Oh Lord, I’m so sorry! I now see the truth in my heart and it is so ugly! I can’t believe that I was so selfish to You! Yes, it was all about the scales! My heart this morning was all about the scales! Oh Lord, I’m so sorry that I hurt Your feelings because I choose the scales over You! I am so ashamed and embarrassed before You now, hanging my head in shame! Lord, I am so sorry, can You possibly forgive me? Continue reading THE UGLY CHOICE!
[Written on December 30, 2013]
Lord, here I am again! Help me Lord! I went on a binge again last night! First, it started with the taco chips at the Mexican restaurant and then I ate all the taco salad including all the crispy shell. Then when I got home I proceeded to the cake, candy, ice cream, and even more snack cakes! Lord, I know better, I can’t believe I have done it again! I had almost made it a whole month without bingeing, I had almost earned a month-long “Recovery chip”. Oh my Lord, why did I do this again? I have lost 37 pounds, but if I keep this up I will just blow back up like a balloon in only one month! Oh why, why did I do this again? Continue reading STARTING OVER IN GOD'S PRESENCE!
Lord, help me for I am struggling in this battle! Yes, I am staying obedient to Your eating plan for me, three meals a day, with small portions and nothing in between. But Lord, I still want more and more food! Continue reading ANTICIPATE THE VICTORY!
— I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Psalm 32:8 NKJV
(My child, do you trust Me?)
Yes Sir, I do trust You. Continue reading NOT THE POPSICLES!
Good morning Lord! It’s Monday, my weigh-in day, but now I don’t know exactly when to weigh in? I woke up so early this morning, I don’t know what to do? It is now around 3:30 a.m. and I always weigh right after I get up! I can’t go back to bed now because I am completely awake! Maybe this early morning would just be a good opportunity to spend more quality time with You? But if I drink my coffee now and then wait to weigh myself later in the day, it will show a weight gain. Oh Lord, what do I do now? When do I weigh?
(Don’t drink your coffee now, just wait to weigh yourself at 4:00a.m. and then you can drink your coffee.) Continue reading DO NOT BE AFRAID, FOR I AM WITH YOU!
Lord, I have really made a mess of things, haven’t I? I am overdrawn at the bank, overweight, and I haven’t sought You or even listened. Now I ask for help, now that I am in a hole. Lord, how do You put up with me? Lord, I want You, but I seek pleasure in other things. Here I am, a mess, expecting You to put back the pieces! How dare me? Continue reading THE MESS! (Writings from last year)
Lord, let me fulfill what You have called me to do. I ask for forgiveness for the sins of my heart and the thoughts of self-pity, resentment, and anger.
(My child, obey Me and no other, for I will lead you according to My plan, My will, and what is best for you.)
— How sweet are Your Words to my taste, sweeter than honey to my mouth! Psalm 119:103 NKJV
— Direct my steps by Your Word, and let no iniquity have dominion over me. Psalm 119: 133 NKJV
Lord, help me to follow Your will in everything I do, say, and think. Lead me to the food that You have for me, both the spiritual food and the physical food. Lord, I bow in submission before You and I desire obedience to Your will this day and everyday. Lead my steps according to Your plan.
( My child, I will lead you. Listen, open your ears unto My voice! Wait in quietness for My directions. I will lead You! I have promised to lead those that seek My will and I keep My promises therefore I will lead you.
It is so easy for you to become distracted due to the modern tools of communication. But communication with Me is best. Lay aside these modern tools of communication to focus on listening to My voice, for My way and My direction is the best. I have My best ready for you!)
. . . . So I answered them, and said to them, “The God of heaven Himself will prosper us; therefore we His servants will arise and build” . . . . Nehemiah 2:20 NKJV
I will build my words of praise to You, my Lord, for You will prosper my steps according to Your plans! Therefore, I will offer praises unto You for Your glory! Yes Lord, glory unto You!
(Wait, before you take a step, wait! Turn your ears toward Me, seek My will and I will direct your steps. I say unto you, wait! Wait for My directions, for I will not lead you into confusion but rather, I will lead you into victory! Wait, I say unto you, wait! Just as the Israelites waited in the desert until I moved, then they moved. I say unto you, wait! Wait for My directions, for what you eat, what you speak, and the actions you take. I want you to stay covered under the protection of My will, for My burden is light!)
—-If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for Me, you will find it. Matthew 10: 39 NLT
—-Do not labor for the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to everlasting life, which the Son of Man will give you, because God the Father has set His seal on Him. John 6: 27 NKJV
—-And Jesus said to them, ” I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst. John 6:35 NKJV
—–But He answered and said, “It is written, ‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every Word that proceeds from the mouth of God. Matthew 4:4 NKJV
(Come to Me, My child, and I will feed you!)
Lord, I didn’t lose any weight, in fact, I gained! Ahhh! I ate what I thought was Your will and now I gained! What happened? Continue reading THE MEASURE OF SUCCESS
“My child, lay aside that self-help book, it will not help you. My Book will help you! You will find the answers you are seeking in My Book.”
“My child, . . . do ye still not know that I love thee so? It is My love that will deliver you. There is no self-help book that will bring you freedom and deliverance from your bondage, only My book will. Look no more for your answers in man written books, but choose My book. I will be your deliverance.”