Why Can’t I Eat What I Want Now?

Lord, what do You want me to eat today? While this past week I thought I was following Your directions . . . except for a few desserts. Since I gained 2 pounds, I’m at a loss. Lord, I want to give up and just eat everything. Why can’t I eat what I want now? And eat it all. Why can’t I?

Even though I want to eat everything, I know this won’t help my situation. So would You please help me with food selection? Now tell me, do I try to semi-fast for 40 days? Rather should I give up desserts since that’s my problem?

Child, you haven’t succeeded yet with fasting your social media or eating after supper. So what do you want? Do you want more instructions, or rather more rules?  Rules that you know you won’t follow?

Oh Lord, I don’t know. All I do know is that I want my size 10 pants back. How do I get them back? What can I do to make these scales go down instead of up? Why can’t I have my size 10’s and eat everything I want? Why can’t I?

You have much to learn. 

Lord, at my age, you’d think I would already know what I need to know.

Child, you are only beginning to learn. Now what do you want more, those size 10 pants, or My Presence?

Lord, I know what the correct answer should be. But I really want my size 10 pants back?

Ahhh, . . . what I have here is an honest child.

Lord, I might as well tell You the truth. You already know all things, so why lie to You? Can You help me? Will You help me?

Child, I’m going to do more than that. You watch and see. 

There is more to come and more to come off too. And I’m not just talking about your weight. There is more to come off of you, My child, characteristics, habits, wrong thoughts, and bad attitudes, not to mention your selfishness. I am going to change you completely in all ways.

Lord, I’m scared. After all, I don’t like pain and this sounds painful.

Trust Me, My child. Doubt, that’s the first thing you are going to lose. Doubt.

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For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. Roman 8: 5

Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Romans 8:37

You see, every child of God overcomes the world, for our faith is the victorious power that triumphs over the world. So who are the conquerors, defeating its power? Those who believe that Jesus is the Son of God. 1 John 5: 4,5 The Passion Translation