Temptation, everywhere I look. Lord help me. Forgive my stupid sins. Help me to please You in all I do, don’t do, say, don’t say, eat, don’t eat, and even what I think, or don’t think. Fill me with a greater desire for You versus anything else, even my food. Let me feed on You Presence. Thanks for loving me even though I don’t deserve it.
Now that I’m here Lord, could You tell me why do I overeat like I do?
Because you need Me. The next time you’re tempted to overeat, come sit with Me and talk with Me about it first. After all you’ve been through, don’t you yet know I am here for you?
But Lord, I don’t know what to do?
Just come to Me. That’s all you need to do. Just come to Me.
Talk with Me before looking at your phone, eating, or even reading your devotions, etc. Talk with Me first. Trust Me.
Lord, it’s myself I don’t trust. So far my record is “untrustworthy”.
Child, I am not part of your “to do” list. So you can check off: 1.Talk to the Lord-done. 2. Read the Bible- done. 3. Pray for others-done. Child, it’s not My desire to be checked off your “to do” list.
I want to be your “all”, and your source. So come to Me first and above all else. Bring Me your hurts, your fears, your worries, and your plans too’ Let us discuss them before you go forth.
Bring me those you love and give them to Me. Trust Me to take care of them. You worry yourself sick. Why don’t you just give them all to Me? Then sit back in My Presence, watch, and see what I will do. Trust Me with it all. You are too burdened trying to solve it all. Just pray your desires for them. Then let it all go into My hands for I have big hands, big enough to handle it all. After all, don’t you remember the song you sang as a child? “He’s Got The Whole World In His Hands.” It’s true. I do have it all in My hands.
So quit trying to take it out of My hands to hold in yours. Your hands aren’t big enough. You have no power to change anything, not even yourself. Let go, My child, and give it all to Me.
I want your heart and your mind at peace. And true peace can only be found in My Presence. So come here. Let Me fill you with My peace. As you spend your time with Me, your peace will increase and you will find that all you have been concerned about is being taken care of in ways you can’t imagine. In fact, you can’t fix any of it, not even yourself. So let it all go.
Know that I am with you. In fact, it’s My desire to fill you with My peace, My joy, and My love. So come to Me and let Me fill you. What I have to offer you is more fulfilling than anything you can imagine.
Now come here, My child. Come sit with Me and talk with Me.
“Come now, and let us reason together,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be as wool. If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land.” Isaiah 1: 18-19 NKJV
Call upon Me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify Me. Psalm 50: 15 NKJV
For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You. Psalm 86:5 NKJV
Lord, my temptations have not brought me the joy of victory. No, instead they’ve brought failure and defeat. I’ve failed all the tests and have become completely entangled again in bingeing and eating until I’m sick, bloated, and gaining weight. Now I’m standing here before You in guilt and shame at the edge of failure.
No . . . My Child, you’re not standing at the edge of failure. You’re now standing at the edge of victory. Call on My Name – Jesus- for I am your victory.
Lord, I thought I was at victory before, but here I am now back at binge land. At this moment I’m the heaviest I’ve been since 2014. My face has been in the feeding trough, the slop bucket. In the book, “Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young, (pg. 321) You stated that You weren’t repelled by our weaknesses. No, instead You said Your power was attracted to our weakness. How can You be attracted by my gluttony?
Yes My child, I am drawn to your weakness for I long to help those I love. I always want to help you succeed just as you always want to help those you love. For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:15-16 NKJV
My Child, I’ve come to offer you mercy, grace, and help you in your need of deliverance. Now I want to see you free of all this that has you entangled in bondage.
Lord, I feel nothing.
My child, you don’t have to feel Me to know I am with you.
Lord, I’m miserable now.
My child, I know this for I designed it that way. At the time you’re in sin, it seems enjoyable, but eventually sin brings forth great misery. Without the misery within sin, you wouldn’t cry out to Me.
Lord, I’m at another bottom, a sinkhole of misery. I feel as though I’m sinking in a food vat, a greasy food vat. Lord, I want what we once had before. I want to return to my joy within Your Presence. Can I come back to You?
Child, come here.
Lord, I don’t know what to do now.
Come here, I will lead you.
Lord, I want more of You.
Then My child, let go. Let go of what is in your hand because you can’t receive unless you let go.
Have mercy upon me, O God, According to Your lovingkindness; According to the multitude of Your tender mercies, Blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, And cleanse me from my sin. Psalm 51:1-2
Lord, would You cleanse me, wash me, and deliver me again from my own sin of destruction. Overall I feel doomed to keep repeating this sin of gluttony.
My child, in fact you aren’t doomed for I’ve already set you free. As a matter of fact it was My Blood that paid the price required for your freedom.
He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, in whom we have redemption through His blood the forgiveness of sins. Colossians 1:13-14
* Note: The Lord is helping me. Yes I made a lot of wrong choices, but praising God for His love, mercy and forgiveness. I’ve lost 4 pounds since writing this post. I don’t understand how He could be so patient with me.
I remember back in 2014, a potential publisher told me, “If we publish your book, you can never gain your weight back. It would be an embarrassment to our company.”
Someone once told me that angels are watching us and cheering us on. It’s occurred to me that I must follow God’s will especially with my eating. After all, when I overeat am I embarrassing God in front of His angels?
I’m so grateful He is giving me another chance to eat with Him again. Thank you Lord for Your love and mercy.
He’s patient with you too. He is full of love and mercy for you too, no matter what your past choices were. Go to Him and tell Him all about your issues. I promise He’ll listen. If He listens to me, He will listen to you. He loves you ever so greatly.
You take medicine when sick. So a little spiritual medicine for the soul will keep you strong. Tomorrow, you can take these as needed. You may print them and then place these spiritual medicines on the front of your refrigerator. As soon as you’re tempted to overeat, use these spiritual weapons to resist temptation. Continue reading Medicine For Your Soul