(Editor’s note: This is a story I wrote for a writing contest. In the contest I could only use 250 words, but here I can write as I feel led by God. I pray it ministers to you, it did to me.
I’m not the girl in the story, but the emotions were mine. My highest weight was 241 pounds, not 300. The words God spoke to her were the same words He spoke to me when I cried out in desperation.
This story begins in fiction and ends with truth. As they say in the movies, “This is a fiction story based on some facts of truth.”) Continue reading SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME
Lord, last night I had a choice; go out to eat or stay home, order pizza, and watch a movie. I was so tired, so I ordered the pizza and settled down to watch the movie. I ended up eating too much and the movie was full of profanity and disappointing. If I had gone out to eat, at least we would have had good conversation with a good meal. Lord, I followed Your instructions about eating only a half of my meal. I ate only one slice of pizza, but I lost it over the apple desert. I fixed a large serving with ice cream on top, but as I ate this I began to feel guilty. I left about a third of it because I was so overwhelmed with guilt. It was such a struggle to let it go. Now I realize what a hold deserts have on me. I do love them so! Lord, help me to let go! Lord, help me to love You more than deserts. Do You want me to start over, back to Day one? Do You want me to give up my deserts as well since it was such a struggle last night?
Continue reading GARBAGE IN, GARBAGE OUT!
Lord, can you tell me why I lose three pounds when I go the entire week waiting until the appointed time to weigh and then I stay the same weight on the week that I weigh myself throughout the week? Continue reading PEACE LIKE A RIVER! (Part one- lost another 3 pounds!)
Lord, I want to stand on those scales really bad! I wonder if I have lost any weight this week?
(Wait My child, obey Me in this! Wait until the appointed time. Remember that your success is not determined by a number from a box you stand on. Your obedience and submission to Me determines your success.)
But Lord, what if I haven’t lost any weight?
(Then, what will you do, My child?) Continue reading WALK BY FAITH, NOT SIGHT!
Lord, HELP! HELP! HELP! I feel so guilty for whining about this, I wish I were stronger!
(You will be, My child! This is why you are in training now! Most new recruits cry in boot camp! You are in boot camp now, My child! This is your boot camp!) Continue reading YOU'RE IN BOOT CAMP NOW!
[ Written from the past. Praise God, He has delivered me from 27 pounds since May 23, 2013.]
Lord, did you see all those cookies I ate last night?
(Yes, I did.)
Lord, everyday I start eating correctly, then by bedtime I have eaten everything I can get my hands on! Sometimes I even get in the bed eating!
(I see.) Continue reading COOKIES, OH MY!
Lord, I have really made a mess of things, haven’t I? I am overdrawn at the bank, overweight, and I haven’t sought You or even listened. Now I ask for help, now that I am in a hole. Lord, how do You put up with me? Lord, I want You, but I seek pleasure in other things. Here I am, a mess, expecting You to put back the pieces! How dare me? Continue reading THE MESS! (Writings from last year)
[Written over a year ago:]
Lord, I am the lowest I have ever been. My belief level is so low. I am on the edge of just giving up on all my prayers.
(My child, I see and know. I am in charge. I told you that I would not let the enemy win. Why do you doubt what I say? Why do you look at the circumstances? What do you see instead of looking at Me? Continue reading DANCE OR DESPAIR!
Lord Jesus, here I am. I don’t even know what to say? Uh . . . well . . . I got there. I hit a new mark not seen since 2001. I now weigh 241.2 pounds. Oh why, why did I keep eating until I arrived at that number? Why? Insanity describes all my actions, or at least those about food. Continue reading YOU ARE NOT ALONE! (written on May 22, 2013)
[I wrote this over a year ago. I have struggled with this overeating issue for most of my life, but praise God, I now see victory!]
Good morning, Lord. How? How? How can You stand me?
(My child, I love you!)
Lord, I don’t deserve Your love at all.
(I do love you!)
Lord, why would You love me? Why? Continue reading IS ANY TOO HARD FOR GOD?