I AM.

Lord, there’s so much work to do. I have several blog posts started, but not finished. Ideas are swirling around in my head. Write this, write that. That’s a good idea. No wait, this is a better idea. Which one should I write first?

My wonderful blog friends have sent me several awards I need to answer. I so enjoy their praise and I do like being noticed.  Everyone likes a pat on the back. They are wonderful with their words of praise to me. I do enjoy reading about their lives, both their struggles and their victories. I ‘m attached to several of my blog buddies.

But Lord, I feel overwhelmed and I don’t know where to begin. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know where to start. What do I tell them?

Continue reading I AM.

ARE WE THERE YET?

Being confident of this very thing. that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 NKJV

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Lord, are we there yet? I need to know. Where do I stop or do I keep going?

Now that I’ve arrived back home after a two month absence all my friends are expressing shock and amazement over how much weight I’ve lost. What’s odd is that I have only lost weight since returning home. (3-5 pounds depending on amount of water and dessert.)

IMG_5807 I’m still hurting from those store scales that lied to me while I was in Texas.  I thought I had lost a total of 91 pounds because of those scales, but it was only 84. Now I feel disappointed because it’s wasn’t 91 pounds. Do I stop at 84 and focus on maintaining, or do I try for a total loss of 91 pounds?

My child, your mistake was trusting in those scales instead of looking to Me as your source.  You’re still learning. It was a hard lesson, but you’re improving already. I’m not finished with you yet. I’m still working on My masterpiece.

IMG_5475 Lord, everyone is telling me how great I look and how proud they are of me. One person even accused me of being anorexic. We all know that’s not true. I love my desserts too much. I do confess and ask forgiveness for my past prayers asking  to become anorexic. At that time I thought it was an easy answer.

Since then I’ve befriended an anorexic and she is suffering so. Lord, would You help her. You said You were no respecter of persons and that You show no partiality. You’ve helped me lose weight, now I’m asking You to help her gain weight. Answer her prayers and heal her body and soul. Place within her a desire to eat wholesome and remove from me the desire to eat unwholesome.

I know who she is and her friendship with you is one of My answers.

Thank you.  Lord, the doctor told me not to lose anymore. Then she said, “Well, maybe 5 pounds. But no more.” Lord, do You realize if I lost 7 more pounds that would make it 91 total? What do You think?

My child, it would take more sacrifice on your part to achieve this goal. You’ll have to let go of some of those desserts you love. I saw what you ate tonight at supper. That wasn’t what someone who wants to lose weight would eat. Are you willing to let go of your desserts?

Lord. I don’t know. I do want my cake and to eat it too.

Then only you can decide. What do you want, desserts or seven-pound weight loss? I gave you free will to teach you how to make good strong decisions. I want you to choose wisdom.  So you decide, it doesn’t matter to Me the number on your scales. What I treasure is a yielded heart.

Lord, I want an easy quick weight loss with desserts. Why is it so hard? Why can’t I have my cake and eat it too?

My child, one of the fruits of the Spirit is self-control. This you have need of. It will make you stronger.

Lord, what if I don’t want more self-control? What if I want more cake?

Then you will have what you desire, more cake. My child, you decide. I never force anyone to choose. I let you choose.

Lord, why isn’t it easy? I want easy.

My child, the cross was not easy. But I gave so that others could live. What will you do?

Lord, I can’t do this. You know how much I love desserts. Would You help me? Change my heart so that I lose my desire for desserts. Lord, I’m so messed up with these misplaced desires. Please change my desires so that I can become what You created me for.  Would You save me from myself?

IMG_2030My child, I have come to give you a new life full of joy and peace. Of course I’ll save you from your selfish self. Of course, I’ll set you free from your self-imposed traps of bondage. My child, I love you.

Lord, I love You too. Please help me.

My child, I have already provided all that you have need of. Come to Me so that I may fill you with Myself, a sweetness you have yet to taste, the fullness of My Holy Spirit. Come. let Me fill your heart.

Lord, here I am. I give myself to You. do with me as You wish for I am Yours.

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 Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. Hebrews 12:1 NKJV 

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. John 14:26 NKJV

For the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17

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Won 3rd place in Fifties Costume Contest. They said I looked like Mrs. Betty Crocker. The prize was a bag full of candy. Like I needed more sweets. Oh my.