Anticipated New Beginning With Expectation

 

Lord, is it possible to have a new beginning with You again? Could You forgive me about last nights ice cream? Oh, and the cookies, chips, nuts, and granola bar too. Please forgive me for last night’s binge. And, thank you the scales didn’t go up this morning. That’s a sure miracle. Your mercy amazes me, especially with all my mess-ups. and backsliding.

My friend has been fasting in prayer for her brother who’s sick. She’s lost noticeable weight and looks good too. Yes, I do want to lose more weight, but I also want to maintain the fullness of Your Presence. I want to feel victorious so I can pray without feeling ashamed due to my own sins of gluttony. It’s my desire to make You proud as I eat in submission to Your will. You know what’s best for my body and I trust You. I just have a weakness resisting pleasure food. Help me, allow me to start over again with You.

Child, I’m the God of many second chances. I died so that you (and others too) could be cleansed and delivered from ALL sins. I died so that you could enter into the Almighty Presence of God. None is worthy. No, not one. It’s only because of the price I paid, the shedding of My blood as a sacrifice – the price I gave freely so that you and others could enter in My Presence. 

Lord, how can I make You proud?

Love Me, seek Me, and trust Me. Listen and obey, for there is no other way. There’s much truth in that child’s song. Let the little children lead you. Behold, how easily they trust and love. You should do the same. Follow their example. There’s much truth in the saying, “The little children shall lead them.”

Okay Lord, I’ll try. But I need Your guidance. How do You want me to eat so I can be a testimony of Your forgiveness and Your delivering power?  Others who are struggling need to know You can deliver them, especially when what they need is deliverance from their own selves? That’s what causes most of all my problems- self, myself.

Lord, do You want me to eat only two meals a day or just three meals a day, give up all desserts, or just give all my favorite pleasure foods? Do I wait until I am physically hungry to eat? Do I only eat half portions? Should I get hungry and stay hungry?

Yesterday I started out with intentions to eating only two meals. Then I got real hungry and ate past full. Later last night, I rationalized that ice cream could be my third meal. Well, we both know where that led to – another binge. I should have drank something instead.

Now I’m at another bottom with my weight. This is the biggest I’ve since 2014. I want my size 10 pants back. Where do You want me with my eating and my weight? Help me obey You and eat what is good for this body You gave me. I want to become stronger, both physically and spiritually, mentally too.

Child, as You seek My will for your eating, some days you’ll be led to eat only two meals, and some days three meals. Occasionally, I may lead you to eat no meals. Each day will be a new beginning. These new beginnings won’t be the same as a new beginning after a binge, but a new day of learning to trust Me and walking in My will.

I want you to learn how to trust, listen, and then obey as I lead you. With each new day as you practice these skills, You will grow stronger. Again, your focus is not to follow rules, but instead your focus will be to deny yourself and follow Me. I want you to learn how to deny yourself and become stronger in My Presence. When your self is completely defeated, then your victory is achieved. Self is your enemy. You must learn and become efficient in defeating self.

This watermelon weighs 190 pounds. Thank you Lord, that’s more than me!

Thank you Lord for talking with me and giving me Your instructions yet another time in my struggles with this food addiction. I’m amazed over Your mercy and Your love toward me. You have shown me yet another time of mercy.  This I know, I don’t deserve Your love. I can’t earn it, but I want it. Thank you for loving me. Help me to please You in every way that I am or ever will be.

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                        . . . do not worry about your life, what you will eat nor about the body, what you will put on. Life is more than food and the body is more than clothing. Luke 12:22-23. 

. . . choose life, . . . that you may love the Lord your God, that you may obey His voice, and that you may cling to Him, for He is your life . . . Deuteronomy 30: 19-20

Grace, mercy, and peace will be with you from God the Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love. 2 John 1:3 

Another Chance- Lord, Could I Have Another Chance?

Lord, I don’t know what to do. Could I have another chance?

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Child, I keep all My promises. I know sometimes you don’t keep yours, but I always keep Mine. I keep My promises from one generation to another and I’ll keep My promises to you too.

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Understand therefore that the Lord your God is the faithful God who for a thousand generations keeps His promises and constantly loves those who love Him and who obey His commands. Deuteronomy 7:9 TLB 

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Lord, I do love You, but I can’t say I’ve always obeyed Your commands. Sometimes I do, but a lot of times I haven’t. Is there hope for me? Can I have another chance?img_3351-1

Child, there’s always hope for another chance, a new beginning.                                                                                                                        

Lord, will You give me another chance? Psalm 32:8 is a promise You made to me long ago and many times since. Now I’m looking for Your direction again.

Child, I am leading you. I’ll guide you. But first things first.

But Lord . . . what’s first?img_3152-1

I AM first, My child. Come to Me. Let Me wash you from the filth of your sins: anxiousness, greed, worry, judgmental attitude toward others, self-criticism, overeating, procrastination, laziness, and selfishness. My child, you’ve given your heart to Me, but then you chose to walk your own way in your own wisdom. As you walk through life, the earthly drudge and filth gets in your mind and your heart too. I’ve come to set you free from this bondage of earthly things and ways.

Lord, I don’t know what to do. I just know I need another chance, another chance at life. It seems I’ve messed up in so many ways.

Look to Me for I will guide your steps and your ways.

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Child, I am here with you now.

Lord, I want to write but what’s happened? I’m blank.

Child, look at Jonah.  “Now the Word of the Lord came to Jonah the second time . . .” I am the God of second chances. Jonah got another chance, so will you.

Alright Lord, I’m getting another chance. So what do I do with it? What direction do I go?

Go with what you have now. Save up for more increase. Write.

Lord, what do I write?

Write what I give you. Then sell what you have and use those funds to pay expenses. Forget your man-made rules of post 3x this or 3x that. Forget your keeping records of how long you pray. Who’s that for, your self pride, that’s who. Man-created Pharisee rules don’t please Me. I’ve come to set you free. You have another chance. Now go and follow as I lead you constantly throughout your day.

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You know- “Pray without ceasing.” It’s not just saying words, it’s talking with Me. Discuss all the details of your life with Me. Listen for My voice leading you. Remember I don’t scream, “Do it now.” No, I speak to you quietly and always confirm My written Word. Teach others to talk with Me and how to listen. Tell them I’m the best friend they’ll ever have. Tell them I’ll give them another chance.

You’ll start writing and talking with Me every morning as I wake you Myself.

OK, Lord. Do I share about this financial mess I created?

How will they know about My deliverance unless you tell them? How will they know I will give them another chance unless you tell them?IMG_2331