Do You See The Lights? It’s A Dream.

Lana_1_1Have you ever seen the heavenly “lights” of God, either the brightness of angels or even the Light of God? I haven’t, but I’m looking for them. This all began with a dream I had the other night about “The Lights”. After you read this, let me know what you think about my dream.

To begin with, Lana was in my dream. She was my bestest (Is that a word?) BFF, my most beloved friend. Sept.1, 2014 was the day of she entered Heaven. I celebrate her victory.

For six years I visited her once a week unless I went out of town or was sick.  We enjoyed praying and studying the Bible together.  She’d share her secrets with me  and I vice versa. She’d tell me how God spoke to her heart and I’d write these thoughts down for her. She encouraged me to listen for God’s voice and to write what He spoke to me too. My time spent with her is one of the greatest treasures of my life memories. She’s with God now, talking with Him face to face. Oh, and she’s probably dancing for Him too.

Lana had been bedridden with M.S. for over 18 years and was completely paraplegic. She could only move her head, but Lana was the most beautiful person I have ever known. Her smile would light up the entire room. I’ll always believed she had a straight connection to God Himself. Now she’s living with Him in that “good” neighborhood. She once shared a dream with me about being in Heaven. She said, “I lived in that “good” neighborhood too. Jesus’ house was just over the hill. ” At that time I laughed at her because in Heaven everyone lives in a good neighborhood. I’m smiling as I write this.

Lana’s mother and mine were best friends throughout our childhoods, but somehow we never connected until adulthood, by then she was bedridden. Lana  made such an impression on my life. I want to be just like her, except for the paraplegic part. I want to have her connection with God,  her outgoing personality, her love for God’s Word, and her genuine interest and concern for others. Lana might have been contained in her bedroom, but her prayers impacted the world.

She spent her time either watching  preachers on television since she was homebound, shopping QVC for the same reason (Others made the phone calls for her), or listening to the Bible by audio. She could quote you different scriptures too. But most of all she spent her time praying for others. She prayed for everyone she knew and others she didn’t know. She prayed for world leaders, people-groups within different countries and over current events in the news. When God allowed her to enter Heaven, the world lost one of its greatest prayer warriors and I lost my best friend. He took her home on September 1, 2014 and I’ve missed her ever since.

This was my dream:

Life was busy. We’re all were running to and fro, back and forth to many different activities, all except Lana. Her first focus was to always look for the Light. Wherever she was the Light would come, shine over her and talk with her. She was with the Light so much we could see the twinkles of many lights surrounding her. Every time she talked with the Light she was surrounded by many twinkling lights and she glowed as she reflected this Light.

She spent so much in the presence of the Light with those twinkling lights surrounding her that we started watching. When we would see the twinkling lights come forth, then we knew she was coming to talk with Light. As we watched from a distance she talked with the Light and glowed in His love.

Then one day Lana left to be with Him. She was gone. I thought to myself, “I miss her, but I’m going to miss seeing the Light too, now that’s she gone.” I wondered if we’d ever see the lights again since she was gone now.

As I looked around, it’s dark and the sky is foreboding. A powerful wind is blowing and leaves are swirling about. Storm clouds are brewing.

Then Yahweh speaks to my heart, “Child, look for the Light. The Light will come to you if only you will look for it. Look for the Light, My child.”

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Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the Light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the Light of life.” John 8:12

Arise, shine; for your Light has come! And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. Isaiah 60:1  (This was one of Lana’s favorite verses.)

For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.  2 Corinthians 4:6

The city had no need of the sun or of the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God illuminated it. The Lamb is its light. Revelations 21:23

 

 

Worry

img_9148Worry . . .  Lord, I need You for so much. Every time I venture off without talking to You first, I mess up everything.  I just want to make You proud of me and now I’ve created another mess by pushing the wrong buttons. Help me. Ahhhhh! Continue reading Worry

Focus, My Child

 

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Lord, I ate all the seafood last night. Well, I think I did leave one bite, but I lost my focus. Now this morning I’m bloated. How can I lose weight eating like this? What do I do? Do I start over again since I ate all the seafood?

Wait until you are hungry before you eat again.  You didn’t eat all the meal, only the seafood. My child, I want you to hunger for Me.

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This week’s magazine promise. Yea, right!

Lord, do I give up breaded fried foods too?

My child, it won’t hurt you.

Lord, I’ve already given up sweets.

My child, I gave up ALL for you. Do you think giving up fried foods or sweets is too much for you to sacrifice?

Sigh. No, Sir.

Then do it. Remember . . . focus on My Presence, not your food.

Yes Sir.

Renew your focus. Keep looking at Me. Your mistake at last night’s supper was not eating the food. No,  it started when you looked at the food and your heart filled with desire. I want you to desire Me more than your food. Desire Me, My child, and you will be blessed beyond your comprehension, more than a seafood meal.

Yes Sir. Help me keep my eyes on You and Your will with all I say and do, including the food I eat.

Lord, I’m having company for supper and serving their favorite- fried pork chops. What do I eat?

My child, I will lead you at that moment in time. I want your focus not on meal planning, but rather on seeking Me- My Presence. Focus on Me and I will lead you to your victory.

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Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
                                                   For they shall be filled. Matthew 5:6 NKJV

So let’s keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision—you’ll see it yet! Now that we’re on the right track, let’s stay on it. Philippians 3:15-16   The Message

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  1. Focusing on God’s Presence
  2. Home of Grace picking up donations
  3. Friends calling and coming to eat supper with us.
  4. Got patio washed off.
  5. Feeling peaceful

 

Oil of Gilead (Fat-free, Calorie-free and Sweet)

 

IMG_0441Lord, where are You?

I’m here, waiting for you.

I’m so confused. I don’t know what to do, think, or what to say. What’s wrong with me? Continue reading Oil of Gilead (Fat-free, Calorie-free and Sweet)

  SISTERHOOD OF THE WORLD BLOGGER'S AWARD

IMG_5437A while back my youthful weight loss buddy Rachel,  nominated me for a “Sisterhood of the World Blogger’s Award”.  Thank you Rachel, following your blog and reading of your successes is a reward in itself. www.myjourneyonedayatatime.wordpress.com

I feel like a proud grandma even though we’ve never met in person. You’ll enjoy reading her journey. She’s been an inspiration to me with her weight loss of 66 pounds and graduating from college with Magna Cum Laude honors at the same time. I’m so proud of her. When I was in college I probably gained 66 pounds. I always studied with a huge bowl of popcorn. At 230+, I waddled across the stage to get my diploma.

With this award comes an assignment. Now it’s past time to answer the questions,  and pass this award on to others.

Award Questions:

1. In one word, how would you like your readers to describe your blog? ( I hope, “Encouraging”.)

2. Which is your most favorite among your blog posts? Why? ( “70 Reasons I’m Thankful God Helped Me Lose Weight” – This is my favorite because I have to give credit where it’s due – God helped me. Without Him I would still weigh 241, maybe more by now.)

3. What, who inspires most of your blog posts? ( I write most of my blog posts with a pen in my hand and a 5-subject spiral notebook during my personal devotional time with my Lord. I write my questions and complaints, mostly complaints and then I write what He speaks to my heart. I believe in God, the Father, Jesus Christ, the son, and the Holy Spirit as a Trinity. It’s similar to an egg with the yolk, the white, and the shell. They’re different, but one and the same.- free theology lesson.)IMG_0408

4. What do you inspire to accomplish this year? (I want to encourage/help as many people as I can know that God is the answer to all our struggles, be it weight or otherwise. Only He can set us free from our self-inflicted bondage. I have said that He saved me from myself. Chew on that one.)

I’ve also wrote a devotional book, and submitted it to a publisher. Hopefully it will be out in January 2016,  God willing. One day, I would love to speak at Christian women groups.  I enjoy sharing about my relationship with Christ.  After all, He’s my best friend and my weight loss counselor too. I love Him for what He’s done for me, more than helping me losing weight.)

5. What do you aspire to learn this year? (I would like to learn how to write inspiring Christian fiction just for fun. Since I’m tech challenged, I would like to become more tech efficient.)

6.What is your most favorite book? Why? (I enjoy reading from my New King James Version Bible. I chose that version because it’s easier for me to comprehend. Sometimes it’s amazing how I sense God speaking to me through His Word. Like that book was just written for me. )

7. What’s the most courageous thing you  have ever done? (I once stayed at the hospital for three days and nights without leaving with a young man who died from cancer.  He had adopted me as his mother since his Mom had died  years earlier. He needed me so I stayed. I was the only one there when he went to heaven. I’d never witnessed death before. Immediately I called the nurses to let them know the machines had stopped and  he was gone. They all filled the room to say “bye” to him. I’ve never felt God’s Presence  as I did that morning. He died unafraid with someone who loved him by his side. God was there too.)

8. If you could be a superhero, what would be your superpower? (You’ll laugh at this. I would like to be a “Ghostbuster” so I could destroy the demon of gluttony. Remember that scene of the gluttony monster eating everything. IMG_5438

If I could I’d destroy the demons of alcoholism, tobacco addiction,  and drug abuse, too. How about all addictions, sickness, poverty, basically all evil. Hmmm, sounds like I’d like to be God.  Uh-oh. I’ve been guilty of telling Him what I think He should do. Now I’m waiting for lightening to strike me. Uh-oh. Watch out. Don’t stand by me in a storm.)

9. Who is your female role model? (Believe it or not, I identify most with adulterous woman in John 8:1-12.  I feel as though I’ve committed adultery many times in my heart due to my love for food. There was a time when I loved food more than my God or my husband. Only someone with a food addiction can understand that.

When you want to experience secret pleasure with something/someone else more than the one you made a promise of commitment to, that’s adultery.  My heart has been adulterous many times with food pleasure.  Jesus told the adulterous woman to go and sin no more. I can’t say that I have sinned no more. My false lover, food pleasure, is still there just waiting to entice me with His pleasures. God’s Presence destroys the power of gluttony.

It’s been said that adulterous woman is the same Mary that anointed Him with costly perfume and wiped His feet with her hair. John 12: 1-8. I don’t know if that’s true, but let’s suppose it is.  Mary surrendered her life to serve the one that set her free from her demons.  He set me  free from the demon of food addiction. I’ve also surrendered my life to serve Him.

Rules of the award:

  • Thank the blogger that nominated you and post a link to their site.
  • Put the award logo on your site.
  • Answer the same questions above.
  • Nominate seven blogs.

To pick only seven of my favorite blogs is very hard for I enjoy all of them. Previously I nominated some of my favorites to the WordPress Family Award. To be fair, I won’t nominate those blogs to this award. I’ll choose differently this time.

My Seven Nominees:

1. www.fittoservegroup.wordpress.com  (They have a  church support group in southern Florida. One day I’ve love to visit them.)

2. www.peacewithfood.com   (Written by Robyn and  Lara. Their mantra is, “Eat what you want, Never diet again, Live a happy Life.” I agree.

3. www.kidfarmer.wordpress.com  (She writes “Thoughts of a Christian Cowgirl.”)

4. www.littlemoreeachday.wordpress.com  (She blogs about health and running, but I love most of all the stories of her son.)

5. www.2fatnerds.com  (This blog is written by a couple and their whole family is focusing on being healthy.)

6. www.dottotrot.com   (Dot has lost 125 pounds. Her blog includes health information and recipes too.)

7. www.sassyfitnesschick.com     (Her blog is about health issues. She’s a runner that hates  diets. She thinks you should make small changes to improve your diet, not go on a diet. We agree.)

MY CHILD, I BRING YOU VICTORY

 

20131016-044541.jpg   Lord, why am I not losing more weight? Why does it seem I’m going backwards? My scales tell me I’m gaining, but why? I’m eating the same as before. So. . . why am I struggling with the scales now?

I didn’t exercise before and lost over 70 pounds. Now that I’m exercising, why haven’t I lost more weight? I see the finish line of this journey. I need to finish in victory. I need Your help. What’s going on? I don’t understand.

  Continue reading MY CHILD, I BRING YOU VICTORY

SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

IMG_2624(Editor’s note: This is a  story I wrote for a writing contest. In the contest I could only use 250 words, but here I can write as I feel led by God. I pray it ministers to you, it did to me.

I’m not the girl in the story, but the emotions were mine.  My highest weight was 241 pounds, not 300. The words God spoke to her were the same words He spoke to me when I cried out in desperation.

This story begins in fiction and ends with truth. As they say in the movies, “This is a fiction story based on some facts of truth.”) Continue reading SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME