My apologies to all that have read this blog in the past. I thought that if I wrote about overeating on a blog, it would help me stop overeating. I was so wrong and guilty. Therefore, I quit writing posts when I returned to overeating because I felt that it was hypocritical to write about losing weight when my face was in the feeding trough. So I stopped writing and prayed even more while I still continued to overeat. God, through His mercy and forgiveness, answered my prayers.
Thorough His grace and mercy, a new program has started at our church, “Celebrate Recovery“. I was very interested since I needed help with both co-dependency and my food/bingeing addiction.
I have never been anorexic, but I have prayed to become one. Years ago, I tried purging, using the help of Syrup of Ipec (no longer available on the market) and a spoon; but I got sick of being throwing up, so I wasn’t successful at becoming bulimic. I tried using laxatives for a very short while, but I wasn’t succesful at that either, thank God. It seems the only thing I was really succesful at was MAJOR BINGEING. At times, especially when my husband worked night shift, I would just eat until I passed out on the sofa.
When my pastor announced at church about this program, I became hopeful. I immediately volunteered to help. I also volunteered to take charge of refreshments for the group. What irony! At our leadership/organizational meetings, I would take homemade breads, and other assorted snacks, then on the way home from the meeting, I would consume over half of what was left. Then I really started eating! Wow! Back to my old ways and old habits! What a hypocrite!
Finally,as we visited another “Celebrate Recovery” established group so that we could learn how to organize our group, I realized that I really needed help. I decided to attend the ladies’ group for addictions and to ask for a sponsor.
Now I have something to really write about, “God’s answer to my prayers”. I will be glad to post my journey so that others may decide to search out a “Celebrate Recovery” group in your city. From what I understand, there are “Celebrate Recovery” groups throughout the United States.
I have journalnized about my overeating and my conversations with God about it for years. I will be posting my journey in “Celebrate Recovery” but I may include some of my past writings as well. I hope my journey blesses you. Thank you for your prayers.