Help me listen more to You, Lord. Help me listen more to what You say about me versus what others say. But especially, help me listen more to You versus what I say about myself, words of self-criticism, self- condemnation, and words of “should’ve done this” or “should’ve not done that.”
My Child, seek My Presence, rest in My love. Know I’m not a performance-based God. No, instead it’s My desire for you to seek and enjoy My Presence. So cease from your striving for perfection and enjoy My company, My Presence.
You can never achieve even your own performance standards. So let go and just enjoy My Presence. For My Presence is sweetness for your soul. My Presence will fill you with peace and joy unspeakable.
My love for you is not based off what you do. Instead My love for you is based off what I’ve done. You can’t earn My love by your so-called good performance. My love is freely given to you for no reason except I want to give it. I want to give you My love- not a “to do” list. I just want to love My people and help them to know my love deep within their hearts.
This is My focus- to exchange love with My people. I love them and I long for them to love Me. They’re not to strive to earn My love. After all it can’t be earned for the price is too high and no one can pay it, no matter how rich they are. But I freely give My love to each and everyone, no matter their walk in life. I am concerned over each individual. And I reach out in My love to all, to each and every single one.
People have been so beat up with all their man-created religious rules. They beat up on each other, full of judgements and accusations. Then they compare themselves to each other to measure their own performance standards. And all I want to do is love them.
Child, each one of those rules were to make their lives better and easier. Living by those rules will bring you a better life versus the concept of “do whatever you want to”. If you look at those who follow the philosophy of “do whatever makes you happy”, they are miserable.
Selfishness causes much heartache. The rules I gave help bring order and peace. When people do whatever makes them happy by living for their own selfish desires, it causes much pain and heartache. I knew selfishness caused misery, so I gave My rules as a gift of wisdom.
People think if they only please themselves then they would be free to enjoy their lives in their own pleasure. But it doesn’t work that way.
It’s only living a life in My Presence that brings true peace, joy, love, and deliverance. It’s only My love that sets people free to truly enjoy their lives.
These rules are to guide them until they come to know My love. When My Presence and My love rule over their hearts, then they won’t need to be concerned with rules, for I will lead them and guide them to an abundant free life, full of joy and peace. My love is the answer for all their questions.
I do not expect perfection from My children, for I know they are weak and frail humans. But I do long for their love.
Seek His Presence
But seek first the kingdom God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Matthew 6:33
Seek the Lord while He may be found , call upon Him while He is near. Isaiah 55:6
But it is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all Your works. Psalm 73:28
We love Him because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of god, not of works, lest anyone should boast. Ephesians 2:8,9
Child, all is well. Trust Me for I have it all in My hands.
But Lord, what about those being persecuted in other countries? Do You see those children who are abused or killed throughout the world? Starvation, murder, so many suffering from disease, or wars, what about all that?
Child, all of that will end soon, and very soon. I know about it all, and yes I cry. My tears are the only tears in heaven. “Jesus wept.” (John 11:35) I do weep, I do cry. My Spirit is grieved at much of what I see.
But then I see – -revival, people’s hearts seeking My love. I see kindness and people giving to one another. People are showing forth My love to each other and that makes Me smile. I see the love in a mother’s or father’s eye as they look at their newborn child and I smile. I see the aged and weary couple holding hands. As they smile at on another, I smile on them.
Yes, there’s much suffering in this world, but there’s just as much love in the world, even more so. It’s because I spread My love from one to another.
When you look and behold My creation in nature, you’ll see how I create beauty out of rocks. Yes, I can take all the rocks and hard places of life, both yours and those of others, and turn them into great reflections of My beauty.
Thank you Lord for hope. If I didn’t have You, I’d have no hope.
Child, I am your hope, I am your love, and I am your future. Remember, keep your eyes on Me, not what you see.
Lord, help me to have the right attitude within my heart.
Child, seek Me, seek My Presence. Then you will have true peace. You can say, “It is well with my soul.” Seeking the peace of MY Presence should be your priority. As you yield your heart, your mind, and your soul to Me, I’ll fill you with a calm, peaceful spirit versus your frustrations now.
Yes, rejoice even when your aches and the pains of age are catching up with you. Rejoice in your frustrations for they cause you to cry out to Me. Even though it seems to you things are bad, I will turn all things around and create good out of it.
That is My specialty, taking the bad and turning it into good. Satan is the one who want to kill, steal, and destroy. I come to bring life, bless, and build up My children into new life.
Trust Me, My Child
And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose. Romans 8:28 AMP
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5,6
Child, it’s not the answer for I AM the answer. It’s just a tool.
Lord, I don’t know what to do. I’m so tired of this struggle. You helped me lose 90 back in 2015-. And it seemed so easy then. At that time I was so full of Your Presence.
It’s all about an ongoing relationship. That’s what Jesus wants with you.
In our life group at church, we were discussing whether Christians should ask forgiveness every time they sin or not. Once you ask forgiveness, that sin is erased. But what about the sin you commit tomorrow, whether by accident or wrong choice?
It’s the old “once saved, always saved” argument. Do you think a person can just pray a sinner’s prayer, live a sinful life, and then expect to go to heaven because they once said a sinner prayer? What do you think?
This is my opinion- It’s all about an ongoing relationship.
In comparison we have to wash dishes and clothes most every day. We also have to wash our bodies every day or we will stink to high heaven.
As a Christian, you may be forgiven and saved, but sometimes you mess up in sin. You do this either by mistake or by choice. But just because you prayed the “Sinner’s Prayer” for salvation doesn’t mean you don’t need to ask forgiveness for your daily sin.
And we all daily mess up, backslid, or make wrong choices in life. But the whole point of it all is to maintain a relationship with Christ. Communicate, talk with Him about it all and do ask forgiveness.
He doesn’t want to condemn you.
Instead He wants to love you and help you live in victory.
So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus. And because you belong to Him, the power of the life-giving Spirit has freed you from the poser of sin that leads to death. Romans 8:1,2 NLT
My husband and I have a good relationship. But if I chose to go against his wishes, it would hurt his feelings. So I apologize when I mess up.
Confessing a sin is apologizing to God for our mess ups. He knows when we are weak and that we sometimes make stupid choices. But He’s always there just waiting for us to come to our senses, realize who He is, apologize, ask forgiveness, and renew our relationship with Him. He loves you just as you are, exactly as you are. But He intends to make your life victorious, no longer defeated by sinful choices.
If I never apologized to my husband for my errors, mistakes, or mess ups, it would hurt our relationship. But if I immediately apologize when I know I’ve mess up, then our relationship stays strong. And it’s the same for him too. He’s also apologizes to me when he realizes he messed up. After all, it’s all about our relationship, not who’s right or wrong.
This is what Christ desires from you, an ongoing relationship with Him. He doesn’t expect perfection for He knows you are human. And He understands your weaknesses.
He always sees what you can be with His help. And He wants to help you succeed with a life of victory. Success is not being rich or famous. It’s a life with peace of mind and peace of heart. Success is freedom from all that keeps you in defeat.
True peace can only be found in an ongoing relationship with Christ. He already knows everything about you, even with all your failures. And He loves you just as you are. His intent is to turn your life around from one of failure to a life of victory in Jesus.
You may think you have it all together, but I know I don’t. And I have no shame in asking Jesus for help. Only God can remove the inner garbage within our souls. Only God can renew our minds and cleanse our hearts.
What a wonderful thing it is to know that in spite of my many failures He still loves me. He really loves me. He really loves you too. And he wants an ongoing, deep, honest relationship with me and you.
That’s all He asks, to be our closest best friend forever. And He wants you to talk to Him about every detail of your life. Your friends may tire of hearing every detail of your day. But God never gets tired or bored with the details of your life, He’s very interested in you and your life. He hangs on every word you speak to Him. Talk to Him today. After all, its all about an ongoing relationship He wants with you.
Chew On This
Lord, if You kept a record of our sins, who, O Lord could ever survive? But You offer forgiveness, that we might learn to fear You. Psalms 130:3,4
(Fear is this case means respect. Again, my opinion.)
He remembered us in our weaknesses. His faithful love endures forever. . . . Psalms 136:23
Our Lord Father, Almighty God, who is in Heaven,
Our Almighty God, most powerful and most holy,
May Your Holy Spirit fill this earth and all its people.
Lead us to Your way in all our lives, our hearts, our minds, and our souls.
Give us food necessary for our bodies.
But Lord, what we need most is spiritual food for our minds and our spirits.
Forgive us for our many sins, failures, and the pain we caused to others,
Also the pain we caused You when we rejected You and chose our own selfish ways instead.
Help us forgive those who caused us disappointments, pain, and broken hearts.
Help us Lord, to turn away from all temptations,
Especially those which lead us away from Your love and Your will.
Deliver us from evil, including that which distracts us from Your love.
Deliver us from the evil that convinces us our own choices are better,
Especially when our choices are against Your Word, and Your plan for our lives.
You Lord, are the source of the real, true love which lasts forever.
You Lord, are the source of overcoming power which leads us to our victory,
Especially the victory You’ve already planned for us.
Let us stay in Your Presence, Your love, and Your will forever and ever.
Thank you Lord, for loving us in spite of our many failures, and our selfish ways.
Forgive us for all the times we rejected Your way,
Forgive us for wanting our way instead of Yours.
Help us Lord, to turn our hearts, minds, and souls completely to You,
So we may have true peace, true love, and complete joy in Your Presence.
The Lord’s Prayer
Our Father, who is in heaven,
Hallowed be Your name.
Your kingdom come.
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive our debts,
As we forgive our debtors.
And do not lead us into temptation,
But deliver us from the evil one.
For Yours is the kingdom and the
power and the glory forever.
Matthew 6: 9-13
Lord, I want Your love. Help me to return to You as My first love, my greatest love. Help me to obey You in all my ways especially in dealing with other people and my food issues.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19
What do You want me to write? Do You even want me to write? Lord, I don’t know what it is that You want for me or with me for that matter.
And I’m so concerned about all my grandchildren, and their parents too, living in the society of today. Lord, I don’t know what I can do.
Child, pray My will be done in their lives.
Lord, help me to only speak words of affirmation, encouragement, and of Your love for them. Keep my mouth shut, clamped shut when, or if, it is full of criticism or discouragement.
Also Lord, help me to love You in a way that it pleases You. I want a real relationship with You, not just the mechanics of routine prayers and Bible reading. In fact, I want a deep relationship with You. Overall, I want Your Presence with me at all times, throughout all my life.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19
Help me to turn away completely from this unnecessary food that so easily tempts and entraps me to compulsively overeat.
Lord, I do want to lose weight, and I also want to help Hubby lose his extra weight too. But I don’t want him to be skinnier than me. How embarrassing that would be.
So help me to yield Myself to Thee completely and resist temptation to put my face in the feeding trough.
Child if you seek and follow My will concerning your food, you will lose weight. I will lead you and you will have success.
Also Lord, when I write my prayers, thoughts, or even the words You spoke to my heart, I always consider if this would be good to write in this blog. Lord, I want our talks to be about our relationship, not the blog. But if I am to write for the blog, then lead me and help me to organize my time schedule to write and publish.
Child, it will be so.
Lord, I want to know You like those people who say they have a “word” from You. I want to love You like they love You. Also, I want others to see You in me and be attracted to You because of it. Help me to please You in all my ways.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19
Make me hungry for You. Yes, I want to be hungry for You. And I want a deeper walk with You too.
Lord, what do You want from me?
Your love, My child, I want your love.
Lord, these people who say they have a “word” from You spend hours in reading Your Word and in prayer too. I don’t have hours due to my job and my home responsibilities.
Child, it is not your hours I want. It is your heart I want. I want your love.
We love Him because He first loved us. 1John 4:19
Seek Your face, how Lord? What does it mean to ‘seek Your face’? I want to seek Your face, but I’m not sure how. Does this mean actually see Your face? Or does it mean seek Your companionship or to bond in friendship? What does it mean?
It means ‘commune’ with Me.
[Commune: to focus on God- converse, talk often with profound intensity, intimate communication or rapport as sharing your heart and mind with God in prayer- an interchange of ideas or sentiments.]
Lord, I want to commune with You. I want You as my very best friend. And I want to please You in all things.
At times I try to follow Your leading, but due to distractions and the voices of others who tell me what to do, I miss out on Your best for me.
Help me to listen and focus on Your voice. Not because I’m trying to be holy and religion, or better than others, but because I want what’s best for me. Your will is best for me. So, in a way could seeking Your will, which is best for me, be selfish?
No Child, I want to give the ‘best’ to all My children. And it pleases Me when they humble their own pride to seek My will for them. After all, this is the ‘best’ for them.
My will is always the ‘best’.
Also, I enjoy rewarding My children with the ‘best’ just as you enjoy giving to yours. My desire is to bless My children with My love.
If only they would seek My face and bond with Me in intimate companionship-friendship. They would never be separated, living their lives in constant communion -interaction, allowing My Presence to interact with them in constant interchange of covenant.
Lord, I want covenant with You.
Child, I want you, and all of your family, friends, and associates too. My desire is to commune and covenant with all people.
And it’s the distractions and the voices of others that cause My people to miss what is My best for them.
If My people would focus on a relationship with Me and humble themselves, which means seek My advice, seek My will and follow it, then I would heal their land.
If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land. 2Chronicles 7:14
But Lord, how do I seek Your face?
Talk with Me, even while eating and drinking you can be in My Presence. Invite Me to be involved in all you do, say, and even to what you think. Invite Me to be with you all throughout your day, within all you do. Throughout your day, interact with Me. I am real, not an imaginary friend, but real, more real than you’ll ever know.
Overall, it’s My desire to be involved in every detail of your life, even within your thoughts. So invite Me in to be with you. Seek My will and My advice about everything in your life, even about what you eat and drink. Then follow how I lead you. Then follow My advice.
Seek My face. Seek a relationship with Me and My involvement in every detail of your life. As you seek My involvement in all your activities and even your thoughts, then I can intervene for you. As you open your life, then I can bless you with My peace and My joy and My victory too.
Not only do I give peace and joy, but I will grant you victory to overcome the difficulties of life. No matter the circumstances or difficulties, I will always bring those who belong to Me through it all to finish in victory. I always bring those who belong to Me to victory. After all, I AM VICTORY.
For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty savior. He will take delight in you with gladness. With His love, He will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs. Zephaniah 3:17 NLT
Still A Day of Victory
Lord, thank you for the joy of yesterday. (Written December 15, 2020.) It was only because You told me it was still a day of victory that I had any joy at all. Every time I thought of the electors voting it made me sad.
But then I remembered You said it was still a day of victory. And You even gave me an answer for that negative critical person.
But Lord, what now?
Child, keep believing, no matter what your eyes see. Remember, “Don’t look at what you see. Instead, look at Me.”
Know this Child, I AM your source of victory. And I AM the winner. So rejoice for I WIN. Told you I was the Winner.
But Lord, I don’t understand. How can You be the winner because it looks like the other side won?
Child, I won! I AM the winner. So rejoice for this in the day the Lord hath made. Therefore rejoice. Today is still a day of victory. Never forget that. Everyday is a day of victory for you because I live in your heart. And I fill you with My love, My forgiveness, and My Holy Spirit. Therefore everyday is a day of victory.
The joy of the Lord is your strength. Therefore rejoice, be full of joy.
Lord, I want You
Child, I want you.
If only those who reject Me could know the joy I bring. Then they would gladly turn their hearts to Me.
Even when evil people think they win, they still have no true joy or peace. Their pleasure is short lived.
But when those who are Mine perceive they have lost, they can still be full of My joy and My peace for I AM the Winner over all.
I grant all of Mine true victory. No matter what they are experiencing here on earth- I AM their source of victory.
Now rejoice the birthday of My Son for that was the beginning of total victory over all- your victory and the victory of all My children.
Rejoice. Peace and goodwill to all men. For I have come to save the world. I have come to save you, even from yourself and your selfishness. For I did not come to condemn the world. Instead, I came to save the world.
Believe. Keep on believing. Then watch and see what I will do.
Uh. . . Lord, I really messed up yesterday.
Yes Child, I saw it all. But know I am the God of second, million, trillion chances. Remember?
Now get over it. Remember, “You’re never a failure, only a lesson.”
I have plans for you, plans for a future and a hope. Therefore rejoice for this is the day the Lord hath made. So rejoice. Rejoice.
Child, don’t long for greatness. For I long to be “great” in you. Long for My greatness to be in you.
Child, I love you.
Lord, I love you too.
Child, it is a new year for you coming. Rejoice, for it is a “New Thing” I am bringing forth.
Lord, is it revival?
Yes My child. But it is and will be bigger than even you can imagine. Therefore rejoice.
Don’t watch your fake news for they are not My voice. Instead, be happy for I AM the winner over all you see and over all you hear. Overall, I declare I AM the Winner.
Yes Sir. Thank you for talking to me.
Child, I talk to all those who will listen. Now hear what I say. Rejoice, for today is not a day of mourning. No, instead, it is a day of victory. Be happy for I AM the winner. Therefore, you are a winner too.
Words of Victory
Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice! Philippians 4:4 NKJV
For this is how much God loved the world- He gave His one and only, unique Son as a gift. So now everyone who believes in Him will never perish but experience everlasting life. John 3:16 TPT
For judgement is without mercy to the one who has shown no mercy. Mercy triumphs over judgement. James 2:13 NKJV
But the Lord is is His holy Temple; the Lord still rules from heaven. He watches everyone closely, examining every person on earth. Psalm 11:4 NLT
He will not crush the weakest reed or put out a flickering candle. Finally He will cause justice to be victorious. Matthew 12:20 NLT
Eating with God, why did I stop eating as God instructed me? Back then I lost over 90 pounds (2014) as I ate in submission to how God led. At the beginning of that weight loss I ate only 3 meals a day for 40 days. Then the Lord led me to cut my food portions in half. It seemed so easy back then. At that time I was 62 years old.
Then . . . Don’t we always have a ‘then’. So. . . after three years of maintaining weight loss, I went back to my old habits and old ways. . . Then. . . This resulted in significant weight gain.
So I started talking to my weight loss counselor, God, again. And my goal is to eat in submission to His instructions, only three meals a day with half portions and nothing else.
During my previous experience of losing 90 pounds I had felt God’s Presence so strong. But now eating only three meals a day seems like a major struggle.
I do want God’s Presence with me all the time. The problem is I find so much pleasure and comfort in food. I’m guilty of turning to food versus God just to deal with stresses of life.
So much bad news on television, riots, protests, CV-19, politicians arguing, and my church closed twice due to a CV-19 breakout. (Although now its’ open.) In addition to all this mess, I’m staying home most of the time with minimal social life, except for my part time job.
Instead of seeking God’s Presence through all of this, I’m guilty of eating treats and zoning out on social media. So in addition to my initial weight gain, I’m now dealing with another 10 pounds gained during the shut-down.
Lord, I need Your help. Could I start over again with a new commitment to eat before You in obedience? Could I have another chance?
Child, I cautioned, rather impressed upon you not to eat that extra serving of no-carb pizza. But you got it anyway.
Yes Sir. (Hanging my head down.)
It’s the surrender of your heart I desire. You want to lose weight, but I’m more interested in your heart. Now are you willing to start over again if that is what I lead you to do?
Then do so, for I intend to do a work in your heart that you’re unable to comprehend for now.
Yes Sir. Thank you Lord for Your mercy.
May you always be filled with the fruit of your salvation- the righteous character produced in your life by Jesus Christ. Philippians 1: 11 NLT
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 NKJV
Never thought I’d look like this at Christmas, wearing a mask in public. But praise God, He’s helped me lose 14 pounds so far. More to go. And it feels like freedom, eating with God, in submission to His will. Also my clothes are getting loose too. Praise God. Thank you Jesus. Thank you Holy Spirit.