Got Plastered/ Holy 30 Devotional- Day 29 & 30

Lord, is there any hope for me? I must confess, but You saw what I did and You know. Yesterday, I got plastered, yes plastered, by my drug of choice- food. (*See note at end.)

I choose to be a vegetable yesterday, not eat vegetables, but BE a vegetable. I sat in my chair all day, watched movies , grazed in the kitchen (or my chair), and got plastered on everything I could find to eat. It’s a good thing I was too lazy to go to the store for more. Otherwise, it would have been worse.

Lord, I was so bummed out over this dog situation. I’m never praying for You to send a dog again.

Yes, be careful what you pray for. Sometimes I do give you exactly what you ask for even though it’s not the best for you, just to let you learn what is not best for you. 

You asked for a dog that your husband would like. I sent you a manly dog, tough and macho. Your husband liked him, but you always had that underlying slight fear, especially when you read those bad reports about this breed. 

You feared for your grandchildren feeding this dog while you were gone on your trip, which I orchestrated by the way. But I told you then, that I had shut the mouth of a lion. Then I asked did you not think I could shut the mouth of a dog too?

Yes, that gave you peace, but you can’t deny the relief you felt when you returned and saw all was safe. This dog is leaving your home because I will not have My children living in fear, no matter how unwarranted it is. Child, sometimes fear is a good thing if it is wisdom disguised as fear. But sometimes fear is sent to distract My children from My will and My love for them. Then they take their eyes off of Me and get their eyes focused on their fear instead. Didn’t one of your Presidents say these words? “We have nothing to fear, but fear itself.” 

Yes, I’m giving this dog a new home, rest assured. Then you can focus on what’s left, your husband, your family, your home, the “grand-dog”, and your new assignment.

Yes, I did lead your friend to send you a text of encouragement about her earning four stars in four days, a star for each day of eating in submission to My will. Do you remember how I led you to write that?

Yes Sir.

Now I want you to return back to your starting mark again, specifically the START OVER mark. Return back to My Presence and start over again. You will return to eating food that is beneficial to your body and turn away from this useless, unnecessary food. You will also learn a new way of cooking to benefit your husband. He will lose weight too. Oh, and the grand-dog, Willow, will lose weight as well. Remember how the vet told you that the best thing you can do for this dog is to stop feeding him.

I say stop over feeding him, your husband, your family, and especially yourself. Extra food is not your friend. No, it is your enemy. Extra food steals your victory and leaves you defeated and discouraged. So why do you run to food for comfort?

Now today is a new day. No longer will you say, “I got plastered.” No longer will you turn to food for comfort. Now walk in the path I have prepared for you, which by the way does not include your television. 

Note: This post was written earlier this week. For more information, see the previous post. This post is part two of that story.

At this time life is so much better. Eating is under God’s control now. He is a good God and patient too.

The pit bull was adopted by some relatives of one of our friends. They have 3 acres of land for him to run in. We only have a small suburban yard. His new family stays in contact with me about how’s he doing. They even sent me pictures. It seems all is happy especially the dog.

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Holy 30 Devotional

**This short devotional, “Holy 30” (See picture of Day 29 & Day 30) is based on I Peter 1:16. First Baptist of Tillman’s Corner published this devotional. I didn’t write any of it, but I do have permission to share it with you. These are the last two entries of this devotional.

If you would like some additional information about our church check out this website:    http://www.fbtc.org/ . You can also listen to some sermons from our pastors. Enjoy them, I do.

This is the last of the Holy 30 devotional.

Be blessed My Friend,

Prodigals & Mountains – Holy 30 Devotional** – Day 19 & 20

Lord, I have many mountains in my life. One is to lose weight, but the biggest mountain I have is the prodigals I love and the heartache of their choices. Lord, how can I climb that mountain? How can I let them know of my disapproval of their choices, but yet, still reassure them of my love for them?

Better than that, how can I reassure them of Your love for them without making them feel condemned and judged? Lord, I  love my prodigals more than my own life. And I know You love them more than I do, but how can I help them see that?

What is your overwhelming mountain? You know, the one that seems so impossible. Is it weight struggles? Or is it a child or grandchild you love who is making horrible choices and you know these choices will result in heartache and pain both for them and you? Is there any hope at all? Yes, with God on your side all things are possible.

Oh, and it helps to have some friends pulling for you too. Last Sunday night, I went to choir fighting to hold back tears. It was just too much to talk about. It hurt. Thank you Lord for the choir member who looked at me and said, “I feel like I should pray with you.” How wonderful it was to have her pray for me. Let me be that aware to pray for others when they are hurting.

Last Sunday morning, the preacher told a story of a daughter’s love for her Dad. She had tried to witness to him many times, but he always rejected Christ. Then she got kicked in the face by a horse. This resulted in many surgeries, but today to look at her you’d never know of her injury.  After she had healed from her injury, she again shared with her Dad the story of God’s love for him. This time because of her injury, he listened and accepted Christ. Later she said, “If it took going through all that for my Dad to accept Christ, then it was worth it.”

The preacher then asked, “What are you were willing to go through for those you love to accept Christ?” He then told us to come to the altar and talk to God about it. I went to altar and told the Lord that I was willing to die for my prodigals, whatever it took.

(This may be a cop-out, because I’m looking forward to heaven. Can’t wait. So don’t get upset with me. It seems that living’s the hard part. But God is not calling me to die, instead He is calling me to live for Him.)

After I left the altar, He spoke to my heart and asked, “Are you willing to let them go? Do you trust Me?” Oh Lord, dying is easier.  Sigh. Yes Lord, I meant it when I said I would give up anything to see them come to know You. Sigh. I trust You.

Then right before evening choir, due to many words said by others and words said by me confirming to them my disapproval of their life choices, I now had the pleasure of picking up grandchildren from school taken away from me. This was my punishment for expressing my disapproval. That’s why I went to choir fighting tears. Picking up grandbabies from school is both a pleasure and a delight. Yes, it’s better than dessert.

Isn’t it  wonderful that the Lord cared enough to pre-warn me of this? Knowing that He knew before I did gave me peace. Knowing that He cared enough to forewarn me, gave me peace. Yes, God is in control. He does know all things. Yes, I will give them all up in order that they all, both grandbabies and the prodigals, may come to know Christ, the Lord.. Thank you Lord for the assurance of knowing You knew and You are there watching over these I love so much. Thank you Lord for Your love.

Prayer: Lord, do whatever it take to bring our prodigals home to You. Thank you for loving them more than we do.Therefore, we know we can thrust You to take care of them for You have plans for them, plans not to harm them, but to prosper them. You have plans for them a hope and a future. We know You are in control and we trust You. Amen.

Our church is forming a Saturday morning prayer meeting for the lost. I’m going to pray for my prodigals. We’re going to pray for all our prodigals. There is not one family that hasn’t experienced a touch of heartache in one form or another. Therefore we are joining together to bombard heaven in behalf of our prodigals and all the prodigals of our city.

If you have a prodigal you love, form a group with others who are concerned and heartbroken over their prodigals and bombard heaven. God hears our prayers and He is in control. We can trust Him. You will fight strength in praying with others. Pray until your mountains move.

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“For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them.”  Matthew 18:20 

So Jesus answered and said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ it will be done.”  Matthew 21:21
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**The short devotional, “Holy 30” (See picture of Day 19 & Day 20) is based on I Peter 1:16. First Baptist of Tillman’s Corner published this devotional. I didn’t write any of it, but I do have permission to share it with you.

If you would like some additional information about our church check out this website:    http://www.fbtc.org/ . You can also listen to some sermons from our pastors. Enjoy them, I do.

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Rejected by Friends

Lord, I feel so rejected by my friends. What do You want from me?

Your love.  IMG_9670

Lord, I do love You. Thank You for loving me, but I feel so unlovable now. After all I just didn’t measure up to their standards and  I can’t be what they think I should be. To change myself so I fit in their status mold, not mine, makes me feel so uneasy. After all, their mold doesn’t fit me. For instance, it feels like a tight squeezing shoe or a sock that falls down all day. I just didn’t fit in their group, but the rejection hurts.

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I Had A Dream of the Number 8747? What?

Lord, last week I had a dream in which I saw the number 8747.IMG_1426 What can this mean? When I googled it, “The Dictionary of Bible Themes” revealed this number represents false gods. What? Did You send this dream to warn me of danger when I use food for comfort or when I use a credit card to supply what we have need of? Are credit cards false providers, thereby false gods who entrap?

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God Sees You Beautiful-He’s In Love With You.

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To God, you are more beautiful that a morning sunrise.
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To God, you are more beautiful than a rose.

(God sees you, Beautiful. He’s madly in love with you. How can I convince you?)

Lord, You see her beauty, both inside and out. But she feels so ugly and unworthy. How can I help her see the truth?  She’s lost all hope. How do I let her know You are her hope? You’re the One who loves her more than she’ll ever know. Continue reading God Sees You Beautiful-He’s In Love With You.

Yes Sir, You’re in Control

IMG_0364My child, you worry too much. Don’t you yet know I’m in control of all things? Give Me your heart and your mind, allow Me to guide you and lead you. Seek My influence for I will never lead you wrong. I will always lead you correctly. No worries for I’ll even correct your errors. I’ll open doors you know not of. cropped-img_9103.jpg Continue reading Yes Sir, You’re in Control

Hearing From God (Not Just My Weight Loss Counselor)

(This post is not about weight loss or counseling, but due to a request from a dear blog friend. She writes about life from the other side of the world and keeps her identity hidden. But you can check out her blog:               https://susieshy45.wordpress.com

Lord, my friend asks, “How do you hear from God?” What do I tell her?

Tell  her to listen for My quiet voice of love spoken deep within her heart. Listen for My words calling her name. Tell her to answer, “Lord, here I am,” and I will speak to her heart. I am calling her now. Tell her I never yell or scream. Tell her to listen for the still quiet voice. Tell her that I love her more than she’ll ever know. Continue reading Hearing From God (Not Just My Weight Loss Counselor)

I AM.

Lord, there’s so much work to do. I have several blog posts started, but not finished. Ideas are swirling around in my head. Write this, write that. That’s a good idea. No wait, this is a better idea. Which one should I write first?

My wonderful blog friends have sent me several awards I need to answer. I so enjoy their praise and I do like being noticed.  Everyone likes a pat on the back. They are wonderful with their words of praise to me. I do enjoy reading about their lives, both their struggles and their victories. I ‘m attached to several of my blog buddies.

But Lord, I feel overwhelmed and I don’t know where to begin. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know where to start. What do I tell them?

Continue reading I AM.

Chocolate

IMG_4220Lord, I told Hubby not to buy Valentines candy until after Valentines when it’s half- price. He bought a lot and now I’ve overindulged. I stayed within the confines of eating only a half serving and only at meal time. I did only eat half, but it was half of that, half of this, and half of another chocolate.

IMG_4218Lord, both You and I know that it was just too much. After all we have been through. I still ran to the chocolate for pleasure. Please forgive me and help me to resist this temptation.

I remind myself of the child placed in a circle for time out. Her Mom told her, “Stay in the circle.”  Later that child had all her body out of the circle except for one foot so she could still technically say she was in the circle.

I followed Your instructions of half servings and only at mealtime, but it was still too much. I had four or five half chocolates. Too many half servings makes too much.

IMG_2415My child, sin is crouching at your door waiting to steal your victory. You choose whether to embrace it or refuse it. Pleasure from self-indulgence is short. Pleasure spent with Me is eternity. Which do you choose?

I want to choose You, but this chocolate is so enticing.

You’ll find that My will brings true pleasure. Come to Me for I will direct your path. Victory and many blessings will come forth. I’m here for you. Never doubt my love, even as you look at your failures. Look to Me for I am your joy, your strength, and your deliverer. Only through Me is true joy found. Only I can set you free.

I have not said you’d never face temptation for it is the temptation that causes you to seek Me. Even your failures cause you to seek Me. I’m here for you. Only I can guarantee your victory for its sealed with My blood.

I realize this is a trigger food for me. Even though I can have it according to the plan You gave me, it’s causing stress between us because my heart longs for it. Lord, I want my heart to long for You, not chocolate.

My child,  fasting from something is not so for pride in your “holy sacrifice”.  No, it’s to grant you strength over temptation. Yes, I do want to be the love and wish of your heart more than the desire for chocolate.

Your salvation and freedom is not found in works, so your sacrifice does not bring salvation. Self denial does help you gain strength, wisdom, and power over your temptation. I want My children  strong and victorious, not defeated. I’ve come to bring you victory, even victory over chocolate.

Your enemy is not the chocolate. Your enemy is the stronghold of chocolate. I’ve come to set you free.

Oh Lord, circumcise my heart. Cut away all that is not pleasing to You. Grant me to an obedient heart. Open the eyes of my heart.

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— And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Galatians 5:24

Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage. Galatians 5:1

And the Lord will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live. Deuteronomy 30:8

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Lord, thank you for the coffee cup hubby brought for me. It was half price too. You know how I love half-price.

IMG_4314Lord, if I could I’d give You hugs and kisses.

Love others, My child, love others.

SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

IMG_2624(Editor’s note: This is a  story I wrote for a writing contest. In the contest I could only use 250 words, but here I can write as I feel led by God. I pray it ministers to you, it did to me.

I’m not the girl in the story, but the emotions were mine.  My highest weight was 241 pounds, not 300. The words God spoke to her were the same words He spoke to me when I cried out in desperation.

This story begins in fiction and ends with truth. As they say in the movies, “This is a fiction story based on some facts of truth.”) Continue reading SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME