New Hope, New Life

Lord, can I start over with You?

(Sensed God smiling.)

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Weighed myself. Ugh. Looked for my phone charger, plugged it in, fixed a cup of coffee,  and updated the Apps on my cell. . . Uh. . .

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Eau de Butter Cream Parfum 

(True story.)  When she walked into the room the fragrance of sweetness followed her. As she stood still, the aroma settled over her. Everyone could smell the sweetness that surrounded her. I leaned back to breathe in the sweetness. Hmmm.

I whispered to my sister-in-law, “What’s that fragrance she’s wearing? I love it. I want some for myself.”  Continue reading Eau de Butter Cream Parfum 

Oil of Gilead (Fat-free, Calorie-free and Sweet)

 

IMG_0441Lord, where are You?

I’m here, waiting for you.

I’m so confused. I don’t know what to do, think, or what to say. What’s wrong with me? Continue reading Oil of Gilead (Fat-free, Calorie-free and Sweet)

Almost 200 pounds gone! (From My House)

  IMG_5654 Lord, I want to scream! Hubby’s fussing, “Get this house clean. Get this clutter out. I want my house free of clutter. Look at this mess. Your friend’s house isn’t cluttered like this.” Grrrrrrrr! Fighting words. Lord, help me not yell at him.

IMG_6197Give me patience. I don’t want lessons, I just want to get through this. Help me keep my mouth shut. (Uh-oh.) Lead me as to what is best and Your will.

Before when I was anxious or stressed at others, I ran to ice cream for comfort. I ran to anything sweet to sooth my feelings and kept my mouth shut. Now that I’m following Your plan for my eating, I have these emotions I don’t know how to handle. It seems I’m gritting my teeth daily just to get through the day. People that didn’t used to bother me now irritate me to no end. Lord, I need help. HELP! Today, it’s him, the one I love.

Listen to him, My child, for I have given him a spirit of wisdom that I didn’t give you. I gave you a heart-cry for others that I didn’t give him. I created both of you and put you two together to serve My purposes. Do not criticize what I created.IMG_6188

For God is not  of confusion but of peace, . . . I Corinthians 14:33 NKJV  

My child, you tend to get full of religious, spiritual pride. I also see selfishness and greed. That’s all clutter in your life. Let it all go. Come to Me. Let Me fill you with Myself.

Let go of these material things you can touch and see for I intend to fill you full of things you cannot touch and see. These are of greater value than these objects you see and touch. Let go My child of what you hold in your hand so that I can fill your hand with what I have for you. You can’t receive when your hand is closed. Let go,  for I have much to give you.

 There is too much clutter in all of your life. I want to empty you out so that I can fill you with Myself.

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Does this look like 200 pounds? The Home of Grace called for donations. They’ll pick it up. I cleaned out three closets and de-cluttered the house per Hubby’s request.

Yes Sir, I want all that You have for me. Help me to let go of what is not important to You. (And help Hubby too.)

And it will be said in that day: “Behold, this is our God; we have waited for Him, and He will save us. This is the Lord; we have waited for Him; we will be glad and rejoice in His salvation.”  Isaiah 25:9

Let all things be done in decently and in order.                  I Corinthians 14:40

Then the priests went into the inner part of the house of the Lord to cleanse it, and brought out all the debris that they found in the temple of the Lord to the court of the house of the Lord. . . .  2 Chronicles 29:16

Lord, I guess if Your priests had to clean house and bring out all the debris, then I shouldn’t complain. By the way Lord, did You know that we had out-of-town company  coming? Hubby was proud of my work and our house. Thank you Lord for helping me.

The now uncluttered kitchen table.
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The Guest bedroom, all clean and fresh. Totally uncluttered.
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The now uncluttered dining room.

 

Hubby cleaned off the patio where we have our morning coffee.
The now uncluttered family room. God gave me the rug. The name under the corner is “Victory”. How about that.
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The most peaceful spot in the house. This is where I meet with God for my counseling sessions. My grandchildren call this, “The Prayer Room”. Hubby calls it, “The Parlor.” But I have my exercise bike in there too.

 

ARE WE THERE YET?

Being confident of this very thing. that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 NKJV

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Lord, are we there yet? I need to know. Where do I stop or do I keep going?

Now that I’ve arrived back home after a two month absence all my friends are expressing shock and amazement over how much weight I’ve lost. What’s odd is that I have only lost weight since returning home. (3-5 pounds depending on amount of water and dessert.)

IMG_5807 I’m still hurting from those store scales that lied to me while I was in Texas.  I thought I had lost a total of 91 pounds because of those scales, but it was only 84. Now I feel disappointed because it’s wasn’t 91 pounds. Do I stop at 84 and focus on maintaining, or do I try for a total loss of 91 pounds?

My child, your mistake was trusting in those scales instead of looking to Me as your source.  You’re still learning. It was a hard lesson, but you’re improving already. I’m not finished with you yet. I’m still working on My masterpiece.

IMG_5475 Lord, everyone is telling me how great I look and how proud they are of me. One person even accused me of being anorexic. We all know that’s not true. I love my desserts too much. I do confess and ask forgiveness for my past prayers asking  to become anorexic. At that time I thought it was an easy answer.

Since then I’ve befriended an anorexic and she is suffering so. Lord, would You help her. You said You were no respecter of persons and that You show no partiality. You’ve helped me lose weight, now I’m asking You to help her gain weight. Answer her prayers and heal her body and soul. Place within her a desire to eat wholesome and remove from me the desire to eat unwholesome.

I know who she is and her friendship with you is one of My answers.

Thank you.  Lord, the doctor told me not to lose anymore. Then she said, “Well, maybe 5 pounds. But no more.” Lord, do You realize if I lost 7 more pounds that would make it 91 total? What do You think?

My child, it would take more sacrifice on your part to achieve this goal. You’ll have to let go of some of those desserts you love. I saw what you ate tonight at supper. That wasn’t what someone who wants to lose weight would eat. Are you willing to let go of your desserts?

Lord. I don’t know. I do want my cake and to eat it too.

Then only you can decide. What do you want, desserts or seven-pound weight loss? I gave you free will to teach you how to make good strong decisions. I want you to choose wisdom.  So you decide, it doesn’t matter to Me the number on your scales. What I treasure is a yielded heart.

Lord, I want an easy quick weight loss with desserts. Why is it so hard? Why can’t I have my cake and eat it too?

My child, one of the fruits of the Spirit is self-control. This you have need of. It will make you stronger.

Lord, what if I don’t want more self-control? What if I want more cake?

Then you will have what you desire, more cake. My child, you decide. I never force anyone to choose. I let you choose.

Lord, why isn’t it easy? I want easy.

My child, the cross was not easy. But I gave so that others could live. What will you do?

Lord, I can’t do this. You know how much I love desserts. Would You help me? Change my heart so that I lose my desire for desserts. Lord, I’m so messed up with these misplaced desires. Please change my desires so that I can become what You created me for.  Would You save me from myself?

IMG_2030My child, I have come to give you a new life full of joy and peace. Of course I’ll save you from your selfish self. Of course, I’ll set you free from your self-imposed traps of bondage. My child, I love you.

Lord, I love You too. Please help me.

My child, I have already provided all that you have need of. Come to Me so that I may fill you with Myself, a sweetness you have yet to taste, the fullness of My Holy Spirit. Come. let Me fill your heart.

Lord, here I am. I give myself to You. do with me as You wish for I am Yours.

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 Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us. Hebrews 12:1 NKJV 

But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. John 14:26 NKJV

For the kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17

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Won 3rd place in Fifties Costume Contest. They said I looked like Mrs. Betty Crocker. The prize was a bag full of candy. Like I needed more sweets. Oh my.

 

They Lied To Me!

Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” whenever you turn to the right hand or whenever you turn to the left. Isaiah 30:21 NKJV

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Lord, they lied to me and I repeated it. I thought it was the truth. Now what do I do? I’m disappointed, frustrated, confused, and embarrassed. I told everyone what they said and it was a lie. Continue reading They Lied To Me!

FIFTY WAYS TO LEAVE YOUR LOVER (FOOD)

Someone asked me to share my secrets for losing weight. So I’ve listed 50 dieting helps that I’ve used throughout this journey.  These have been posted before, but it’s helped me to review them again. Sometimes we just have to return to the basics again. Continue reading FIFTY WAYS TO LEAVE YOUR LOVER (FOOD)

RAIN OR TRUST, WHICH WILL IT BE?

IMG_5610Last Tuesday, I felt compelled to weigh myself. It didn’t matter about Tropical Storm Bob. It wasn’t raining now. I had time to walk to the grocery store where the scales were and return before the rain started. Hubby returned to work and I left before breakfast.

I needed to know how our hospital trip last week with his kidney stone (13mm) affected my weight. Yes, you heard right. He had the kidney stone, I’m worried about my weight. Not knowing if I lost or gained was driving me crazy. Continue reading RAIN OR TRUST, WHICH WILL IT BE?

HE DID IT. WOW!

Yes, He did it. All the credit belongs to Him. There’s no way I could have lost 91 pounds by myself. I needed help and intervention. I needed His power since I had none myself. IMG_0269

When I weighed 241, as Hubby left for work I went to the kitchen. He went to earn money, I went to eat whatever I could find.

Have you ever been consumed with an overpowering desire for anything sweet? Or junk food? Doesn’t really matter what, it’s the act of eating that brings pleasure.

Have you ever searched through the refrigerator, the freezer, or cabinets and found nothing because you got rid of all junk food  due to starting a new diet? So you settled for toasted bread, spread with butter, and pure sugar. Yep, that’s me. I’ve ate 6 slices and then made 6 more. Afterwards I’d waddle to bed to sleep off my  food drunk. Continue reading HE DID IT. WOW!

MY OVERINDULGENCE

IMG_5235Lord Jesus, I weighed the other night at a retail store. I should have known better. I’d already ate two meals of the day, drank four cups coffee, one bottle of water, and three huge glasses of tea. The scales said I’ve gained weight. What did I expect?

The point is I do know I’ve eaten too much. Even though I ‘ve followed the food plan You gave me,  (Eat only three meals a day with half portions, and no snacks) I must confess I ate too many halves of too many desserts.

Oh, how easily gluttony raises its ugly head. How quickly I run to it. Ooh, sweets, ooh, chocolate. Let’s see, I’ll have half of this and half of that, oh yes, I’ll have half of this, that, too. Oh yes, yum. I want it. Give it to me, now. IMG_5411

Lord, I looked at these desserts for pleasure and comfort. Didn’t even asked Your advice. I just went on automatic and turned on the green light. Go, go for it. You can have 1/2 of it all. I told myself, “You’re still doing right because you’re only eating half. You’re still obeying the rules. It’s ok. Oh, look at that, you haven’t had any of that. Go ahead, get some, just eat half. It’s okay to get it, if you just eat half. Oh, get you some girl.”

IMG_5249Lord, I knew I wasn’t losing because I felt full. Even when it was time for the next meal, I still felt full from the previous meal. So I thought, “Let’s exercise. Exercise is good. You’ll work this off.” So I rode the stationary bike 5 miles a day, 4/5 days. I walked two miles some days.

Wrong, it didn’t work that way. I still gained. Got caught with my hand in the cookie jar. So what do I do now? I don’t want to get caught up in counting calories, bondage to dieting, or even excessive exercising to work off my overindulgence.IMG_4029

Lord, I’ve failed again. I’m ashamed at my behavior at the feeding trough. I followed the rules You gave me, but I STILL OVERINDULGED.  I don’t think more rules are the answer. I ‘ve been so distracted by so many things. Instead of looking to You for guidance, my eyes were on the pantry and the desert bar.

Maybe I can fast my desserts. Yes, I’ve done that in the past and it helped, but I do so enjoy a little sweet at the end of my meal.

My child, just don’t eat so many. Two halves do make one whole. Four halves do make two wholes. That’s part of your issue, too many halves. Limit your desserts to just one, one half of one.

Yes Sir. (Hanging my head.)

My child, you have also eaten out Mexican food three times this week and Chinese buffet once. You know these areas are difficult for you, but they both offer salad and vegetables.  You do have options. In the past, it has taken your body a week to recover from one Mexican meal. Now choose a salad or a simple meal, and leave off most of the starchy foods. Even though another person is choosing the restaurant, you choose from the menu. Choose wisely and your body won’t react as much.

I do want you to enjoy your food, but I don’t want you to consider food as the source of your joy. Look to Me for your joy. Yes,  your eyes focused on your food pleasures, not on Me.

Feed on My Word and renew your mind. Feed your spirit and be strengthened. As your spirit grows stronger, the fleshly desires will decrease. If you are full of Me these strongholds and weights that so easily entraps you will leave. It is My Presence that gives you strength to resist temptation.

Now about that pity party you had last night over what that machine told you. Did it make sense for you to overeat at supper because you saw a weight gain? Yes, you still followed the plan I gave you. But you ate half of yours and then some of his half too. You told yourself it’s just half and the “I’ll eat now because I’ll do better tomorrow.” Has that plan ever worked for you before?

No Lord, it never has. It only increased my struggles to break free.

I see. . . My child, today is a new day. You will start over, this time with a new mindset. I am a God of second chances. I specialize in new beginnings, new life.

That’s what I want, a new life free of this bondage to overeating and excess weight. Lord, will this temptation ever go away?

My child, temptation is always there waiting for the opportune time to come forth, but as long as you stay full of My Presence you will have the strength and mindset to resist these temptations. I did not come to give you more rules to follow, I came to bring you freedom. I’ve come to set you free

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God is Spirit, and those who worship Him must worship in spirit and truth.”                   John 4:24 NKJV

Do you not know that you are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?  I Corinthians 3:16 NKJV

Just because something is technically legal doesn’t mean that it’s spiritually appropriate. If I went around doing whatever I thought I could get by with, I’d be a slave to my whims. You know the old saying, “First you eat to live, and then you live to eat”? Well, it may be true that the body is only a temporary thing, but that’s no excuse for stuffing your body with food, or indulging it with sex. Since the Master honors you with a body, honor him with your body! I Corinthians 6:12-13 (The Message)

Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4: 7-8 NKJV

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