Lord, I need a new heart. First, I want to thank you for Your peace. But I think I really need a new heart. Would You guide me, direct me, and lead me to Your will? I praise up to You for who You are, the God of all. Would You guide my mouth and my thoughts so they honor You? I want Your will in all things. Please take all thoughts out of my heart if they’re not pleasing to You. Lord, You know Your will and that’s what I want.
Child, I am teaching you throughout all this you call life. I am teaching you.
Lord, please forgive me for being selfish. I know it’s selfish, but I do want my size 10″s back. I know I backslid into binge eating, but is it possible? Would You allow me to return back to where I was? I know You’re a God of mercy and forgiveness. And I know that I willingly went into the gluttony/binge eating with the way I loved food. Also I have to admit and confess that I still love food. The only hope for me is if You take this desire away from my heart. Help me to desire You more than my necessary food.
There are so many suffering from such hardships, struggles, even persecutions, and yet, I’m asking forgiveness for my own selfishness. Also I ask for Your help within my eating and to lose this extra weight.
I do want to stay in Your will. It was my greed and selfishness that caused me to overeat to begin with. You delivered me of the excess weight of 90 pounds. Yet, I returned to my binge eating after walking in this deliverance for almost two years.
Lord, can I go back to where I once was? I guess my priorities are still wrong because I’m more focused on my size 10’s instead of my relationship with You. Help me to focus more on You and Your will for each of my days. Change me and make me into what You want me to be, whether it’s the size I am now or back to what I once was.
All I know now Lord, is just make me into what You want me to be, size 10 or not. I give myself to You, do with me what You want. I surrender.
Child, others can lose weight with head knowledge. But you, . . . I demand your heart. It’s time for more surgery, another heart circumcision. I’m going to cut this love of food from your heart. From now on, food will not control you. I’m cutting out this misplace love of food and putting in more love both for Me and for others.
Thank you Lord.
I have set the Lord always before me; Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8NKJV
Lord, I’ve backslidden and gained some weight. I may as well be honest with You and everyone else.. . . . I’ve fell off the wagon. . . .Could You have mercy on me? (At this time I’ve gained approx. 30 lbs. throughout 2017, but lost 4 lbs. this week. Thank you Jesus.)
How did this happen? When did it happen? I remember last February on our trip to Israel, I wore size 10 jeans with tights under them due to the cold. Now I can’t get into those size 10 pants. And all my skirts are way too tight. Lord, . . . what happened? When did this happen? How could I do this? I’m so ashamed.
Let’s see. . . as I look back over last years’s datebook I see I had gained 10 pounds by last April, then another 10 by July, and then another 10 by October. In my datebook I kept documentation of my weight as it slowly went up and down, but mostly up. How could I go backwards? I’ve lost my testimony of Your delivering power.
I can just hear Satan snickering now as he asks You, “Have You noticed Your servant, Deborah? Getting a little plump around the middle, don’t You think?” Then he laughs in Your face. . . Lord, . . . (hanging my head in shame) please forgive me for embarrassing You.
Help me find my way back to victory again. Is it possible? Or have I gone too far backwards? Lord, I don’t want to weigh over 240 again. And for another thing, I want my beautiful size 10 clothes back. Is there any hope for me?
Child, you didn’t fall off a wagon. No, you fell out of My will. You chose your will for instant gratification, not Mine. Yes, I will forgive you I will help you. But you will choose how long this process takes. It depends on your willingness to trust Me and follow My directions. My child, all things are possible.
Between last Saturday and today, Monday, I’ve gained 5 pounds. How did this happen? I had made such good progress. It took all week to lose that 5 pounds and now I’ve gained it back in two days. Two days?
My father-in-law (97 yrs.) passed away last week and his funeral was last Saturday. Here in the South, we feed the grieving. Lord, even though I ate a little dessert, I thought I ate in submission to Your instructions at the funeral meal. I know I said I was going to give up desserts until I got back into my size 10 pants, but it was just a bite of cake and a half cookie.
Then on the same day, Saturday evening, my sister’s grandchild got married. A wedding and a funeral on the same day. I’m so tired. Can I do this? It was a beautiful wedding. But while there, I ate the appetizers, including the chocolate covered strawberries. By then I had lost control and went back for more. Thank you Lord, there were none left. Why didn’t I just drink coffee or lemonade without eating? Those appetizers were my third meal of the day.
Then after we returned home, one of the church members brought by some homemade taco soup. More “feed the grieving”. Thank you Lord, I’m so tired and there is no way I could cook supper. It was so good, I wanted more, but ate chocolate sugar free popsicles instead. But then before bed, I was eating the cold taco soup with a spoon right out of the refrigerator followed by chunks of sweet rolls too. Backslidden into gluttony.
Lord, will I ever be free of this compulsion to overeat?
Yes child, you will. You broke free once before and you will again. With My power you can achieve anything. You can defeat your enemies. You can overcome. Your victory is assured, for I have won the victory over all.
Lord, why do I do this? How can I destroy this compulsive pattern of compulsive overeating?
Child, I have already destroyed it.
Then why am I so easily defeated? Lord, I’ve backslidden into gluttony. Why?
Because you haven’t accepted My victory. You expect to fail. You have given the food power by your expectation of defeat. Now expect victory. Praise Me for your victory, for I am your victory. Sing “Victory in Jesus”.
Child, you will succeed again. It will not be through your work, but it will be through My already won victory.
Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy, the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith. I Peter 5: 8-9
With God, everything is possible. Matthew 19:26
You are truly My disciples if you live as I tell you to, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. John 8:31-32
Remember, I did not write these devotionals, but this sounds like me.
**The short devotional, “Holy 30” (See picture of Day 25 & Day 26) is based on I Peter 1:16. First Baptist of Tillman’s Corner published this devotional. I didn’t write any of it, but I do have permission to share it with you.
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