Lord Jesus, forgive me. I broke down last night. It really started yesterday morning when I was more interested in the news than my “sweet time” with You. Then last night I really broke when I started eating all the sweets. There are several sweets in this house due to others here, and I just completely broke down. For two days now, I have struggled against the pull of this temptation , but last night all my resolve just collapsed! Continue reading A NEW DAY, EXPECTING NEW VICTORY!
[ Just after such a wonderful conversation with my Lord, I went to the restroom. I know . . . this is just too much information! But afterwards, I decided to weigh myself just one more time only to see if I now weighed less since I had gone to the restroom. In hindsight, I now realize that my thinking is just warped due to this bondage of the scales and compulsive overeating. But I do want to say, that probably everyone trying to lose weight has done this at one time or another. Then immediately after I weighed myself for the second time, the Lord and I had another heart-to-heart discussion. But this time, it was not praise from my Lord. Sigh.]
What??? Lord, how can this possibly be? Surely that cup of coffee didn’t weigh that much? Continue reading PEACE LIKE A RIVER! (Part-two – Uh-oh!)
(Wait My child, obey Me in this! Wait until the appointed time. Remember that your success is not determined by a number from a box you stand on. Your obedience and submission to Me determines your success.)
But Lord, what if I haven’t lost any weight?
(Then, what will you do, My child?) Continue reading WALK BY FAITH, NOT SIGHT!
(You will be, My child! This is why you are in training now! Most new recruits cry in boot camp! You are in boot camp now, My child! This is your boot camp!) Continue reading YOU'RE IN BOOT CAMP NOW!
Lord, I have really made a mess of things, haven’t I? I am overdrawn at the bank, overweight, and I haven’t sought You or even listened. Now I ask for help, now that I am in a hole. Lord, how do You put up with me? Lord, I want You, but I seek pleasure in other things. Here I am, a mess, expecting You to put back the pieces! How dare me? Continue reading THE MESS! (Writings from last year)
Lord, I am the lowest I have ever been. My belief level is so low. I am on the edge of just giving up on all my prayers.
(My child, I see and know. I am in charge. I told you that I would not let the enemy win. Why do you doubt what I say? Why do you look at the circumstances? What do you see instead of looking at Me? Continue reading DANCE OR DESPAIR!
Lord Jesus, here I am. I don’t even know what to say? Uh . . . well . . . I got there. I hit a new mark not seen since 2001. I now weigh 241.2 pounds. Oh why, why did I keep eating until I arrived at that number? Why? Insanity describes all my actions, or at least those about food. Continue reading YOU ARE NOT ALONE! (written on May 22, 2013)
Oh Lord, I am so excited! Today is weigh in day! I can’t wait until I get on those scales, I just know it will be a five-pound weight loss! I just know it, I feel smaller! Let’s see. Uh. . .
What? I can’t believe it! This is wrong! I will try again, okay. let’s see. Uh. . . .
Okay, Lord, it was only minus three pounds, but I will praise You anyway. I am sorry that I seem so disappointed. I know a three-pound weight loss should make me happy. Continue reading ("I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER PLANNED")-GOD
Good morning, Lord. How? How? How can You stand me?
(My child, I love you!)
Lord, I don’t deserve Your love at all.
(I do love you!)
Lord, why would You love me? Why? Continue reading IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?
Lord, I got so frustrated yesterday! I got restless, felt trapped, I just longed to go out to eat somewhere, but due to being a homebound caregiver I had to stay home. Oh Lord, I guess I was just having a “pity party”! Continue reading DO NOT GIVE UP!!!