My husband and I went to a chinese buffet for lunch. Inwardly, I was filled with dread for I have been known to eat at least three plates of food at buffets and I am doing really well on this food plan for now. As I walked in the restaurant, I prayed, “Oh Lord, please help me resist! Please don’t let me be gluttonous today! I don’t want to mess up the success that I have now! God, are you there?” Continue reading THE FORTUNE
Lord, when I think about all the times that I stood before a cake, cookies, candy,or ice cream, shaking in my weakness, finally succumbing to give into my desires, I now realize that I gave those sweets power over me. Lord, could it be not the eating of those sweets but rather the surrendering myself to these overwhelming desires and therefore giving the sweets power over me that is the sin? Is this the actually of the sin, not the eating of said item but surrendering myself to the power of the temptation? Is that how it becomes an idol in my life? Because I gave it power over me? Continue reading LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY
Lord, I need assurance of Your love. How can you still love me? Yesterday I was determined to start over again, but last night I was in my kitchen eating the leftover roast right out of the pot at 10:30pm. Now this morning I feel sick, bloated, just awful. Lord, I want to be right, do right, and feel good. I can never earn Your love.What am I to do?
My Confession in 2013.
Here I am again Lord, all bloated, full, miserable, and ashamed, wondering, “How did I get here?” I sense that my overeating has created a gulf between me and You. I feel that as I overfed my fleshly desires, your presence left. Didn’t I say yesterday that I wanted to be free of this bondage? Then last night, I was in the kitchen stuffing my face until well after 10p.m. Lord, how can I ever break free from this vicious cycle of defeat? Continue reading CONFESSION
For many years I have written my prayers to maintain both my focus and as a release from my stresses. These prayers are written in the form of dialogs with God. I would write my concerns, questions, and then write the answers just as they came into my heart.