Lord, last night I ate everything, everything I could find! You know this, You saw it all! I hate my failures! It seems like they are always there staring at me! “Not good enough, don’t measure up, no self-control! Failure, failure!” I hear all the taunts of self-accusation! Lord, I am just a “major failure” defeated by a wimpy sin! Where do I go from here? Is there any hope for me? Will I ever get victory? Oh Lord, why do You reach out to me in love and hope at all? I just know I am a disappointment to You! Continue reading
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[Written on December 30, 2013]
Lord, here I am again! Help me Lord! I went on a binge again last night! First, it started with the taco chips at the Mexican restaurant and then I ate all the taco salad including all the crispy shell. Then when I got home I proceeded to the cake, candy, ice cream, and even more snack cakes! Lord, I know better, I can’t believe I have done it again! I had almost made it a whole month without bingeing, I had almost earned a month-long “Recovery chip”. Oh my Lord, why did I do this again? I have lost 37 pounds, but if I keep this up I will just blow back up like a balloon in only one month! Oh why, why did I do this again? Continue reading
Good Morning Lord! Will You give me another chance?
(My child, I am the God of second chances!)
Lord, I don’t even know where to start!
(Start with Me, My child!)
Okay Lord, what is first? Continue reading
— I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Psalm 32:8 NKJV
Thank you Lord for this assurance. I don’t have to worry anymore, I just have to look to You to tell me what and how to do. Thank you for taking the burden of responsibility off me. I know that You know “ALL”, therefore I can trust You to guide me. Oh, what peace in surrender to You, My Lord! Continue reading
Lord Jesus, forgive me. I broke down last night. It really started yesterday morning when I was more interested in the news than my “sweet time” with You. Then last night I really broke when I started eating all the sweets. There are several sweets in this house due to others here, and I just completely broke down. For two days now, I have struggled against the pull of this temptation , but last night all my resolve just collapsed! Continue reading
Lord, can you tell me why I lose three pounds when I go the entire week waiting until the appointed time to weigh and then I stay the same weight on the week that I weigh myself throughout the week? Continue reading
Lord, HELP! HELP! HELP! I feel so guilty for whining about this, I wish I were stronger!
(You will be, My child! This is why you are in training now! Most new recruits cry in boot camp! You are in boot camp now, My child! This is your boot camp!) Continue reading
[ Written from the past. Praise God, He has delivered me from 27 pounds since May 23, 2013.]
Lord, did you see all those cookies I ate last night?
(Yes, I did.)
Lord, everyday I start eating correctly, then by bedtime I have eaten everything I can get my hands on! Sometimes I even get in the bed eating!
(I see.) Continue reading
Written on a Saturday morning after a party:
—-Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. . . . . . Romans 8:26 NKJV
Lord, do You still love me even when I sin? Last night, at a Sunday School party I really overate! I turned completely away from the “eating plan” that You directed me to! But Lord, I enjoyed every bite so much that I just threw caution away and ate until I became bloated! I binged on sweet pickles and cinnamon bread of all things, but Lord, they were so good! Lord, do You still love me even when I sin?
(Yes My child, I love you like no other! I died for you while you were still immersed in your sin, remember?)
Yes Lord, I remember. Help me to turn away from the weight of this sin that so easily besets me!
(My child, I see you as finished and complete, standing glorious before Me without spot or wrinkle.)
— I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for He has clothed me with garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, . . . Isaiah 61: 10 NKJV
—- There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. Romans 8:1-2 NKJV
(My child, I did not come to condemn you. I came to set you free, free indeed!)
— Therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. John 8:36 NKJV
(Rejoice in My love, My child, for I have come to set you free and you will be free indeed!)