But God never gets tired or bored with the details of your life, He’s very interested in you and your life. He hangs on every word you speak to Him. Talk to Him today. After all, its all about an ongoing relationship He wants with you.

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Chew On This

Lord, if You kept a record of our sins, who, O Lord could ever survive? But You offer forgiveness, that we might learn to fear You. Psalms 130:3,4 

(Fear is this case means respect. Again, my opinion.)

He remembered us in our weaknesses. His faithful love endures forever. . . .     Psalms 136:23

 

Slow Down

Child, slow down your eating. Take time to enjoy each bite versus swallowing it as fast as you can in order to reach for the next bite.

To begin with, eating is not a marathon race to finish first. For you, winning is not cleaning your plate first. Instead, winning for you is eating only what is sufficient for your body, savoring each bite. Yes, I want you to enjoy your food, but not inhale it.

So slow down, take your time. You’ve heard the saying, “Take time to smell the coffee.”  Now I say to you, “Take time to taste your food.” And chew it slowly too. Chewing slowly increases the flavor.

When you chew and swallow your food as fast as you can, you can’t enjoy the taste as much as you would have if you chewed it slowly. So try slowing down to enjoy your meals.

And see for yourself if this doesn’t increase the pleasure of your meal. Trust Me.

Yes Sir. I’ll try today.

Also try eating less at your meals in order to increase your hunger for the next meal.

Your Hubby will be eating every every 2-3 hours on his food plan. But you, My child, I want you to hunger for Me.  You are to be semi-fasting. Do you remember what you said to Me yesterday?

Yes Sir.

You said you wanted to live a semi-fasted lifestyle to increase your spiritual focus. 

Yes Sir, I did say that.

Well child . . .  eating all of it is not semi-fasting. In reality, it is eating all of it. 

Yes sir.

So try again today. Start over again today. And focus on enjoying the pleasure of My Presence versus the pleasure of food. 

Also before you eat, seek My advice about what and how much to eat. Use your “before the meal blessing” as a time to seek My will about your food. 

Thank you Lord for talking with me about my food issues again today. You’ve never given up on me even though I’ve messed up so many times.

Child, I never give up on any of My children. Therefore, I will never give up on you.

Lord, help me to please you in all my ways. Help me to not be filled with anxiousness and self-pity parties too. Overall Lord,  I need Your help just to deal with all this stress in my life.

So be at peace, My child. I will help you. Allow Me to fill you with My Presence. This will strengthen you as you goes forth. And slow down your eating too. I have already planned for your victory. Never give up on yourself. Know this, I will never give up on You. Never give up.

Yes Sir. Thank you Sir.


Our Lord Father- Prayer

Our Lord, Father

Our Lord Father, Almighty God, who is in Heaven,

Our Almighty God, most powerful and most holy,

May Your Holy Spirit fill this earth and all its people.

Lead us to Your way in all our lives, our hearts, our minds, and our souls.

Give us food necessary for our bodies.

But Lord, what we need most is spiritual food for our minds and our spirits.

Forgive us for our many sins, failures, and the pain we caused to others,

Also the pain we caused You when we rejected You and chose our own selfish ways instead.

Help us forgive those who caused us disappointments, pain, and broken hearts.

Help us Lord, to turn away from all temptations,

 

Especially those which lead us away from Your love and Your will.

Deliver us from evil, including that which distracts us from Your love.

Deliver us from the evil that convinces us our own choices are better,

Especially when our choices are against Your Word, and Your plan for our lives.

You Lord, are the source of the real, true love which lasts forever.

You Lord, are the source of overcoming power which leads us to our victory,

Especially the victory You’ve already planned for us.

Let us stay in Your Presence, Your love, and Your will forever and ever.

Thank you Lord, for loving us in spite of our many failures, and our selfish ways.

Forgive us for all the times we rejected Your way,

Forgive us for wanting our way instead of Yours.

Help us Lord, to turn our hearts, minds, and souls completely to You,

So we may have true peace, true love, and complete joy in Your Presence.

Amen

The Lord’s Prayer

Our Father, who is in heaven,

Hallowed be Your name.

Your kingdom come.

Your will be done

On earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread. 

And forgive our debts,

As we forgive our debtors.

And do not lead us into temptation,

But deliver us from the evil one.

For Yours is the kingdom and the

    power and the glory forever. 

Amen

Matthew 6: 9-13

 

Abba Daddy & Baby Brat

ABBA DADDY & BABY BRAT

I’m one of Abba Daddy’s children, but I’m one of His spoiled baby brats. All throughout my life, I’ve kept my blanket and my pacifier for self- comfort. But I long to join the big boys and girls (spiritually strong) outside the nursery of life.

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Some days I’d stand at the window of the world and watch them. I do want to be like them, strong and confident. But as long as I hold on to my blanket of self-comfort and my pacifier of self-pleasure, I’ll never be able to leave my nursery. I’ll always be one of Abba Daddy’s baby brats. Will I ever grow up spiritually?

Day after day I watched and listened as they shared their experiences while in Abba Daddy’s Presence. I longed to join them. Then one day I noticed something I hadn’t seen before.

While I was laying with the blanket over my head, my hand rubbed the satin border. And as I sucked on my pacifier, I watched out the window of life. That’s when I saw.

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Suddenly I stood up, pressed my nose up against the window and dropped my blanket as I placed my hands against the window. Then my pacifier fell as I opened my mouth in surprised wonder.

My Abba Daddy’s out there with them. They get to be with Abba Daddy. I sat down, leaned against the window, and cried. Why can’t I be out there with Abba Daddy? I picked up my pacifier of self-pleasure and looked at it. Why would anyone want this nasty thing?

Then I looked at my blanket of self-comfort. When it was new, it was pretty with bright colors and it used to make me feel good. But now it’s old and faded with the stains all over it. I no longer enjoy self-comfort. I’m filled with disgust. These things keep me from being with Abba Daddy.

Tears ran down my face and my lips quivered. He turned and saw me watching Him through the window. As He walked toward the door to my soul, I got excited with anticipation. So I opened the door and waited for Abba Daddy.

Finally in walked my Abba Daddy. He picked me up and swung me around as I laughed. Then He kissed me, “How’s my little baby doing today? ”

As I hugged Him, my blanket and pacifier fell to the floor. Then I used my sweetest voice, the one I use when I want my way, “Abba Daddy, I want to be outside with You and the big children. I want to run, play, and be with You all the time.”

“Baby, I want you with Me too. But you’ll have to leave this blanket of self-comfort and this pacifier of self-pleasure in the nursery. Are you ready to let them go?”

Then I remembered how soft and comforting the blanket was and how much fun it was to suck on the pacifier. “But Daddy, I’m scared to let them go.

My blanket gives me comfort and security. And my pacifier has always given me pleasure, even if it’s dirty. So what will I have for pleasure if I let go?

I really want to be outside with you and the other children. I’m sick of this boring nursery. I want to be spiritually strong. And I long to be free, but what will I do?”

Daddy smiled at me with love in His eyes instead of disapproval, “Baby, you have Me. I want to show you a life so full of excitement and joy that you can’t even begin to comprehend. Hold on to Me when you’re afraid, I’m strong when you’re weak. So, are you willing to let go of these things? Do you trust Me?”

He’s so strong. And it felt so good to be in His arms now. “Abba Daddy, I chose you. Take me by the hand. I’m ready to grow up in Your presence now.” Then He reached for my hand. I could tell He was so proud of me. He loves me so much. And I love Him too.

Abba Daddy holding my hand.
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We smiled at each other as He opened the door to my new world. As I stepped through the open door of His will and my destiny, I knew in my heart that no matter what happened, my Abba Daddy would always be there with me to lead me each step of the way. I was now free. Abba Daddy will always be my source of comfort and pleasure. Before now, I just never knew I had to let go in order to receive ….

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CHEW ON THIS

Assuredly, I say unto you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of Heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of Heaven”….. Matthew 18:3-4 NKJV

You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 1 John 4:4 NKJV

Little children, keep yourselves from idols. Amen 1John 5: 21 NKJV

Lord, I Want Your Love

 

Lord, I want your love. Lord, I want Your love

 

Lord, I want Your love. Help me to return to You as My first love, my greatest love. Help me to obey You in all my ways especially in dealing with other people and my food issues.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

What do You want me to write? Do You even want me to write? Lord, I don’t know what it is that You want for me or with me for that matter.

And I’m so concerned about all my grandchildren, and their parents too, living in the society of today. Lord, I don’t know what I can do.

Child, pray My will be done in their lives. 

Lord, help me to only speak words of affirmation, encouragement, and of Your love for them. Keep my mouth shut, clamped shut when, or if, it is full of criticism or discouragement.

Also Lord, help me to love You in a way that it pleases You. I want a real relationship with You, not just the mechanics of routine prayers and Bible reading. In fact, I want a deep relationship with You. Overall, I want Your Presence with me at all times, throughout all my life.

Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

Help me to turn away completely from this unnecessary food that so easily tempts and  entraps me to compulsively overeat.

Lord, I do want to lose weight, and I also want to help Hubby lose his extra weight too. But I don’t want him to be skinnier than me. How embarrassing that would be.

So help me to yield Myself to Thee completely and resist temptation to put my face in the feeding trough.

Child if you seek and follow My will concerning your food, you will lose weight. I will lead you and you will have success.

Also Lord, when I write my prayers, thoughts, or even the words You spoke to my heart, I always consider if this would be good to write in this blog. Lord, I want our talks to be about our relationship, not the blog. But if I am to write for the blog, then lead me and help me to organize my time schedule to write and publish.

Child, it will be so. 

Lord, I want to know You like those people who say they have a “word” from You. I want to love You like they love You. Also, I want others to see You in me and be attracted to You because of it. Help me to please You in all my ways.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love
Lord, I want Your love.
I want a deep relationship with You as I have never had before. I want a new awakening, deep with my spirit.

Make me hungry for You. Yes, I want to be hungry for You. And I want a deeper walk with You too.

Lord, what do You want from me?

Your love, My child, I want your love. 

Lord, these people who say they have a “word” from You spend hours in reading Your Word and in prayer too. I don’t have hours due to my job and my home responsibilities.

Child, it is not your hours I want. It is your heart I want. I want your love.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.