Don’t Be Double-Minded

Lord, I don’t want to be double-minded. So help me focus on You, and Your will. Lead to those people You want me to help.

Not double-minded, but victory minded.

Not doubled-minded, but victory minded instead.

If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. James 1:6-8

Most days I’m back and forth, full of self-doubt and self-questioning. This sounds double-minded, doesn’t it? Am I doing the right thing? Or am I just messing up again?

Lord, I prayed much over this program You gave us. Freddie is now free and being healed through this. And I praise You for it. Thank you.

After watching him, I decided to go for it myself. I watched as he ate his program food and it looked good to me. I tried eating my so-called diet food while he ate his. His looked so good, like candy bars. Some of his program food was crunchy and it looked like regular snack food.

One day, while he was driving on our trip, I unwrapped and handed him one of his snack bars. Some of the icing from his bar got on my fingers. White chocolate? What?

And I was by his side eating celery and a boiled egg (FYI: Don’t binge eat celery because it’ll tear your stomach up. You will suffer. This I know because I did it, and on a road trip too.)

Lord, now I’m losing weight again too. And for this, I thank You. But what I enjoy most is watching Fred celebrate his success. You’re healing him of Type2 Diabetes through this program. My prayers are being answered. And I praise You for it.

Not double-minded, but victory minded instead.
Not double-minded, victory minded instead. After losing 40 pounds, his shirt is too big.

Now Lord, I know there are others out there who are also praying for healing just like I was. People need deliverance from food addiction, defeat and the shame of being labeled obese. Help me help them.

Lord, food addiction causes self hatred. That was me. Even after You delivered me miraculously from 91 pounds in 2013, I went back to the feeding trough for food pleasure. Then I lost my miracle and regained 40 pounds.

I felt like Gomer, the wife of Hosea, who went back to her old ways. I was ashamed and embarrassed at my 40 pound weight gain. But You Lord- You—You showed me mercy again. Through Fred’s deliverance, You opened another door for me to find freedom again.

Now both Fred and I are miracles. Due to his weight loss, Fred no longer has to give himself daily shots. He’s now making healthy choices about his food instead of just mindless eating.

And next, You Lord, are setting me free again from the bondage of food addiction and obesity. Yes, addiction to food is like having a pet tiger you have to take out of it’s cage and feed it at least 3 times a day. Sometimes more.

At times, the food addiction escapes out of your control and attacks you with a vengeance leaving you feeling self-defeated and worthless just because you couldn’t say no to a candy bar, ice cream, etc.

But now Lord You’ve given me tools to defeat this enemy of food addiction. And I still get to have sweets, my program food bars. These are good for my health and self-image too. Thank you Lord for this miracle You gave to both of us.

Help me to serve and honor You throughout all my life. And help me to help others find their freedom too. Lead me and direct all my steps, ways, and even my words. so I can bring You honor and others freedom.

Lord, I want to praise You and honor You all my life. I give myself to you. You have blessed us and I praise You for our victory.

Feed On This

I will instruct and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye. Psalms 32:8

Whatever is good and perfect is a gift coming down to us from God, our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow. James 1:17 NLT