Lord, I feel so rejected by my friends. What do You want from me?
Lord, I do love You. Thank You for loving me, but I feel so unlovable now. After all I just didn’t measure up to their standards and I can’t be what they think I should be. To change myself so I fit in their status mold, not mine, makes me feel so uneasy. After all, their mold doesn’t fit me. For instance, it feels like a tight squeezing shoe or a sock that falls down all day. I just didn’t fit in their group, but the rejection hurts.
The following word was written last January 2016 and never published. It continues as an appropriate word for this new year of 2017. Think I’ll print it and keep it in my Bible.
Last year (2016) I made a lot of bad decisions, lost my focus, and listened to others with their plans for my success. Notice the line written, “If you listen to others, all will be vanity.” Consequently most of my decisions ended up as vanity. These wrong decisions resulted in unnecessary expenses on my charge card as I tried to buy my way to success which in turn caused an unfair burden on Hubby. I greatly regret this and now my charge card is overweight.
Most importantly, I missed God’s mark for 2016. This is my greatest regret of 2016, missing God’s perfect plan. It seems I had His permissive will, but that’s not the same as His perfect will. This year, 2017, I’m seeking His perfect will. How about you? What are you seeking?
In conclusion I wished I had kept my eyes on Jesus, who knows what might have been. Check out the word for 2017. More lessons to learn. . . .