Lord, long before the 92 pounds left , I was hopelessly tied up by the gluttony monster and he kept me trapped. He wasn’t about to let me go. I had given up with no hope of ever breaking free. Just like the elephant tied with a small rope to a stake in the ground. The gluttony monster kept me locked in the cage of defeat. It would have been easy to break away, but due to all my previous attempts that ended in failure I was hopeless.
I asked the leader of a recovery group, an ex-drug addict to be my sponsor. Then after I confessed a relapse and my second binge, she shook her head and said, “I can’t work with you. You need to get another sponsor. I know how to help drug addicts because I was a drug addict, but I don’t know about food addiction. I can’t help you.”
I stared at her in shock and disbelief. I felt rejected by an ex-drug addict. As she continued talking, I shut my ears and struggled to keep control of my emotions. I looked at the floor in shame and embarrassment fighting tears.
She continued, “I know it’s hard. A drug addict can lock the tiger in the cage and with God’s help walk away forever. But someone with a food addiction has to take the tiger out three times a day, feed it, and pet it before they put it back in the cage. Food addiction is so hard to get over and I don’t have the knowledge to help you. I don’t know how.”
By now I had lost the battle with my tears and some escaped down the my face. I sighed a deep breath to regain my composure, “I’ve got to go.”
“You’re not staying for the meeting?’
“No, I can’t,” sighing deeply trying not to cry, “I’m going home now to keep from embarrassing myself any further. Bye.”
Then I turned and ran fleeing to the car. Tears streamed freely now. No longer could I contain them. Once I was safely in the car behind locked doors, I screamed between the loud broken sobs. I felt broken and hopeless. Three days later I was still crying.
Another member of the support group invited me to lunch. While we ate our salads, she shared about her struggles with food addiction. “It’s okay to cry. You’ve just realized you have a food addiction. It’s called ‘Taking the first step,’ admitting you have a problem.” Before lunch was over I began to hope again.
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Thank you Lord for helping me. You defeated that tiger and destroyed it’s power over me. I may feed the tiger three times a day, but the power of food addiction no longer has me in bondage. I’m free now.
Now the roaring lions show up. I’m so overwhelmed by the size of the “to do” list. At times it looks like a huge mountain I’ll never climb over. As I meet one goal, another one stands in front of me. Sometimes I get overwhelmed as I look at it all. The “to do” lion roars at me.
At times, I’m convinced this computer is demon possessed. Last weekend I was sick, and still trying to work. I got so angry, it took all my self-control to keep from throwing it on the floor and stomping it to pieces. Why am I so tech challenged? What takes me several hours to figure out how, children complete in minutes. The computer lion roars at me.
Relationships, Lord I’m spending so much time on these projects, I feel like I’m neglecting my family. Hubby makes comments about my nose always being in the phone. I feel guilty, but yet I’m compelled to keep on. I’ve noticed that if I’m around someone on their phone, I’ve got to get mine out and look at it too! Facebook, email, texts, blogs,and the latest news, they all roar at me for attention. Do you think I’m addicted to my phone?
Feelings of inadequacy attack me daily. I messed up and did not respond to that person correctly. I feel they don’t like me. Help me give all the right answers and do all the right things. Inadequacy roars at me.
My child, your enemy is a roaring lion. Remember the TV preacher that said Satan was an old lion with broken teeth. Lions without teeth roar the loudest to cause fear. That’s how they defeat their victims, thorough fear. Don’t be afraid, go forth in courage.
My child, I AM the Lion of Judah, the King of Kings. I’m on your side. Those broken lions are no threat to you. Why do you consider them? How many time s have I told you ‘Don’t look at what you see, instead look at Me’? I am the answer to all your questions. I am the source to supply all your needs. Now go forth and walk in victory, for I am your victory.
Be sober, be vigilant, because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. I Peter 5: 9-10 NKJV
The lions may roar and growl,
yet the teeth of the great lions are broken. Job 4:10 NIV
. . . See, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, has triumphed. . . Revelations 5: 5 NIV
On His robe and on His thigh He His Name written: KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS. Revelations 19: 16 NIV