Chocolate

IMG_4220Lord, I told Hubby not to buy Valentines candy until after Valentines when it’s half- price. He bought a lot and now I’ve overindulged. I stayed within the confines of eating only a half serving and only at meal time. I did only eat half, but it was half of that, half of this, and half of another chocolate.

IMG_4218Lord, both You and I know that it was just too much. After all we have been through. I still ran to the chocolate for pleasure. Please forgive me and help me to resist this temptation.

I remind myself of the child placed in a circle for time out. Her Mom told her, “Stay in the circle.”  Later that child had all her body out of the circle except for one foot so she could still technically say she was in the circle.

I followed Your instructions of half servings and only at mealtime, but it was still too much. I had four or five half chocolates. Too many half servings makes too much.

IMG_2415My child, sin is crouching at your door waiting to steal your victory. You choose whether to embrace it or refuse it. Pleasure from self-indulgence is short. Pleasure spent with Me is eternity. Which do you choose?

I want to choose You, but this chocolate is so enticing.

You’ll find that My will brings true pleasure. Come to Me for I will direct your path. Victory and many blessings will come forth. I’m here for you. Never doubt my love, even as you look at your failures. Look to Me for I am your joy, your strength, and your deliverer. Only through Me is true joy found. Only I can set you free.

I have not said you’d never face temptation for it is the temptation that causes you to seek Me. Even your failures cause you to seek Me. I’m here for you. Only I can guarantee your victory for its sealed with My blood.

I realize this is a trigger food for me. Even though I can have it according to the plan You gave me, it’s causing stress between us because my heart longs for it. Lord, I want my heart to long for You, not chocolate.

My child,  fasting from something is not so for pride in your “holy sacrifice”.  No, it’s to grant you strength over temptation. Yes, I do want to be the love and wish of your heart more than the desire for chocolate.

Your salvation and freedom is not found in works, so your sacrifice does not bring salvation. Self denial does help you gain strength, wisdom, and power over your temptation. I want My children  strong and victorious, not defeated. I’ve come to bring you victory, even victory over chocolate.

Your enemy is not the chocolate. Your enemy is the stronghold of chocolate. I’ve come to set you free.

Oh Lord, circumcise my heart. Cut away all that is not pleasing to You. Grant me to an obedient heart. Open the eyes of my heart.

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— And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. Galatians 5:24

Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage. Galatians 5:1

And the Lord will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live. Deuteronomy 30:8

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Lord, thank you for the coffee cup hubby brought for me. It was half price too. You know how I love half-price.

IMG_4314Lord, if I could I’d give You hugs and kisses.

Love others, My child, love others.

SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

IMG_2624(Editor’s note: This is a  story I wrote for a writing contest. In the contest I could only use 250 words, but here I can write as I feel led by God. I pray it ministers to you, it did to me.

I’m not the girl in the story, but the emotions were mine.  My highest weight was 241 pounds, not 300. The words God spoke to her were the same words He spoke to me when I cried out in desperation.

This story begins in fiction and ends with truth. As they say in the movies, “This is a fiction story based on some facts of truth.”) Continue reading SUCH A PRETTY FACE, WHAT A SHAME

HALLOWEEN CANDY and VICTORY

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IMG_3241Lord, I praise you for all these clothes that are now too big for me, 41 pieces total. Wow!  Now I have the joy of giving them away or trading them for new ones at the consignment shop. I do enjoy shopping for new clothes. You give me all that I need and for  a price I can afford too.  Thank you. Continue reading HALLOWEEN CANDY and VICTORY