THE TUMMYACHE! (Past writing ** see note at end.)

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Lord, forgive my gluttony last night at supper.  I was so tired from helping my parents prepare their house for their out-of-town company. After I got home I just wanted to go to bed, but then I had company of my own coming! I had to prepare our supper and then clean up. I just wanted to lay my head on the kitchen table and go to sleep! My supper consisted of bought fried chicken, mashed potatoes with gravy, corn on the cob, and for dessert “hot apple pie”. Then because I  was so very tired and stressed out, I searched the kitchen for more food! I found a Snicker Bar,  peanut butter cookies, and a nice piece of Boston Crème pie.

Continue reading THE TUMMYACHE! (Past writing ** see note at end.)

REACHED THAT "NUMBER"! (Written Feb. 5, 2014)

Right after I woke up, the Lord spoke to me, “Get up, go stand on your scales!”

Okay Lord, is this You or me? This is only Wednesday and I just weighed myself last Monday. Lord, I need to know, is this You?

(Go weigh yourself and you will see that “number”, the one you have wanted to see!) Continue reading REACHED THAT "NUMBER"! (Written Feb. 5, 2014)

THE UGLY CHOICE!

IMG_2516     Oh Lord, I’m so sorry! I now see the truth in my heart and it is so ugly! I can’t believe that I was so selfish to You! Yes, it was all about the scales!  My heart this morning was all about the scales! Oh Lord, I’m so sorry that I hurt Your feelings because I choose the scales over You! I am so ashamed and embarrassed before You now, hanging my head in shame! Lord, I am so sorry, can You possibly forgive me? Continue reading THE UGLY CHOICE!

STARTING OVER IN GOD'S PRESENCE!

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[Written on December 30, 2013]

Lord, here I am again! Help me Lord! I went on a binge again last night! First, it started with the taco chips at the Mexican restaurant and then I ate all the taco salad including all the crispy shell. Then when I got home I proceeded to the cake, candy, ice cream, and even more snack cakes! Lord, I know better, I can’t believe I have done it again! I had almost made it a whole month without bingeing, I had almost earned a month-long “Recovery chip”. Oh my Lord, why did I do this again? I have lost 37 pounds, but if I keep this up I will just blow back up like a balloon in only one month! Oh why, why did I do this again? Continue reading STARTING OVER IN GOD'S PRESENCE!

THE GLUTTONY MONSTER! (Writing from the past:)

IMG_1881 Good Morning Lord! Will You give me another chance?

(My child, I am the God of second chances!)

Lord, I don’t even know where to start!

(Start with Me, My child!)

Okay Lord, what is  first? Continue reading THE GLUTTONY MONSTER! (Writing from the past:)

MY HOPE AND MY VICTORY!

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA101108 132-auto      — I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.     Psalm 32:8 NKJV

Thank you Lord for this assurance. I don’t have to worry anymore, I just have to look to You to tell me what and how to do. Thank you for taking the burden of  responsibility off me. I know that You know “ALL”, therefore I can trust You to guide me. Oh, what peace in surrender to You, My Lord! Continue reading MY HOPE AND MY VICTORY!

THE MESS! (Writings from last year)

20130926-194042.jpgLord, I have really made a mess of things, haven’t I? I am overdrawn at the bank, overweight, and I haven’t sought You or even listened. Now I ask for help, now that I am in a hole. Lord, how do You put up with me? Lord, I want You, but I seek pleasure in other things. Here I am, a mess, expecting You to put back the pieces! How dare me? Continue reading THE MESS! (Writings from last year)

HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!

IMG_9874Lord, as I look back on my life and now as I look at my body, I see all the failures of the past!

(My child, I see you as My creation, “the finished product, perfect in every way”!  I am in the process of  shaping you into who I want, a “vessel of My Holy Spirit” walking forth in My Presence, showing forth evidence of My Power, and  showing forth My Victory in your life! My child, I give unto you, “Hope”, renewed, reawakened “Hope”!) Continue reading HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!

THE VICTORY CAKE!!

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Oh man,  . . . I looked at that chocolate cake setting on my kitchen counter! My friend brought it over and my mother in law is eating it, but she eats little small slivers. I have not wanted any of it until now. . .  As I just walked by, it called my name! Continue reading THE VICTORY CAKE!!

DIRECT MY STEPS AND MY EATING TOO!

IMG_9855— For His eyes are on the ways of man, and He sees all his steps.    Job 34:21 NKJV

Thank you Lord, for watching over all my steps. Thank you for ordering them according to Your plans.

— A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.   Proverbs 16:9 NKJV

Thank you Lord so much for directing my steps. It is nice to know that You are in charge! It takes the burden off me so that I don’t have to worry about my day. After all, it is now Your responsibility. Now whatever happens, I can look to You and Your plan for this day. Continue reading DIRECT MY STEPS AND MY EATING TOO!