Lord Jesus, forgive me. I broke down last night. It really started yesterday morning when I was more interested in the news than my “sweet time” with You. Then last night I really broke when I started eating all the sweets. There are several sweets in this house due to others here, and I just completely broke down. For two days now, I have struggled against the pull of this temptation , but last night all my resolve just collapsed!
Then this morning I awoke from a dream. I dreamed that I was in line with everyone else to receive a diploma. The leader that gave out the diplomas called my husband’s name first. Then he told me that my name would be called later and that I could stand by my husband then. But he never called my name. When I realized that he had passed me by, I just left.
I had missed the mark! For me, those candies, that cake, and the ice cream that I ate last night was “sin” and it caused me to miss the mark! Oh Lord, I missed the mark! How do I draw back to You, to Your Presence? Do I change my “weigh-in” time to today? Do I start over again with yet another “Day One”?
(My child, start over new and afresh with another “Day One”, but do not weigh. Why should you weigh yourself just to see that number only increase? It would only serve to punish you more! Why would you want to do that?)
Lord, I am so sorry!
(My child, I love you and nothing can take away the love that I have for you, not your cake, not your candy, and certainly not your ice cream. Yes, you have made wrong choices, but I still love you!)
Oh Lord, thank you for loving me! I know I don’t deserve Your love! But what do I do now?
(Let us start over with a renewed relationship and a time of healing.)
Okay, how Lord?
(Get out My Word and read what I say to you.)
— If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His Word is not in us. I John 1:8-10 NKJV
(You will have victory, My child! You will have victory!)
— I acknowledge my sin to You. And my iniquity I have not hidden. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord”, and You forgive the iniquity of my sin. Psalm 32:5 NKJV
Thank you Lord! Thank you for the freedom and forgiveness You give! Today is a “new day”; therefore, I will be glad in it and rejoice! Thank you Lord! By the way, I love You too!
[I sense that He is smiling at me!]
NOTE: Yesterday morning, I threw away a cake that had been at my house for a month minus four days. I wanted to keep it for at least a month as a trophy of victory! I had not eaten any of it, praise God! But my husband got sick of looking at an “old” cake, so he convinced me to let it go! In spite of my failure to abstain from compulsive overeating, I did have a major victory! Thank you Lord!