Lord, I know I was wrong to eat that slice of pizza along with my leftovers and I was wrong to eat the potato logs with the chicken pot pie. I was convicted of eating so much food, but yet, I still continued to eat it all! Lord, I guess this desire for extra food just needs to be ripped right out of my heart!
Lord, I feel as though I am being tested and I am failing ALL the tests. Lord, please help me, I need remediation. I want to be able to pass all the tests, but yet the stronghold that food has my heart! How can I break this strong deeply embedded web of destruction on my life?
Lord, I really do want to be used by You in bringing a message of hope and deliverance to others. So many lives, just like mine, caught in defeat. We are just existing in a life of defeat instead of living a life victorious before You! Food seems such a small thing, but when you are in the struggle trying so desperately to resist the temptation of ‘just one more bite’ of this pleasure, it becomes a taunting ‘giant’ ridiculing you in shame. I can just hear the ‘taunting voice of ridicule’ now.
. . . . “Ha!, what a worthless piece of embarrassment you are to God! You are so ‘sorry’ that you can’t even resist one little bite of food! There is no way you can talk to others about living a victorious life through God! There is no way you can tell others about the strength of God and how He can intervene in one’s life.Why just look at you! What are you accomplishing? Nothing,you are just eating up all the food that could be given to help someone else! Look at what a glutton you are! Why, if you were on a deserted island with other people, they would just starve to death because you would eat up all the food! You are really a selfish person, you don’t care about anyone else, just your food!
What is your life, anyway? Do you think God needs you? No, He doesn’t need you at all! You are just only a ‘sponge’ to Him, with all your whining and crying, “Help me, meet my need, give to me!” Is that all you ever pray to God? Do you thinks He really needs the drain of your whining and crying? He has enough problems with people who have really serious life problems. He doesn’t need to deal with the pettiness of your struggles over a handful of food! I don’t know how God stands you! If I were in charge, I would sniff out your life just as quickly as you sniff out a candle wick! You don’t even deserve to breathe the air that someone else could use! Why don’t you just give up this puny excuse of a life? You consider a struggle over food important! I shake my head in amazement and disbelief! It is beyond me why God even bothers with you at all! I know I wouldn’t! You are just too insignificant to bother with! You think you can help others, what a joke! You can’t even help yourself resist even one piece of pizza or even one cookie! What about a potato chip? Betcha you can’t eat just one! Ha! Ha! Ha! Why don’t you just give it up and die? You know, you will never win this battle! Better yet, why don’t you just quit struggling and just enjoy eating everything you can! Enjoy the pleasure of food! Enjoy the last few seconds of your pitiful little life with your mouth and belly full! When you die, at least your belly will be full! Ha! Ha! Ha! But who cares, at least you will get that last cookie or that bowl of ice cream! Who really cares? Do you really think that God cares? If He really cared at all, do you think that you would still be faced with this struggle day in and day out? How many times have you prayed, “God help me?” Better yet, how many times have you prayed, “God forgive me?” Do you know how stupid and insignificant you are with this issue over food? Don’t you think that God could just snap His fingers and you would be delivered? Does He really care that you live a life of defeat to just a cookie? No! Do you even realize just how many people are literally starving to death? Imagine how many parents are watching brokenhearted as their baby children are dying before their eyes because there is no food? And yet, you are constantly crying in God’s face,”Help me not eat one more cookie!” Why don’t you just give it up and die! Just end all this stupidness! Huh, why don’t you? Just die and get it over now! Why waste more time with this sorry pitiful excuse of a life that you are! Why even bother!
O Lord, . . . I hear this accusing voice and I have to admit that everything it said is true. . . .What do You want me to do?
(My child, what do you want to do?)
I want to live a victorious life that pleases You! I don’t want to live a life of constant defeat! I want to be used by You to tell others about Your freedom. I want to show them that You are the hope, the answer! I want to tell them that they no longer have to live a life of defeat but that You will deliver them from this bondage of food. You will give them freedom! I want to carry the message to others, that there is more pleasure, more than they can ever comprehend in experiencing Your presence than the pleasure of food. I want to be considered worthy enough to serve You. I want You to be able to say, “This is My daughter in whom I am well pleased.” Lord, I even would like to be pleased with myself instead of hanging my head in shame. I want to be obedient to You!
(My child, I am pleased with you! I see your heart and I love what I see! Know that I am proud of you, My child! Close your ears to the voice of accusation. Instead open your ears to hear only My voice. I whisper a message of love and hope to you, My child. Bask yourself in the presence of My love! My presence will bring you a life more abundantly that you could ever imagine.)
John 10:10 NKJV: The thief does not come except to steal,and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
(I have come to you, My child, to deliver you from a life of defeat and from death. I have come to bring you an abundant life of victory! Know this, My child, your life is valuable to Me for I have made plans for your future!)
Jeremiah 29:11-14 KNJV: For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back from your captivity. . .
(Do you think, My child, that these words spoken by Me so long ago was only intended for the ears of the patriarchs that lived so long ago? No, My child. My words, no matter when spoken within your concept of time, still continue to be omnipotent and omnipresent yet today! My words written by the patriarchs are now spoken to you! You are My child! You are important to Me! I have a purpose for you! I will call you home when I am ready for you and not before! There are to be no more words of ending your life spoken by you or anyone else for that matter ever again! Do you hear Me, My child? You are important to Me! Listen to no other voice but Mine for I will whisper words of love into your ears! Listen only to Me for I will bring unto you a gift of eternal life, not earned by you but freely given to you within My grace. I love you, My child!)
I love You too, my Lord! Do with me as You will!