Credit Card, Trap of Failure

Lord, that credit card is a trap of failure. Help me not use it today and to put You first in everything.

Seek HIs will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:6

I have failed You again Lord, and I’ve gotten caught up in so many distractions especially the “resale” business. I let it enslave me.  Resale sites on my cell phone became first in my life above all else and all others. I’ve spent hours just looking and looking at pictures of things people were selling and I bought some unnecessary things too.  I also listed stuff on these resale sites I wanted to sell. Never made much money, just enough to spend at the grocery store.

Then I spent the money on resale that I planned to use as a deposit on a missionary trip.  Instead of using it for the trip,  I bought a dining room table and a serving buffet that caught my eye. A credit card was used to buy all this. It was a compulsive buy and for a while my house was full of furniture. My dining room looked like a warehouse with two dining room tables,  two serving buffets, and for a while 18 dining room chairs. Don’t even ask. Compulsive buying is worse than compulsive overeating. A credit card can rob you of many blessings. At least, that’s what I think.       

 

Now my missionary trip is cancelled. Hubby, who puts up with my bad spending habits asked, “How are you going to get the money for that trip? You can’t put it on a charge card and I don’t agree with you going anyway.”  So there you go, trip over. I can’t help but wonder, if I didn’t have this out standing debt would he had agreed for me to go?

Child, your victory is on the way.

 

Lord, how can I be a witness? Why am I not crying over this lost missionary trip?  I have been so wrong about so much and sidetracked with so many things. My attention hasn’t been on seeking Your will. Now I’ve messed up and lost this opportunity. I do want to help others, but I don’t have the funds, especially now that I’ve spent money I don’t have buying what I don’t need. There has been so much confusion here. I’m confused. How can I be so messed up?

This is a hard lesson. I’ve been causing myself stress due to my compulsive purchases and overwhelming debt What is Your purpose in all this? I have missed Your will again.

Child, you are learning to seek Me in all things. That is My will.

Lord, how do I pay for this credit card expense of new furniture I didn’t need? I have grandchildren to buy gifts for and now look at My hand. It’s empty.

Child, look at My hand. What do you see?

Lord, I see nail prints.

Child, I lost it all but I gained everything. Do you trust Me?

Yes Sir. (Hanging my head in shame.)

Then stop trying to figure out how to provide  for others and trust Me. Look to Me – for Me – not My hand, but look at Me. Seek My face for I am the supply for all your needs. Lord, I depend on You for You are my supplier, not those credit cards.

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I will instruct you  and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Do not be like the horse or like the mule, which have no understanding, which must be harnessed with bit and bridle, else they will not come near you.              Psalm 32: 8-9 NKJV

For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from the world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever. I John 2: 15-17 NLT

The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. John 10:10 NKJV

Don’t Give Up And Don’t Quit, For I Am With You (Part Two- His Answer)

 

IMG_9689Don’t give up My child, for I am with you. I see your discouragement, but I say to you, ‘Don’t give up and don’t quit. Go forth in the victory I have already prepared for you.”

Lord, thank you for my weight loss and teaching me how to eat in submission  Yes, I know I’ve failed You so many times, but You never gave up on me. Thank you Lord for Your mercy. You said don’t give up, but I’m overwhelmed. Now I have more issues I need Your help with, credit card issues.

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“Don’t Give Up And Don’t Quit, For I Am With You” (Part 1- My Dilemma)

 

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Don’t give up, My child, for I am with you. I see your discouragement, but I say to you, ‘Don’t give up and don’t quit. Go forth in the victory I have already prepared for you.”

Lord, thank you for my weight loss and teaching me how to eat in submission  Yes, I know I’ve failed You so many times, but You never gave up on me. Thank you Lord for Your mercy. You said don’t give up, but I’m overwhelmed. Now I have more issues I need Your help with, credit card issues.

 

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Today’s A New Day Of Mercy

 

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Lord, today’s a new day of mercy. Thank you for Your mercy. . . . Continue reading Today’s A New Day Of Mercy

Something Good is Going to Happen to You

“Something good is going to happen today, happen your way, happen today. Something good is going to happen today, happen today, happen your way.”

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Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:3 NIV

Lord, forgive my overeating last night. Help me remember to always eat in submission to You. Now Lord, will You lead me to Your will for today?

First of all My child, I’m not here to punish you or beat you up. After all, you do a pretty good job of that yourself. In fact I’m here to set you free, completely free, specifically from all that holds you in bondage, whether it’s caused by yourself, your habits, your weaknesses, others, or their words. Just so you know, you aren’t responsible for their choices or their words that hurt you.

I’m here to fill you with Myself, My power, and My strength. Furthermore you’re going to go forth victorious, not because of who you are, but because of who I am.

I choose who I choose and I choose My children to go forth in My calling. For each one I call, My calling fits just as comfortable shoes and warm fuzzy socks.

When I lay My blanket of love over My children, it’s more than just warmth. It’s a covering of My love and My anointing. I have a mantle for each life, designed for each specific one. This mantle is designed specifically for each one and My assignment for them. With the mantle covering of My love and anointing, each one will go forth in My strength to accomplish My will for their lives.

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 Of course I don’t want My children beaten down in defeat. On the contrary I intend for My children to go forth in victory. Now rise up and go forth. Know I am with you throughout every step you take.

Above all Lord, help me learn, listen, follow, and obey You in all things. Henceforth, help me always seek Your advice about everything I do, say, and even think.

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The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit., a broken and a contrite heart. . .         These O God, You will not despise. Psalm 51:17

Teach me to do Your will, for You are my God; Your Spirit is good. Lead me in the land of uprightness. Psalm 143:10

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? . . .  Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. Romans 8:31, 3

 

 

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Listen Carefully

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Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good. And let your soul delight itself in abundance. Isaiah55:2NKJV

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Lord, I didn’t listen very well last night. You know it and I know it. Technically I did follow Your directions. Do I get credit for that?

It happened just as I finished my meal. The ladies at the church pot luck were cleaning the tables. They asked if anyone wanted the last bit of leftover pasta salad. If not, they’d throw it away. I thought, “That’s too good to throw away. It’s has bacon in it, it’s just one serving.” So I stood by the garbage can and ate it out of the pan using a plastic spoon.  Should’ve let them throw it away.

The story of Saul teaches us about partial obedience, which is really no obedience. Yes, I resisted all those yummy desserts at the pot luck, didn’t eat any of it. Does that count for something? IMG_1206

Lord, You stirred in my heart to throw away the leftover pasta salad. But did I listen? No, I finished it off. Saul didn’t listen, and neither did I.

Here I am now with a bloated belly and weight gain. I’ve gone 40 days without desserts or southern fried foods. Then on day 40 I mess up, not with desserts or fried foods, but leftover pasta salad. Do You think we could count that as a salad? Would that work? Sigh. Probably not.

Lord, it’s my heart that loves and desires abundant food. Remove this love of food from my heart. Help me to love You more than anything. Help me to listen.

I won’t blame You if You don’t talk to me anymore for I am undeserving of Your voice. I’m supposed to help others and look at me with my face in the pasta bowl. img_0601

Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, and your soul shall live. And I will make an everlasting covenant with you.   Isaiah 55:3

Lord, I want Your Presence. Help me to turn away from even my necessary food. Help me  to seek Your will for every bite, every action, every word, and even every thought.

My thinking has been stinking lately. Renew my mind, make it seek after You and Your will above all.

Lord, what can I do?

Nothing My child, just seek Me first. Your eating has become automatic. In the beginning you were aware and sought Me continuously. Now you mostly eat on automatic.

Lord, I feel as though I’m on the fence teetering about to fall.

My child, you are straddling the fence.

What do I do now? How can I change my life to please You more? How can I walk in the shadow of Your Presence? I can’t help others if I’m standing in the mud. I feel as though I’m at a new bottom covered in mud, confused about which direction to take.

Lord, where am I?

img_0617My child, you’re standing at the end of the middle. Success isn’t found in the middle, hence your confusion, not knowing which way  to go. 

But Lord, where do You want me?  Do I stand here waiting not moving until I know that I know?

My child, first you have to listen. Then obey Me in the small things. I need to know I can trust you in the small things before I trust you with the big tasks. For instance, you knew to throw away that pasta. David emptied out the water as a sacrifice. You could have emptied out that leftover pasta. You made your choice, disobedience and consequences. img_8833

Lord, I’m sorry I let You down.

 My child, choose obedience to Me over all and I will never lead you wrong. Trust img_0300.jpgMe to guide your steps and you will have victory. It may not be the same victory of others, but it will be the victory I have designed just for you. Will you trust Me?

Lord, You know I trust You.

My child, will you trust Me even when you are holding leftover pasta in your hand? Will you be willing to let it go?

Oh Lord, I wish I could go back and relive that moment. I would throw it away.

My child, you can never go back. What is done is done. Now I have to adjust My plans according to your actions for I will never go against one’s will. All are free to choose their way, their choice. You chose the pasta versus My will.

Yes Lord, punish me. I deserve it.

Yes, My child, you do deserve it. But I’m not going to punish you for I have already taken the punishment for you. I have already set you free. I have already prepared your victory over sin. My child, all you have to do is look at Me, seek Me for I will never lead you wrong. And no, You’re not getting by. Natural consequences will come. They always come. I won’t go against the laws of nature that I set in motion so long ago. You see, I am hindered by your will.IMG_2463

Lord, what do I do?

Focus on Me, look to Me, listen, and obey what I tell you. Don’t argue with me. You know you argue. You tell me deep within your spirit that this time it’s okay. My child, disobedience is never okay. No matter how minor you perceive it.

Lord, I’m sorry. Now what do I do?

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I know, so what do I do now?

Incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear, and your soul shall live; and I will make an everlasting covenant with you. . .  Isaiah 55:3

Seek the Lord while He may be found, call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the Lord, and He will have mercy on him; and to our God, for He will abundantly pardon. “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55: 6-9

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My child, take each day as it comes.

 

 

TIBITS/ HELPFUL HINTS – WHAT I LEARNED ON MY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY

(Disclaimer: I’m allowed sweets on my food plan though I can only eat half or less. The following list explains how I eat my sweets. I do find it interesting that since I’m allowed sweets, they just don’t entice me as they once did. Don’t get me wrong. I do love my deserts, but they no longer call my name. Sometimes I’m just not interested. Imagine that. God has set me free.

I do apologize to my friends that are on restricted diets for one reason or another. God gave me a food program I could live with for the rest of my life. He has a plan for you too. IMG_9469Everyone is different. This is just what worked for me. It was a slow process, but it was the easiest process for me. God knew I couldn’t stick to a diet after 41 years of dieting failures. So He gave me a plan I could stick to, which included some sweets.) Continue reading TIBITS/ HELPFUL HINTS – WHAT I LEARNED ON MY WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY