There’s Always Hope

There’s always hope.

Lord, is that true? Is there hope I’ll get back to where I once was?

To begin with there’s always hope. Next to get back where you once were, let go of your abundant, unnecessary food.

Would You remove this love of food from my heart? Also, would You grant me an increase of love for You?

After losing 90 pounds, I told others how You helped me lose weight. Now I feel trapped by my “self.” And this love for food has me trapped in defeat. Since I don’t know what to do, I can’t fight it. After all, I’m weak.

Child, I’m your hope. 

Lord, You never stopped me from overeating.

To begin with Child, the desire for to stop overeating has to come from you. I won’t go against your free will. Therefore you’re free to choose. 

Lord, my free will caused me to gain weight. My free will chose to overeat, and to run to food. But I can’t stop it and You won’t stop it. So what am I to do? Now I’m trapped.

How do I defeat this “self?” How can I gain victory over this self that defeats me and holds me in bondage to excess food? Will I ever have freedom or victory again?

In fact, I’m your victory. Now give your “self” to Me for I am stronger. I can defeat your enemy of “self.” Through My power, you can have victory. 

I am the way, the truth, and the light. If you give your self to Me, I will set you free from this entrapment of self and defeat. 

Lord I start out each day fresh and strong. But by nightfall I’ve fallen in defeat never to make the finish line. How can I get my victory back? Is it possible to gain my victory back?

Yes child, for I am your victory. Come to Me. 

What do You want me to do? How can I stop eating at night? What’s the magic trick to stop me from reaching for food?

Child, there’s no magic. There’s only My power. And I’m all powerful. 

In fact Lord, You’ve never stopped me. So how will this be different?

Child, you’re good at surrender in the morning. Then at evening you give in to “self” and it’s desires for fleshly self-gratification.

Lord, I’m trapped in “self”. What can I do?

To begin with, replace your nighttime snacks with talking to Me. 

Lord, how will this work? Will it work?

Child, you won’t know unless you try it. In fact I’m your answer. I’ve always been your answer. For this reason come to Me and let’s talk together. 

Yes Lord, here I am. I give myself to You.

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This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters the Presence behind the veil. Hebrews 6:19 

Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace  in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15: 13

But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance. Romans 8:25

Working on getting my victory back. How about you?

 

Got Plastered/ Holy 30 Devotional- Day 29 & 30

Lord, is there any hope for me? I must confess, but You saw what I did and You know. Yesterday, I got plastered, yes plastered, by my drug of choice- food. (*See note at end.)

I choose to be a vegetable yesterday, not eat vegetables, but BE a vegetable. I sat in my chair all day, watched movies , grazed in the kitchen (or my chair), and got plastered on everything I could find to eat. It’s a good thing I was too lazy to go to the store for more. Otherwise, it would have been worse.

Lord, I was so bummed out over this dog situation. I’m never praying for You to send a dog again.

Yes, be careful what you pray for. Sometimes I do give you exactly what you ask for even though it’s not the best for you, just to let you learn what is not best for you. 

You asked for a dog that your husband would like. I sent you a manly dog, tough and macho. Your husband liked him, but you always had that underlying slight fear, especially when you read those bad reports about this breed. 

You feared for your grandchildren feeding this dog while you were gone on your trip, which I orchestrated by the way. But I told you then, that I had shut the mouth of a lion. Then I asked did you not think I could shut the mouth of a dog too?

Yes, that gave you peace, but you can’t deny the relief you felt when you returned and saw all was safe. This dog is leaving your home because I will not have My children living in fear, no matter how unwarranted it is. Child, sometimes fear is a good thing if it is wisdom disguised as fear. But sometimes fear is sent to distract My children from My will and My love for them. Then they take their eyes off of Me and get their eyes focused on their fear instead. Didn’t one of your Presidents say these words? “We have nothing to fear, but fear itself.” 

Yes, I’m giving this dog a new home, rest assured. Then you can focus on what’s left, your husband, your family, your home, the “grand-dog”, and your new assignment.

Yes, I did lead your friend to send you a text of encouragement about her earning four stars in four days, a star for each day of eating in submission to My will. Do you remember how I led you to write that?

Yes Sir.

Now I want you to return back to your starting mark again, specifically the START OVER mark. Return back to My Presence and start over again. You will return to eating food that is beneficial to your body and turn away from this useless, unnecessary food. You will also learn a new way of cooking to benefit your husband. He will lose weight too. Oh, and the grand-dog, Willow, will lose weight as well. Remember how the vet told you that the best thing you can do for this dog is to stop feeding him.

I say stop over feeding him, your husband, your family, and especially yourself. Extra food is not your friend. No, it is your enemy. Extra food steals your victory and leaves you defeated and discouraged. So why do you run to food for comfort?

Now today is a new day. No longer will you say, “I got plastered.” No longer will you turn to food for comfort. Now walk in the path I have prepared for you, which by the way does not include your television. 

Note: This post was written earlier this week. For more information, see the previous post. This post is part two of that story.

At this time life is so much better. Eating is under God’s control now. He is a good God and patient too.

The pit bull was adopted by some relatives of one of our friends. They have 3 acres of land for him to run in. We only have a small suburban yard. His new family stays in contact with me about how’s he doing. They even sent me pictures. It seems all is happy especially the dog.

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Holy 30 Devotional

**This short devotional, “Holy 30” (See picture of Day 29 & Day 30) is based on I Peter 1:16. First Baptist of Tillman’s Corner published this devotional. I didn’t write any of it, but I do have permission to share it with you. These are the last two entries of this devotional.

If you would like some additional information about our church check out this website:    http://www.fbtc.org/ . You can also listen to some sermons from our pastors. Enjoy them, I do.

This is the last of the Holy 30 devotional.

Be blessed My Friend,

Hope & Victory

img_9763My child, I am your hope.    (From past struggles)

 Lord, right now I feel hopeless. I read that You fight for Your children. Do you ever fight for me?

Yes My child, I am fighting for you. My plans are for your victory. I aim for you to be victorious. Today will be a day of victory for you.

I will fill you with My peace. I have come to save you, even from yourself and your self-infliction. I have your victory in my hand. Come to Me, so that I might give unto you the victory I have prepared for you. Continue reading Hope & Victory

HOPE AND VICTORY

IMG_1881 I have joined a writer’s group that submits a story every week based on a scripture cue. I would like to share them with you, although they won’t all relate to weight loss. Then again, they may. Hope you enjoy.

I have enjoyed writing for this group. My stories are a little odd, but I pray asking God for guidance each week. I also draw from my personal life/feelings as I write about the characters. It’s fun. I enjoy it.

The following story, although it’s about a prostitute’s journey, it does relate to my weight loss. For years I would worship God, ask Him to guide me to His will, and then I ran to my other lover, the pleasure of food.  Yes, I admit my other lover was food pleasure. Therefore I sold out my body to another, I was a prostitute. Continue reading HOPE AND VICTORY

SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

IMG_2624(Editor’s note: This is a  story I wrote for a writing contest. In the contest I could only use 250 words, but here I can write as I feel led by God. I pray it ministers to you, it did to me.

I’m not the girl in the story, but the emotions were mine.  My highest weight was 241 pounds, not 300. The words God spoke to her were the same words He spoke to me when I cried out in desperation.

This story begins in fiction and ends with truth. As they say in the movies, “This is a fiction story based on some facts of truth.”) Continue reading SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME