Entangled in Food Addiction

Lord, I’ve become entangled in food addiction again. I’ve been in this trap of defeat for several years now. Really all my life I have struggled with my weight and food addiction.

What’s humiliating is that after You healed me with a weight loss miracle of losing 90 pounds in 2014, I backslid. Yes, in 2017, I backslid and regained 30 0f those pounds.

Although I’ve maintained a weight loss of 60 pounds, I’m ashamed of regaining those 30 pounds. And now I’ve lost & regained the same 10 pounds over & over since 2020.

Lord, I wanted to help others defeat their food addiction, compulsive overeating, binge eating, gluttony, and bloating misery. But how can I help others when I, myself, am entangled in food addiction again?

Yes, here I am now due to my own wrong choices of yesterday. Lord, would You help me again to climb out of this hellhole of my own creation?

Entangled in Food Addiction

I have no strength to resist temptation, but I do want to help others climb out of their hellholes of food addiction. So how can I help them?

Child, I’m full of Almighty power- stronger than any other source. I am ALL power, stronger than your electricity and more powerful than lightening.

Don’t you think I have the power to defeat your food compulsions?

Yes Lord.

Then My Child, why don’t you come to Me first, before you put anything in your mouth- including your gum. As you chew your gum, practice thanking Me for your victories. When you chew your food, talk to Me.

As a matter of fact, even before you look at your food, talk to Me first about it. Talk to Me about all your concerns.

Talking to Me will bring you peace, henceforth destroying your need to stress eat. For then you’ll be stress praying instead of stress overeating.

Entangled in Food Addiction

Talking with Me will calm your spirit and mind, henceforth destroying the need for emotional eating. For then you’ll be emotional praying. And I will heal your emotions and fill you Myself with a calm and peaceful spirit. Wouldn’t that be better for you instead of a stuffed, bloated belly?

Talking with Me would bring you the pleasure of My sweet Presence, henceforth destroying the power of pleasure food temptations. And then you’d be experiencing the greatest sweet pleasure of life, My Presence surrounding you and within you.

When you’re full of My Presence, then you’re also full of My power and strength. Overall, you’d be full of My peace and My love.

Temptations would no longer defeat you for then you’d be walking in My power and My strength.

Now what do you choose, My Child?

Lord, I choose You. I want You. I want to be free, not entangled in food addiction. But Lord, I’m so weak. Would You help me, even though I backslid due to my own bad choices?

Child, the more of your time you spend in My Presence, the stronger you’ll become. You’ll be walking in My power.

Now come to Me for I love you. And I long to give you victory throughout all your life. As a matter of fact I long to grant all of My children victory over sin, shame and defeat.

I intend for all of My children to live victorious forevermore. For I AM victory. So all of Mine will be victorious too, as they seek to follow Me.

Lord, I’ve let myself become entangled again in food addiction by my own wrong choices. Please set me free from this prison, the one I created for myself. Help me make wise choices that will honor you.

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CHEW ON THIS

Set me free from my prison, that I may praise Your Name. Then the righteous will gather about me because of Your goodness to me. Psalms 142: 7 NIV

Come quickly, Lord, and answer me, for my depression deepens. Don’t turn away from me, or I will die. Let me hear of Your unfailing love each morning, for I am trusting You. Show me where to walk, for I give myself to You. . . . Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God. May Your gracious spirit lead me forward on a firm footing. Psalms 143: 7,8,10 NLT

At last we have freedom, for Christ has set us free! We must always cherish this truth and firmly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Galatians 5:1 TPT

You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh; rather, serve one another humbly in love. Galatians 5:13 NIV

Lord, I Want Your Love

 

Lord, I want your love. Lord, I want Your love

 

Lord, I want Your love. Help me to return to You as My first love, my greatest love. Help me to obey You in all my ways especially in dealing with other people and my food issues.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

What do You want me to write? Do You even want me to write? Lord, I don’t know what it is that You want for me or with me for that matter.

And I’m so concerned about all my grandchildren, and their parents too, living in the society of today. Lord, I don’t know what I can do.

Child, pray My will be done in their lives. 

Lord, help me to only speak words of affirmation, encouragement, and of Your love for them. Keep my mouth shut, clamped shut when, or if, it is full of criticism or discouragement.

Also Lord, help me to love You in a way that it pleases You. I want a real relationship with You, not just the mechanics of routine prayers and Bible reading. In fact, I want a deep relationship with You. Overall, I want Your Presence with me at all times, throughout all my life.

Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 

Help me to turn away completely from this unnecessary food that so easily tempts and  entraps me to compulsively overeat.

Lord, I do want to lose weight, and I also want to help Hubby lose his extra weight too. But I don’t want him to be skinnier than me. How embarrassing that would be.

So help me to yield Myself to Thee completely and resist temptation to put my face in the feeding trough.

Child if you seek and follow My will concerning your food, you will lose weight. I will lead you and you will have success.

Also Lord, when I write my prayers, thoughts, or even the words You spoke to my heart, I always consider if this would be good to write in this blog. Lord, I want our talks to be about our relationship, not the blog. But if I am to write for the blog, then lead me and help me to organize my time schedule to write and publish.

Child, it will be so. 

Lord, I want to know You like those people who say they have a “word” from You. I want to love You like they love You. Also, I want others to see You in me and be attracted to You because of it. Help me to please You in all my ways.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love
Lord, I want Your love.
I want a deep relationship with You as I have never had before. I want a new awakening, deep with my spirit.

Make me hungry for You. Yes, I want to be hungry for You. And I want a deeper walk with You too.

Lord, what do You want from me?

Your love, My child, I want your love. 

Lord, these people who say they have a “word” from You spend hours in reading Your Word and in prayer too. I don’t have hours due to my job and my home responsibilities.

Child, it is not your hours I want. It is your heart I want. I want your love.

We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19 
Lord, I want Your love.
Lord, I want Your love.

 

Change Your Self-Talk 2

Change your self-talk to “I am a child of the King. I’m strong and delivered. His blood is in my soul. Therefore I am strong and victorious. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

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Thank you Lord for this weight loss, even though last night right before bedtime I binged on No Sugar Fudgesicles and satsumas.

Change your self-talk to “I am strong. These have no power over me.”

 

Change your self-talk to, “I’m stronger than these.”

 

First thing this morning, I woke up with self-talk, “I’m so stupid. Why did I do that? I know better. Why am I so stupid?”

Then when I stood on the scales, there was a weight loss. What? . . . How can it be? But there it was, even after standing on twice, still a lower number.

Again more self-talk, “It would have been more weight loss if I hadn’t ate all that before bed. Why did I do it again? Why? I’m so stupid.”

Then the Lord spoke to my heart: “No, you’re not stupid. Change your self-talk. From now on, say to yourself- ‘I am strong. I am delivered and set free.’ This is what you say from now on for you are Mine.

None of Mine are defeated for I AM victorious in all things. So confess who you really are. 

Change your self-talk to “I am a child of the King. I am strong and delivered. His blood is in my soul. Therefore I am strong and victorious. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” 

Yes Sir.

Change your self-talk
Change Your Self-talk

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Chew On This

                   But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57 

                        I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.                                  Philippians 4:13 

 . . . And this is the victory that has overcome the world- our faith.                                I John 5:4 

 

 

 

Here’s Your Sign

— Here’s your sign. —

Here's Your Sign
Here’s Your Sign ————————(photo copied from PicMonkey)

 

—-  Child, here’s your sign:  —-

“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?” Jeremiah 32:27

Child, I’m your peace. Surely, I’ll break this wall that separates you from your victory. In fact, I’m going to re-create you into a new creature, full of My glory and grace.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17 

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Among these we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, following the desires of body and mind, and so we were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. Ephesians 2:3

 But Lord, this describes me, fulfilling the desires of my flesh for more and more food pleasure. So thank you for Your mercy. After so many failures, You still love me. Amazing. And You haven’t given up on me yet.

Child, you can’t do this on your own, in your own power. It’ll be a gift from Me. I’ve already prepared your victory. Now walk in it. Believe it. 

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— Child, here’s your sign. —

Thank God! Once you were slaves of sin, but now you wholeheartedly obey this teaching we have given you. Romans 6:17 NLT

Overall Child, My intent is to set you free. I provided you freedom. Yet you’re like the elephant held entrapped by a small stick tied by a rope.

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It is and has always been my intent to break that rope and small stick so you can go forth in freedom and your victory.

But it’s your faith that’s weak. Believe I’ve come to set you free. After all, today is your day of salvation. Now walk in your freedom from food bondage. 

Yes Sir. Thank you Sir.

Now Child, break free. I’ve already given you all the power you need to break free. So now believe and let go. 

Again Lord, I ask for a a strong word, a “power” word from You. I know you’ve spoke to my heart many times before. But now, I’ve given up and surrendered to my weakness.

Therefore, could I have a new fresh word from You? Could it be one I could hold on to and would cause my faith to be fully convinced so I can believe?

—-  Child, here’s your sign:  —-

“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?” Jeremiah 32:27

I Can Do The Impossible

I can do the impossilble
I Can Do The Impossible

I can do the impossible. You know why? Because My Lord told me so. Here’s how the conversation went:

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Lord, here I am today. Overall, yesterday was awesome. Thank you.

To begin with, thank you for the weight loss. That’s a huge surprise considering what I ate yesterday. Amazing.

Child, if only you had followed My will for your eating. Then you would have seen more weight loss.

Well Lord, what do You want me to eat today? Or do I fast today, given what all I ate yesterday?

But . . .  can I have ice cream for breakfast first?

Yes, a measured amount.

Can I have it now?

So you want to have ice cream before our time together?

How about during our time together?

Yes, you can have your way. But realize what you are choosing – ice cream – ahead of Me. 

Oh Lord, I’m sorry. Help me choose You.

In fact Child, I’m trying to help you. But first, you must believe and you must change your self-talk. How many times a day do you say to yourself, “I can’t”?

A  lot.

Faith Comes By Hearing –

So haven’t you heard, “Can’t never could.”? To begin with, change your self-talk to “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”. Then repeat that to yourself several times a day.

Faith comes by hearing. Change your self-talk and then listen. First of all, say to yourself, “I can do all things through Christ.” Then you can resist the stronghold of ice cream before Me.

Lord, help my unbelief.

Child, I am here for you. And yes, you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. For I am the Almighty, Most Powerful God of All, of everything. And I AM on your side helping you. Consider that. Think about that. 

Yes Lord, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”.

 

I can do the impossible
This has always been a stronghold all my life. But no more, for I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Now I can do the impossible.

I Can Do The Impossible

. . . From where shall my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2 AMP

For with God nothing [is or ever] shall be impossible. Luke 1:37 AMP

But He answered me, “My grace is always more than enough for you, and My power finds its full expression through your weakness.” So I will celebrate my weaknesses, for when I’m weak I sense more deeply the mighty power of Christ moving in me. 2Corinthinans 12:9 TPT

I just want to obey all You ask of me. So teach me, Lord, for You are my God. Your gracious Spirit is all I need, so lead me on good paths that are pleasing to You, my one and only God! Psalm 143:10 TPT

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

 

“Stay Home”- Victory Plan

Here’s part of my Victory Plan journal for the “Stay Home” order. Due to this mandate, for several weeks I’ve mostly ate and watched TV. So now I’ve gained over 10 pounds. How depressing.

Then last week God gave me a dream- I was in my classroom, my students were acting crazy, I had no lesson plan, and the principal walks in to observe me. I panicked. What am I going to do?- Then when I woke up and God spoke to my heart, “You need discipline and a plan.” (Note: I am a retired teacher.)

So I’m sharing my Victory Plan Journal for your “Stay Home” mandate. Hope it helps you as well. It’s free for you to print and use for yourself.

My goal is 40 days of victory, in eating and in life general. So here’s my plan, to work through this journal for 40 days. Presently I’m working on Day 5 and I’ve already lost 2 pounds. Yay!

I’ll post more Victory Plans next week. Hopefully this’ll help you begin 40 days of victory for your “Stay Home” mandate. I’m hoping soon we’ll be released from this order soon. Some states are opening up slowly and some states are extending their stay at home order. Hopefully soon, we can return to our so-called normal lives again. What is normal, anyway? What is our new normal?

May God bless you and keep you safe. May you experience success from this day forward. Let me know what you think.

Lord, help them prosper in all their endeavors. Keep all well and safe.

Deborah

 

 

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Count your blessings

 

 

God can turn our mess into a miracle

Old Lies or New Truth

Old lies or new truth, what do you listen to? Specifically what do you speak in self-talk, old lies or new truth? Here’s some examples of old lies and new truths I’ve heard:

1. Old Lie: “You’re fat and ugly too.” This was the #1 lie I’ve heard throughout my life, a lie from Satan.                                        This picture was made in May 2013.

New Truth: You’re created in God’s image. So you’re beautiful. After all, God don’t make ugly. In fact He delights in you just as you are. And He sings over you too.

The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in His love, He will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17 NKJV

2. Old Lie: “You’re a failure. You can’t stick to a diet. Even if you lost weight, you’ll just gain it back.” This lie competes with #1 for first place.Romans 8:28 and trust

Truth: With God on your side, you’re guaranteed victory. “Never a failure. Always a lesson.”

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 NKJV

But thanks be to God, who gives us victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57 NKJV 

3. Old Lie : You’re older now, so its harder to lose weight. After all, your metabolism has slowed down to nothing. So why try? Just quit. Eat all you want and enjoy life.

New Truth: Eating, although pleasurable, is not the source of joy in life. Living in God’s Presence is the ultimate source of joy. And He will fill you with His joy, true joy unspeakable.

You have made known to me the ways of life; You will make me full of joy in Your Presence. Acts 2:28 NKJV

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 NKJV

4. Old Lie: Everything’s going wrong today. So go ahead, eat some comfort food. Then you’ll feel better. Food is comfort and pleasure. After all, you’re under a lot of stress. So get a treat.

New Truth: Overeating causes more stress. When your clothes get tight, the scales go up, and shame comes due to overeating, you have more stress.

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6 NKJV

God’s Presence brings peace and victory. So what do you listen to, lies or truth? You choose.

One Small Step

One small step

One small step of obedience is all it takes to get to your victory. Then another small step is added to another and another and another until you reach your total victory.

But Lord, I don’t know what to do or even what to do.

Surrender is the key to your victory. Trust Me, My Child. With My help you can do all things, including lose weight and eliminate debt. All it takes is discipline and surrender.

Lord I have failed so much, so many times.

Then Child, it’s time for you to get up and start over afresh. I AM the God of new beginnings, new life, a new life of victory. 

Lord, I start out my days so well. But by nightfall, it’s “mess up” time.

Because Child, you don’t fight the temptation. You just give in. Learn to fight. With each battle, your strength increases. You are not to old to fight and win. After all, Moses was 80 when he started.

But Lord, I am not Moses.

But you are My Child. And I have a work for you just as I had for Moses. He had an assignment and so do you. Now get up, wash your face, and go forth in the assignment I have for you today. 

Yes Sir. But Lord, could You help me?

Child, know that I AM. But all it takes from you is one small step of obedience. Then this one small step builds on another and another until total victory is yours.

Words of Victory

Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the instructions Moses gave you. Do not deviate from them, turning either to the right or to the left. Then you will be successful in everything you do. Joshua 1:7 NLT

But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.            1 Corinthians 15:57 NKJV

For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world- our faith. 1John 5:4 NKJV

Don’t you realize that you become the slaves of whatever you choose to obey? You can be a slave to sin, which leads to death, or you can choose to obey God, which leads to righteous living. Romans 6:16 NLT

 

 

Walk In Obedience

Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in obedience to Him. You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Psalm 128:1-2 NIV

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You know Lord . . . I didn’t walk in obedience yesterday. And now I’m here before You asking for forgiveness again, yet another time. Because I know I don’t deserve it, Your love amazes me.

Please help me walk in obedience today. And please forgive me. We both know that I didn’t bring You any honor, glory, and praise yesterday. Help me to fulfill Your will in all I do, say, think, and even to what I eat in Jesus’ name.

Lord, . . . all I can say is I’m sorry.

Child, I’m sorry too. You could have had victory, supernatural victory. But now you don’t. Instead you have weight gain. 

Yes Sir.

So you didn’t weigh yourself today, did you?

No Sir.Romans 8:28 and trust

I see . . . if only you would come to Me. Then I could deliver you from this bondage. After all, I have many plans of victory for you. 

Oh Lord, I do want victory.

Then come here to Me. 

Yes Lord, here I am.

Know that you are Mine and nothing can change that. I love you, My child. 

Sir, I love You too. I’m sorry I wasted yesterday. I do want to serve You. Yesterday, I know You saw it all.

Yes Child, but I’m not giving up on you.

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Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 NKJV

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Yes Child, I will complete My work in you. So you can rest assured I will have My way in your life. And you can rest assured I will complete My work of victory. 

But Lord, I don’t understand. Why don’t You give up on me?

Because you are Mine. After all, you are marked by My blood covering your sin. 

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And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ- to the glory and praise of God. Philippians 1:9-11 NIV

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Child, I want you filled with the fruits of righteousness. Overall, I want you filled with My Presence, My Holy Spirit. 

But Lord, how?

Through praise and worship. Then you will be filled with My joy, My love, and My Presence. 

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Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in obedience to Him. You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours. Psalm 128:1,2 NIV

Because the Lord is on my side, I’m expecting a great 2020, full of weight losses and victorious wins. How about you? What do you expect for 2020?

So now, I’ve got my walking shoes on. And I’m ready to go forth toward my victory. What about you?

Walking in obedience

Fat People With Jesus?

Lord, were there fat people when You walked the Earth?

(Note: I can ask this because I have been obese most of my adult life. And I’m 30 pounds overweight now. So isn’t it nice that we can talk to our Lord Jesus about anything and He doesn’t condemn us for asking silly questions.)

Soon I wont be one of the fat people.
Soon I won’t be one of the fat people- only 30 pounds to go.
I'm one of the fat people
What I used to look like at 241 pounds

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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