Edge of Victory

Lord, my temptations have not brought me the joy of victory. No, instead they’ve brought failure and defeat. I’ve failed all the tests and have become completely entangled again in bingeing and eating until I’m sick, bloated, and gaining weight. Now I’m standing here before You in guilt and shame at the edge of failure.

No . . . My Child, you’re not standing at the edge of failure. You’re now standing at the edge of victory. Call on My Name – Jesus- for I am your victory.

Lord, I thought I was at victory before, but here I am now back at binge land. At this moment I’m the heaviest I’ve been since 2014. My face has been in the feeding trough, the slop bucket. In the book, “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young,  (pg. 321) You stated that You weren’t repelled by our weaknesses. No, instead You said Your power was attracted to our weakness. How can You be attracted by my gluttony?

Yes My child, I am drawn to your weakness for I long to help those I love. I always want to help you succeed just as you always want to help those you love. For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:15-16 NKJV

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My Child, I’ve come to offer you mercy, grace, and help you in your need of deliverance. Now I want to see you free of all this that has you entangled in bondage.

Lord, I feel nothing.

My child, you don’t have to feel Me to know I am with you.

Lord, I’m miserable now.

My child, I know this for I designed it that way. At the time you’re in sin, it seems enjoyable, but eventually sin brings forth great misery.  Without the misery within sin, you wouldn’t cry out to Me.

Lord, I’m at another bottom, a sinkhole of misery. I feel as though I’m sinking in a food vat, a greasy food vat. Lord, I want what we once had before. I want to return to my joy within Your Presence. Can I come back to You?

Child, come here.

Lord, I don’t know what to do now.

Come here, I will lead you.

Lord, I want more of You.

Then My child, let go. Let go of what is in your hand because you can’t receive unless you let go.

Have mercy upon me, O God,
According to Your lovingkindness;
According to the multitude of Your tender mercies,
Blot out my transgressions.
Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity,
And cleanse me from my sin. Psalm 51:1-2

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Lord, would You cleanse me, wash me, and deliver me again from my own sin of  destruction. Overall I feel doomed to keep repeating this sin of gluttony.

My child, in fact you aren’t doomed for I’ve already set you free.  As a matter of fact it was My Blood that paid the price required for your freedom.

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He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, in whom we have redemption through His blood the forgiveness of sins. Colossians 1:13-14

* Note: The Lord is helping me. Yes I made a lot of wrong choices, but praising God for His love, mercy and forgiveness. I’ve lost 4 pounds since writing this post. I don’t understand how He could be so patient with me.

I remember back in 2014, a potential publisher told me, “If we publish your book, you can never gain your weight back. It would be an embarrassment to our company.”

Someone once told me that angels are watching us and cheering us on. It’s occurred to me that I must follow God’s will especially with my eating. After all, when I overeat am I embarrassing God in front of His angels?

I’m so grateful He is giving me another chance to eat with Him again. Thank you Lord for Your love and mercy.

He’s patient with you too. He is full of love and mercy for you too, no matter what your past choices were. Go to Him and tell Him all about your issues. I promise He’ll listen. If He listens to me, He will listen to you. He loves you ever so greatly.

 

Credit Card, Trap of Failure

Lord, that credit card is a trap of failure. Help me not use it today and to put You first in everything.

Seek HIs will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:6

I have failed You again Lord, and I’ve gotten caught up in so many distractions especially the “resale” business. I let it enslave me.  Resale sites on my cell phone became first in my life above all else and all others. I’ve spent hours just looking and looking at pictures of things people were selling and I bought some unnecessary things too.  I also listed stuff on these resale sites I wanted to sell. Never made much money, just enough to spend at the grocery store.

Then I spent the money on resale that I planned to use as a deposit on a missionary trip.  Instead of using it for the trip,  I bought a dining room table and a serving buffet that caught my eye. A credit card was used to buy all this. It was a compulsive buy and for a while my house was full of furniture. My dining room looked like a warehouse with two dining room tables,  two serving buffets, and for a while 18 dining room chairs. Don’t even ask. Compulsive buying is worse than compulsive overeating. A credit card can rob you of many blessings. At least, that’s what I think.       

 

Now my missionary trip is cancelled. Hubby, who puts up with my bad spending habits asked, “How are you going to get the money for that trip? You can’t put it on a charge card and I don’t agree with you going anyway.”  So there you go, trip over. I can’t help but wonder, if I didn’t have this out standing debt would he had agreed for me to go?

Child, your victory is on the way.

 

Lord, how can I be a witness? Why am I not crying over this lost missionary trip?  I have been so wrong about so much and sidetracked with so many things. My attention hasn’t been on seeking Your will. Now I’ve messed up and lost this opportunity. I do want to help others, but I don’t have the funds, especially now that I’ve spent money I don’t have buying what I don’t need. There has been so much confusion here. I’m confused. How can I be so messed up?

This is a hard lesson. I’ve been causing myself stress due to my compulsive purchases and overwhelming debt What is Your purpose in all this? I have missed Your will again.

Child, you are learning to seek Me in all things. That is My will.

Lord, how do I pay for this credit card expense of new furniture I didn’t need? I have grandchildren to buy gifts for and now look at My hand. It’s empty.

Child, look at My hand. What do you see?

Lord, I see nail prints.

Child, I lost it all but I gained everything. Do you trust Me?

Yes Sir. (Hanging my head in shame.)

Then stop trying to figure out how to provide  for others and trust Me. Look to Me – for Me – not My hand, but look at Me. Seek My face for I am the supply for all your needs. Lord, I depend on You for You are my supplier, not those credit cards.

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I will instruct you  and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Do not be like the horse or like the mule, which have no understanding, which must be harnessed with bit and bridle, else they will not come near you.              Psalm 32: 8-9 NKJV

For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from the world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever. I John 2: 15-17 NLT

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. John 10:10 NKJV

Change Is Headed Your Way. Can You See It Now?

Change is headed your way. Can you see it coming?  Look for it.

(Several weeks ago when the Lord first spoke these words to my heart, they gave me hope especially considering the horrific events of these past few months: hurricanes, floods, fires, earthquakes. And now this week a mass shooting of  innocents. We all need hope that only He can give. Find a quiet spot, let Him speak to your heart because if you’re like me, you could use some inner peace right now. First, quiet your inner thoughts, then listen for His voice to calm your stress. Allow Him to touch you and fill you with His overwhelming love.) 

More of His words to my heart:

My child, I enjoy creating sudden changes in order to bring hope and joy into each life. Do you remember the words of your earthly Dad, “It’s amazing how quickly things can change?”  Also, “Things can turn around for good just as quickly as they can for bad.”  Do you remember these words spoke by your husband? Yes Lord, I do. Dad was talking about how gloomy the sky looked, but then after a few minutes the sky was blue, with the sun shining and clouds floating by. My husband said these words after several hours of figuring our finances. He was talking about our debt. 

My child, I’m in the “changing” business. In fact I specialize in turning people from the mindset of defeat to expecting victory, from discouragement to hopefulness, from debt to prosperity, and from lack to the fullness of My blessings. Not to mention how I can change relationships from estranged to restored, from broken to healed and from cursed to blessed.  Yes, I’m in the changing business. It brings Me pleasure to turn defeat and depression into victory and hope. I turn abandonment into completely restored. My death on the cross restored love to those destined for eternal abandonment to adoption and unconditional acceptance into My family. The Father loves each one, no matter the human flaws. My death brought victory to all those broken without hope.  Lord, what about those sick and suffering?

My child, I give victory to all those who come to Me. Overall, they will have victory over circumstance and victory over death. While I don’t erase struggles, I do indeed grant victory over struggles. Yes My child, in life you will have struggles and suffering, but because of what I suffered you can have victory. I paid the price for victory for all, especially those struggling and suffering now. They will all have victory. As they come to Me I’ll give them the victory I bought with the price of My blood.

Thank you Lord for talking with me.

My child, it’s My pleasure to talk with My children.

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Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.                2 Corinthians 5:17 NKJV

He will not crush the weakest reed or put out a flickering candle. Finally He will cause justice to be victorious. And His Name will be the hope of the world.                       Matthew 12:20-21 NLT

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds. Psalm 147:3 NKJV

These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world. John 16:33 NKJV

But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.           1 Corinthians 15:57 NKJV

 

Don’t Give Up And Don’t Quit, For I Am With You (Part Two- His Answer)

 

IMG_9689Don’t give up My child, for I am with you. I see your discouragement, but I say to you, ‘Don’t give up and don’t quit. Go forth in the victory I have already prepared for you.”

Lord, thank you for my weight loss and teaching me how to eat in submission  Yes, I know I’ve failed You so many times, but You never gave up on me. Thank you Lord for Your mercy. You said don’t give up, but I’m overwhelmed. Now I have more issues I need Your help with, credit card issues.

Continue reading Don’t Give Up And Don’t Quit, For I Am With You (Part Two- His Answer)

“Don’t Give Up And Don’t Quit, For I Am With You” (Part 1- My Dilemma)

 

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Don’t give up, My child, for I am with you. I see your discouragement, but I say to you, ‘Don’t give up and don’t quit. Go forth in the victory I have already prepared for you.”

Lord, thank you for my weight loss and teaching me how to eat in submission  Yes, I know I’ve failed You so many times, but You never gave up on me. Thank you Lord for Your mercy. You said don’t give up, but I’m overwhelmed. Now I have more issues I need Your help with, credit card issues.

 

Continue reading “Don’t Give Up And Don’t Quit, For I Am With You” (Part 1- My Dilemma)

These Antibiotics Can Win Your Victory Over Temptations

Victory Antibiotics for January 16img_1734Take one daily and as needed when in the pain of temptation. Continue reading These Antibiotics Can Win Your Victory Over Temptations

21 Victory Antibiotics – Kill the Virus of Temptation

Here’s 21 Victory Antibiotics to kill virus of Christmas goodies temptations. Use these as needed. You have my permission to share or print. Put them on your refrigerator, on the food pantry door, or even in the car if necessary.

IMG_7194-1There’s an abundance of food temptations this month due to our Christmas celebrations. How do you plan to win over these temptations?

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Remember it’s not about the food, but the birth of Jesus Christ we celebrate. When did we get it so messed up? Was it our food addictions? Just thinking about all these goodies make my mouth water. Other people without food/weight issues make food part of their celebration too. So what do you think? If you have an answer, please let me know.

Victory Antibiotics:

 1. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 15:57

2.  For everyone born of god is victorious and overcomes the world, and this is the victory that has conquered and overcome the world- our [continuing, persistent] faith [in Jesus the Son of God].  1 John 5:4 AMP

3. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

4. For You, Lord, have made me glad through Your work; I will triumph in the work of Your hands. Psalm 92:4

Victory is the defeat of an enemy or opponent. Victory occurs when we gain success in a struggle against some difficulty or some obstacle that is impeding our paths. It is the state of having triumphed. We can triumph in victory over these food temptations. With God’s power, we can win.

5. Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Mark 9:23

6.  . . . If you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you. Matthew 17:20

7. I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye.     Psalm 32:8

8. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. . . . But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Hebrews 11:1, 6

Suppose you stop eating in mid-bite because you realized the food item wasn’t a good choice, that’s victory. If you become full and stop eating even though there’s more left, that’s victory. When you’ve lost the desire for a previously loved food item, so you don’t eat it, that’s major shouting ‘Hallelujah’ victory. Which is more valuable to you, the thrill of victory or excess food?  Victory Blessings

9. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:6

10. You will show me the path of life; in Your Presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11

Surrender to Him, His Presence is the key to victory for He is your victory. Allow God to have total control of your food for He is victory. Remember the child’s song, “Trust and Obey.” Google the lyrics.

11. Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Romans 8:37.

You’re more than a conqueror. Yes, you are. Every time you say “No” to excess food, you put a victory notch in your belt. That’s how temptation works for your victory. Choose to give yourself the gift of victory.

12. For the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17

13. Jesus said to them, “My food is to do the will of Him who sent Me and to finish His work. John 4:34

14. He must increase, but I must decrease. John 3:30

15. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us. Ephesians 3:20

16. But the Helper, the Holy spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you in all things and bring to your remembrance all things I said to you. John 14:26

17. And being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform. Romans 4:21

18. For with God nothing will be impossible. Luke 1:37

19. Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. John 8:36

Try this test for your food: Will eating this allow you to continue your victory walk with peace in your heart or will it bring you guilt? If it brings guilt, don’t eat it. Then rejoice and praise god for your victory.

20. “. . . “Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,” says the Lord of hosts. Zechariah 4:6

Your victories cause Him to sing over you.

21. The Lord your god in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17

Now you sing to Him praising Him for your victory. Side benefit, you can’t eat while you’re singing. At least I don’t think so. I know I can’t.  img_7153

Hope & Victory

img_9763My child, I am your hope.    (From past struggles)

 Lord, right now I feel hopeless. I read that You fight for Your children. Do you ever fight for me?

Yes My child, I am fighting for you. My plans are for your victory. I aim for you to be victorious. Today will be a day of victory for you.

I will fill you with My peace. I have come to save you, even from yourself and your self-infliction. I have your victory in my hand. Come to Me, so that I might give unto you the victory I have prepared for you. Continue reading Hope & Victory

Victory, Weight Loss, & Blessings

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Go to God for victory.

Lord, I read my food journal and realized I had peach cobbler with ice cream without thinking. It was only two spoonful’s, but none the less it was dessert. I thought I had made it 9 days without desserts. Lost my victory. Continue reading Victory, Weight Loss, & Blessings

Trust

 

img_9364Lord, what is Your will concerning this blog? What do You want me to do with it? I’m so discouraged. Is there something I can do? Do I go back to the way it was so I can just write and not worry about the tech mechanics? Do I just give up? Continue reading Trust