Rejected by Friends

Lord, I feel so rejected by my friends. What do You want from me?

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Lord, I do love You. Thank You for loving me, but I feel so unlovable now. After all I just didn’t measure up to their standards and  I can’t be what they think I should be. To change myself so I fit in their status mold, not mine, makes me feel so uneasy. After all, their mold doesn’t fit me. For instance, it feels like a tight squeezing shoe or a sock that falls down all day. I just didn’t fit in their group, but the rejection hurts.

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I Had A Dream of the Number 8747? What?

Lord, last week I had a dream in which I saw the number 8747.IMG_1426 What can this mean? When I googled it, “The Dictionary of Bible Themes” revealed this number represents false gods. What? Did You send this dream to warn me of danger when I use food for comfort or when I use a credit card to supply what we have need of? Are credit cards false providers, thereby false gods who entrap?

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God Sees You Beautiful-He’s In Love With You.

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To God, you are more beautiful that a morning sunrise.
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To God, you are more beautiful than a rose.

(God sees you, Beautiful. He’s madly in love with you. How can I convince you?)

Lord, You see her beauty, both inside and out. But she feels so ugly and unworthy. How can I help her see the truth?  She’s lost all hope. How do I let her know You are her hope? You’re the One who loves her more than she’ll ever know. Continue reading God Sees You Beautiful-He’s In Love With You.

Yes Sir, You’re in Control

IMG_0364My child, you worry too much. Don’t you yet know I’m in control of all things? Give Me your heart and your mind, allow Me to guide you and lead you. Seek My influence for I will never lead you wrong. I will always lead you correctly. No worries for I’ll even correct your errors. I’ll open doors you know not of. cropped-img_9103.jpg Continue reading Yes Sir, You’re in Control

Hearing From God (Not Just My Weight Loss Counselor)

(This post is not about weight loss or counseling, but due to a request from a dear blog friend. She writes about life from the other side of the world and keeps her identity hidden. But you can check out her blog:               https://susieshy45.wordpress.com

Lord, my friend asks, “How do you hear from God?” What do I tell her?

Tell  her to listen for My quiet voice of love spoken deep within her heart. Listen for My words calling her name. Tell her to answer, “Lord, here I am,” and I will speak to her heart. I am calling her now. Tell her I never yell or scream. Tell her to listen for the still quiet voice. Tell her that I love her more than she’ll ever know. Continue reading Hearing From God (Not Just My Weight Loss Counselor)

I AM.

Lord, there’s so much work to do. I have several blog posts started, but not finished. Ideas are swirling around in my head. Write this, write that. That’s a good idea. No wait, this is a better idea. Which one should I write first?

My wonderful blog friends have sent me several awards I need to answer. I so enjoy their praise and I do like being noticed.  Everyone likes a pat on the back. They are wonderful with their words of praise to me. I do enjoy reading about their lives, both their struggles and their victories. I ‘m attached to several of my blog buddies.

But Lord, I feel overwhelmed and I don’t know where to begin. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know where to start. What do I tell them?

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Chocolate

IMG_4220Lord, I told Hubby not to buy Valentines candy until after Valentines when it’s half- price. He bought a lot and now I’ve overindulged. I stayed within the confines of eating only a half serving and only at meal time. I did only eat half, but it was half of that, half of this, and half of another chocolate.

IMG_4218Lord, both You and I know that it was just too much. After all we have been through. I still ran to the chocolate for pleasure. Please forgive me and help me to resist this temptation.

I remind myself of the child placed in a circle for time out. Her Mom told her, “Stay in the circle.”  Later that child had all her body out of the circle except for one foot so she could still technically say she was in the circle.

I followed Your instructions of half servings and only at mealtime, but it was still too much. I had four or five half chocolates. Too many half servings makes too much.

IMG_2415My child, sin is crouching at your door waiting to steal your victory. You choose whether to embrace it or refuse it. Pleasure from self-indulgence is short. Pleasure spent with Me is eternity. Which do you choose?

I want to choose You, but this chocolate is so enticing.

You’ll find that My will brings true pleasure. Come to Me for I will direct your path. Victory and many blessings will come forth. I’m here for you. Never doubt my love, even as you look at your failures. Look to Me for I am your joy, your strength, and your deliverer. Only through Me is true joy found. Only I can set you free.

I have not said you’d never face temptation for it is the temptation that causes you to seek Me. Even your failures cause you to seek Me. I’m here for you. Only I can guarantee your victory for its sealed with My blood.

I realize this is a trigger food for me. Even though I can have it according to the plan You gave me, it’s causing stress between us because my heart longs for it. Lord, I want my heart to long for You, not chocolate.

My child,  fasting from something is not so for pride in your “holy sacrifice”.  No, it’s to grant you strength over temptation. Yes, I do want to be the love and wish of your heart more than the desire for chocolate.

Your salvation and freedom is not found in works, so your sacrifice does not bring salvation. Self denial does help you gain strength, wisdom, and power over your temptation. I want My children  strong and victorious, not defeated. I’ve come to bring you victory, even victory over chocolate.

Your enemy is not the chocolate. Your enemy is the stronghold of chocolate. I’ve come to set you free.

Oh Lord, circumcise my heart. Cut away all that is not pleasing to You. Grant me to an obedient heart. Open the eyes of my heart.

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— And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Galatians 5:24

Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage. Galatians 5:1

And the Lord will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live. Deuteronomy 30:8

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Lord, thank you for the coffee cup hubby brought for me. It was half price too. You know how I love half-price.

IMG_4314Lord, if I could I’d give You hugs and kisses.

Love others, My child, love others.

SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

IMG_2624(Editor’s note: This is a  story I wrote for a writing contest. In the contest I could only use 250 words, but here I can write as I feel led by God. I pray it ministers to you, it did to me.

I’m not the girl in the story, but the emotions were mine.  My highest weight was 241 pounds, not 300. The words God spoke to her were the same words He spoke to me when I cried out in desperation.

This story begins in fiction and ends with truth. As they say in the movies, “This is a fiction story based on some facts of truth.”) Continue reading SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

UNDESERVED LOVE!

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     Quote from JESUS 90 DAYS WITH THE ONE AND ONLY by Beth Moore :

“A romance with Christ differs so dramatically from a romance between mortals. I do not wish any other woman to love my husband, Keith, the way I do. How differently my romance with Christ! I want all of you to love Him…. at least as much as I do. I’m jealous for us to want Him more than we want blessings, health, or even breath. I want to know Him so well that my undivided heart can explain, “Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You” (Ps.63:3). Better than life! God invites mortal creatures – you and me – into a love relationship with the Son of glory. That, my friend, is the meaning of life. Let’s partake. Fully. Completely.  ”      Continue reading UNDESERVED LOVE!

CHOOSE THE GIFT

     (My child, I long for My children to love Me. I give and give with blessings to all of them. Yet they don’t even stop to acknowledge that these blessings come from Me. But they do stop to blame Me when things go wrong in their lives. They even use My name in vain. They say, “Oh God!” when things go wrong for them. This is not a prayer but instead they use My name as an expletive.

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