Oh Lord, I am so excited! Today is weigh in day! I can’t wait until I get on those scales, I just know it will be a five-pound weight loss! I just know it, I feel smaller! Let’s see. Uh. . .

What? I can’t believe it! This is wrong! I will try again, okay. let’s see. Uh. . . .

Okay, Lord, it was only minus three pounds, but I will praise You anyway.  I am sorry that I seem  so disappointed. I know a  three-pound weight loss should make me happy. Continue reading ("I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER PLANNED")-GOD


IMG_9563[I wrote this over a year ago. I have struggled with this overeating issue for most of my life, but praise God, I now see victory!]

Good morning, Lord. How? How? How can You stand me?

(My child, I love you!)

Lord, I don’t deserve Your love at all.

(I do love you!)

Lord, why would You love me? Why? Continue reading IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?


IMG_9874Lord, as I look back on my life and now as I look at my body, I see all the failures of the past!

(My child, I see you as My creation, “the finished product, perfect in every way”!  I am in the process of  shaping you into who I want, a “vessel of My Holy Spirit” walking forth in My Presence, showing forth evidence of My Power, and  showing forth My Victory in your life! My child, I give unto you, “Hope”, renewed, reawakened “Hope”!) Continue reading HOPE, RENEWED, REAWAKENED HOPE!!


       Lord, lead me according to Your will for today. Lord, I ask for forgiveness for all my sins of gluttony.

(My child, I have given you the gift of healing from this bondage of overeating. But as of yet, you have not accepted it! Accept this gift, My child. It is not something you earn, for I have freely given it to you! Now reach out and take this gift of mercy and healing. Be set free from this bondage and oppression now in My Name-Jesus! Be set free and delivered completely! Go forth in My power the power of the Holy Spirit! Those I have set free are free indeed!) Continue reading GOD CAN!!!



Lord Jesus, forgive my anger. Help me to have the attitude that please You. Lord, I want You to fill me, not the anger.

(Let go, My child, of what is in your hand and I will bless you. Let go of your self-desires and I will increase My Spirit within you.)

Lord, help me, guide me.

— I will instruct you, I will teach you the correct path, I will guide you with My eye.    Psalm 32:8 NKJV

—- Now the purpose of the commandment is love from a pure heart, from a good consciences, and from a sincere faith.                I Timothy 1:5 NKJV

Lord, give me the kind of love that pleases You.

— And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant with faith and love which are in Christ Jesus.                 I Timothy 1:14 NKJV

Thank you Lord, for Your grace, and Your love. Help me to please You! I am so sorry about my behavior.

— Therefore I exhort first of all that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and giving of thanks be made for all men, for kings and all who are in authority, that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and reverence. For this is good and acceptable in sight of God our Savior.               I Timothy 2: 1-3 NKJV

Lord, am I to pray for him and his co-workers?

(My child, praying is battle in warfare. Prayers are what moves mountains. Do you think he is more powerful than I?)

No Lord, he is not more powerful than You, it is that I have just given up!

Child, My warriors do not give up! Instead, My warriors rise up!)

Well Lord, show me, teach me how to pray for him because he irritates me with his words and I don’t agree with anything he says!

(My child, I will teach you. Pray first that My Will be done, that witnesses minister to him the truth and then pray for his heart to change.)

Alright Lord, may Your Will be done in this place, here on earth just as in heaven. Lord, send to him witnesses of Your glory and grant him a heart change. Lord, Your will be done in this situation. Amen


Birthday Cake, my favorite!

Thank you Lord that I didn’t put my face in the feeding trough yesterday. It would have been so easy, birthday cake was left here from the party and I could have easily eaten half of it! Thank you Lord for saving me from myself and my fleshly desires for more and more of cake!

Lord, I was so exhausted from working so hard to prepare for the family gathering, birthday celebration. I know from experience that when I am physically tired, it makes me so weak to temptation and then the temptation grows stronger. But You brought me through Lord! You were with me and helped me resist the temptation to become gluttonous. In the past I have used food to relax after a stressful day, and now Lord, I need You to help me relax and be my comfort, not the food.

—- And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you,  for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon  me. . . . For when I am weak, then I am strong.   2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NKJV

[A couple of hours later. . .]          Lord, I ended up taking a nap and that was exactly what I needed. Isn’t it interesting when what we really need is rest, the food calls us to eat and eat? I can’t help but wonder, could ‘Eve’ have just been really tired when she ate that forbidden fruit? It is so easy to give in to temptation when I am so extremely tired. Thank you Lord, for holding me in Your arms when I was so exhausted and keeping me out of the kitchen! The nap was exactly what I needed. Thank you!

(My child, I know exactly what you need when you need it. I am your provider, even of naps when that is what you need. Abundance of food will not satisfy the needs of your heart and soul. Instead, I will nourish your heart and your soul. Your body will also be healthier when you feed  My word and My Presence.)

Be still and know that I am God. . . .         Psalm 46:10 NKJV

(My child, know this – I am with you when you work hard, when you rest, and especially in the midst of temptation. I know that sometimes it  seems that the temptation is so very strong as it tries to convince you and pull you into its trap, but I AM stronger and I AM with you! Look to Me for your source of strength, your source of rest, and your source of comfort. For I AM the supply of ALL that you need.)

For I will [fully] satisfy the weary soul, and I will replenish every languishing and sorrowful person.            Jeremiah 31:25 AMP

Those who feel tired and worn out will find new life and energy.              Jeremiah 31:25 Contemporary English Version

The Lord is more pleased when we do what is right and just than when we offer Him sacrifices. Proverbs 21:3 NLT

( I love you, My child, and I am for you.)

I love You too, My Lord! Help me to honor You in all that I do. I give myself to thee, do with me as You wish!

YOU ARE MY ONLY HOPE! (Written on May 16,2013)

Lord, I bought the book, “Dairy of a Fat Housewife” because I have indeed fallen and I can’t get up!

(My child, I am here!)

Lord, I have had my face down in the feeding trough! I now come before You with the crumbs still on my face and my belly swollen to its fullest capacity. I have run to my sin eagerly and with only a sight hesitation. Previously, I made a vow to fast and eat only one meal a day for two weeks. Now, what have I actually done? I put my face down in the feeding trough, then when I get out of the trough I graze in the field of pleasure foods. Lord, we have talked about this so many times. I have confessed my sins over and over. I have begged for forgiveness, then I just run to consume even more and more of my sins. Lord, I truly feel that there is no hope for me, that maybe I should just give up and accept this fat, plumb woman with the fat plumb cheeks that I am!

(My child, I am Your only hope! I AM!) Continue reading YOU ARE MY ONLY HOPE! (Written on May 16,2013)

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