Then the week was over and I ate a couple of mini-ice creams in one day. Gained that one pound back.
Lord, I was at a 93 pound loss and was considering trying to lose down to a 100 loss. But I would have to “diet” and the focus of my program is not to “diet”. So what do I do now? Do I go on a strict diet to reach the goal given to me back in 1974 by that weight loss organization? Then I could say I’ve lost 94 pounds. So close, yet so far.
Right now I’ve gained a few pounds. Guess it’s those desserts. Yes, I follow what You told me to do. I continue to stay in those boundaries, but I do push the limit.
Lord, You’ve worked this miracle in my life and I’m forever grateful. I also want to help others find their freedom and victory too. So Lord, what do You want me to do? I can’t lie, but I don’t want to go back to saying 89 pounds lost.
Who would you rather be; the one who eats the dinner or the one who serves the dinner? You’d rather eat and be served, right? But I’ve taken My place as one who serves. Luke 22:27 MSG
Yes Lord, I love to eat a good meal. Yes, I love to sit at a table and be served. To me, that’s true luxury; sitting at a table with someone bringing you food and keeping your iced tea glass full.
My child, are you willing to serve others? Are you?
Lord, what do You want me to do? Do I start “fasting”? Do I give up desserts all together? Do I go on a strict diet?
The focus of my testimony has been freedom with victory, so I don’t think a rigid diet is the answer. Lord, what is the answer? Everyone tells me to stop losing weight. After a lifetime of obesity never did I think I’d hear those words.
So Lord, where do You want me to stop losing weight? How do You want me to eat now? I can’t lie. Hubby told me, “You did reach a 93 pound loss. God did help you get there. You’re not lying. You’re straining a gnat.” Lord, You know I don’t like liars.
. . . He who tells lies shall not continue in My Presence. Psalm 101:7
Lord, I want Your Presence. It’s more precious to me than my necessary food. So what do I do now?
Prove it. Let go of those precious desserts you love. Love Me more. Change your focus. Don’t look at the numbers on that box. Fast from those scales.
Now focus on your obedience to what I tell you to eat. You tell others to seek My will about their food, you do the same. You’ve been eating your meals on automatic due to the instructions I gave you a while back. Now today, it’s time for new instructions and a new plan.
What plan Lord?
A fresh new anointing and a new victory brought about by a new fresh surrender, and a new walk of obedience.
Lord, am I going to have to let go of more?
Child, what do you want, fresh anointing or abundant food?
Lord, You know I want more of You.
Then be willing to let go of your food pleasures. As you empty out, I will fill you up. Lean on Me. Seek My will concerning your meals, what to eat, when to eat, or even if to eat.
But Lord. . .
Child, what do you want? You choose. I give you freedom to choose.
Sigh. Lord, I choose You. Help me. I know I’m weak, I’m distracted, and yes, I’ve been eating on automatic.
My child, you know every time you let go, I bless you. Then be willing to let go and see what I will do. This is your new food plan-ASK. Come to Me and ask before you put anything in your mouth. Be willing to yield yourself to My instructions and I will lead you to a new victory.
Keep a diary of your eating and My blessings. Get your eyes off food and on My glory. Do this for 40 days. Yes, you’re going on a 40 day fast, fasting from self and feeding on obedience.
Child, if you try you’ll find many rewards beside that number on those scales. Are you willing to try?
Yes Sir. I do want more of You. I love You and I trust You. I am where I am now because of You. But what about the lies?
Child, you can say you’ve lost 90+pounds because it is true. You know many factors affect those scales. I want you to trust Me for all things including a number on the scales.
Now go forth today into a new victory, the one I’ve already prepared for you. Oh, and make a public list of My blessings so others can see how I reward surrender and obedience. My child, I want you to eat at My table. What I have on My table is better than any earthly food.
Lord, I give myself to You. I am Yours. Help me be obedient in ALL things.
No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful! Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.Hebrews 12: 11 NIV
And just as My Father has granted Me a kingdom, I now grant you the right to eat and drink at My table in MY kingdom. . . Luke 22:29-30