Lord, I need a new heart. First, I want to thank you for Your peace. But I think I really need a new heart. Would You guide me, direct me, and lead me to Your will? I praise up to You for who You are, the God of all. Would You guide my mouth and my thoughts so they honor You? I want Your will in all things. Please take all thoughts out of my heart if they’re not pleasing to You. Lord, You know Your will and that’s what I want.
Child, I am teaching you throughout all this you call life. I am teaching you.
Lord, please forgive me for being selfish. I know it’s selfish, but I do want my size 10″s back. I know I backslid into binge eating, but is it possible? Would You allow me to return back to where I was? I know You’re a God of mercy and forgiveness. And I know that I willingly went into the gluttony/binge eating with the way I loved food. Also I have to admit and confess that I still love food. The only hope for me is if You take this desire away from my heart. Help me to desire You more than my necessary food.
There are so many suffering from such hardships, struggles, even persecutions, and yet, I’m asking forgiveness for my own selfishness. Also I ask for Your help within my eating and to lose this extra weight.
I do want to stay in Your will. It was my greed and selfishness that caused me to overeat to begin with. You delivered me of the excess weight of 90 pounds. Yet, I returned to my binge eating after walking in this deliverance for almost two years.
Lord, can I go back to where I once was? I guess my priorities are still wrong because I’m more focused on my size 10’s instead of my relationship with You. Help me to focus more on You and Your will for each of my days. Change me and make me into what You want me to be, whether it’s the size I am now or back to what I once was.
All I know now Lord, is just make me into what You want me to be, size 10 or not. I give myself to You, do with me what You want. I surrender.
Child, others can lose weight with head knowledge. But you, . . . I demand your heart. It’s time for more surgery, another heart circumcision. I’m going to cut this love of food from your heart. From now on, food will not control you. I’m cutting out this misplace love of food and putting in more love both for Me and for others.
Thank you Lord.